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Tweak says, "Take me out to the crowd!"

goforshortbus (goforshortbus) wrote in welcomenetwork,
@ 2016-05-21 05:47:00

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daisy johnson / quake (mcu), delly cartwright, james rogers, mary margaret blanchard / snow white, melinda may, sydney sage

I've been thinking. We've had a lot of new arrivals lately that are still trying to get their bearings as far as what this place is all about. And with next weekend being a holiday, I thought it might not be a bad idea to throw some sort of get together so everyone new has a chance to talk to the more established, get a decent grounding on things.

So. Who's up for helping me set up a barbecue next weekend? Potluck, we can all pitch in something and hopefully the weather will hold out to let us enjoy the park.

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	Kara \| Grant. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 10:41 pm UTC (link)
	Not of you. None of the situations were ideal, but I never had a bad impression of you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Kara \| Grant. agent33 2016-05-21 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	Really? What'd you make of me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Kara \| Grant. goforshortbus 2016-05-21 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	That you were playful, intelligent, wonderfully sardonic once you got back into yourself but also lost, tentative, still trying to figure out what was the right way to move forward. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Kara \| Grant. agent33 2016-05-21 10:55 pm UTC (link)
	Did it show you my awful awful ill advised attempt to be Skye for you? Because that's when I knew I could love you. When you told me if anything happened with us, it had to be as me. That's when I really started trying to find myself, when I became that person again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Kara | Grant.

goforshortbus
2016-05-21 11:02 pm UTC (link)

It did. All of it. Well, other than where you got her picture from. But I wouldn't have put it past myself to have had one with me.

The last thing I would have wanted was you to feel obligated to me in the way you seemed to. Especially when we were trying so hard to get you back to you. I spent my whole life pretending to be people I wasn't. That was the last thing I wanted for you.

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	Kara \| Grant. agent33 2016-05-22 12:00 am UTC (link)
	It wasn't like that. It wasn't obligation, I just wanted to make you happy. To thank you. And I thought that was how. It was so stupid. I should have known better but we figured it out eventually (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Kara \| Grant. goforshortbus 2016-05-22 12:03 am UTC (link)
	I was still worried... I knew what could happen when you felt overly indebted to someone you think saved you. We did. I just wish I could remember it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Kara \| Grant. agent33 2016-05-22 12:06 am UTC (link)
	You thought you'd gotten my blind loyalty. I didn't go in to any of it blind Grant. At first you were all I had, the only thing I had but then you became what I wanted. I was never with you because I felt obligated. I know. But like I said, I'd rather you didn't remember the bad along with it (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Kara \| Grant. goforshortbus 2016-05-22 12:11 am UTC (link)
	I was afraid, I'm sure. I mean... when... Bobbi said things, when we were trying to get to admit to what she'd done, that I had groomed you, conditioned you to be my puppet, and my reactions, the ones I saw, I could see the fear that that was what I had done. We can make new memories here. Less bittersweet. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Kara | Grant.

agent33
2016-05-22 12:15 am UTC (link)

Has she admitted it here?

Because finding out it was her? Grant, I'm not sorry we did what you say we did. I guess I should be.

I'm sorry you thought that, you worried.

I wasn't your puppet. I promise you, I was with you because there was nowhere else I'd rather have been. Because I love you.

We can.

But I'm not letting go of the ones I have. Of when it was normal, when we were happy, that little while when it was just us.

I never want to forget those.

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