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Tweak says, "Veee~"

Zoe Washburne (warrior_woman) wrote in we_coexist,
@ 2016-03-14 18:45:00

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jesse custer, zoe washburne

Baby talk (Jesse)
Zoe found herself setting the table. Since Michonne joined her in the night, Zoe had a little more time. Tonight was something of a test in a way.

"You made sure she was--"

"Yes, madame." Zoe was distracted, so she didn't make the usual correction. It was almost a dance the two played. "Her gear is up-to-date. We've made all adjustments, and her desired mode of transportation has been tuned and gassed."

"Thank you, Alfred."

Zoe wasn't excited. She was nervous. She was aggitated, and she didn't know why she was bothering with this particular conversation. There had been a time she'd wanted to bring a little person into the world; she'd hoped that somehow some part of Wash was with her in the form of a child. There were times she wondered what a wee Cowboy Godling would be like, running around and causing chaos much like his...or better yet, her father. They'd never had the talk; they were ones to think too far into the future. Yet...he needed to know.

Didn't he?

Perhaps Jesse did have some say in the future once he knew. Anything was possible through him, wasn't it?

"Keep an eye on her tonight. If she heads into something ridiculously stupid, lemme know." There was a small part of her that hoped Michonne found something ridiculously stupid to get into. Not knowing how the night would go with Jesse was a toe or two on the scary side.

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cowboy_god
2016-04-19 10:53 pm UTC (link)

The sadness in her was more than Jesse could take. He stood up from his seat and moved around the table to where Zoe was, kneeling down by her. He wasn't sure if she even noticed that he wasn't sitting in front of her anymore.

He remembered the incident very clearly, how could he not? It had terrified him and led him down the path to be angry enough to act out. To step in where he'd never stepped in, to interfere in something that he might have normally allowed the City to sort out.

"Oh, Zoe." Jesse sighed. He'd been down this road, not the not being able to have road, but the having. He'd been happy and simultaneously unsure if they should be even having a kid in this place... and that had been taken care of in a way that he hadn't wanted either.

"How'd you find out?"

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warrior_woman
2016-04-20 12:23 am UTC (link)

Zoe's hand lifted on instinct to brush fingers through his hair. Jesse was someone she could touch without feeling like she was letting the world know her biggest secret - she was just a woman who wanted to be looked after sometimes. She looked down at him finally.

"Went in for a check up. Alfred schedules them regularly enough. I might have a cowboy god at my beckon call, but you know Alfred." Her hand rested on Jesse's shoulder and squeezed.

"Something wasn't right. Went in for more tests. I didn't know how I should tell you or if I should. We'd never talked about having children, and I don't know that I'd want to have any here. Not now." She was the Bat after all. The Bat didn't have children; it just didn't work. Or she didn't think it would.

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cowboy_god
2016-04-20 06:11 pm UTC (link)

The hand in his hair felt almost like she was trying to comfort him, and it made him a little sadder. Maybe that wasn't her intent, he didn't know her mind. And had promised, he was sure, that he'd never do that.

"No, we ain't talked about it at all." He shook his head. "But yer right in that thought, now and here might not be right. The City ain't a place I see as fit for raisin' a little one. If we were someplace else, I'd love to have a baby with you, darlin'. Know that as fact. If we were someplace else, maybe we could have a little house, and boring lives, maybe there'd be a weddin chapel and a party. A little family."

Jesse didn't know if he should be saying all of this. He didn't even know if it was something that Zoe would ever want, or had ever thought of. But he was saying it, and unless he was going to erase her memory of the last few moments, there was no taking it back.

"That said, I know it's a mighty difficult thing to have taken away from you. To not have any kind of choice in the matter, no say. I'm here for ya, sweetheart, however you need me to be."

Even if that thing was to heal her up, which he was sure he could do. She'd have to ask though. That was not a thing he was going to step in and do without permission like he'd done for her other healings.

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warrior_woman
2016-04-20 09:06 pm UTC (link)

Zoe wasn't expecting to hear that from him. She did her best to not expect anything from Jesse, not because she thought he'd disappoint her but because they worked better when there were no expectations. Her brows furrowed, and her lips pursed. He didn't have to say those things. He didn't have to say any of it, nor did he have to offer.

"You'd want that?" She didn't ask if he did at that moment. No, it was more a possibility, if they weren't here in this place, at this time, doing what they do. She leaned over and pressed a kiss to his lips.

"I'd want that, too. If things were different." If things were different, she would be somewhere else in some other time. Just at that moment it didn't matter. She was sure that if she was somewhere else, she'd somehow find a guy like Jesse. She'd found a Wash, and oddly Jesse wasn't all that different from the pilot. Just enough to be a different man.

"I just thought...I guess I needed to share it, not to fix it, just tell someone who would care?" She supposed that was it. She needed to share with him.

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cowboy_god
2016-04-21 05:00 pm UTC (link)

His hand went to her hair and brushed it away from her face. He tugged on a stray curl before tucking it behind her ear. This was a woman he loved, and would do anything for. If they got separated now, if the City sent them back home, he'd scour the universe looking for her, extending his powers to the absolute extreme to make sure that they were together.

He didn't say it out loud, though.

"If yer gonna tell anyone, it should be me, darlin. I'm here for ya, I'm yer man. I will always care what's goin on with you. Always."

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