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Tweak says, ""Make the world go away!""

Grant Ward is not a true believer (notanazi) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-10-08 13:47:00

Entry tags:

connor temple, davina claire, grant ward, jemma simmons, natasha barton/black widow, steve rogers/captain america

So we learned Coulson's insane. Good to know. You don't just send a scientist into HYDRA and hope it works out.

Figured you were playing the double agent Simmons, just remember its not always as easy as it looks even if you are working for the "good guys". You deserve better from him, all of you

[Fitz]

I know you had every right
Its a mess

Can we talk

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	leconnortemple 2014-10-08 01:33 pm UTC (link)
	Is this going to be a weekly thing? Just curious. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-08 01:36 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe. You don't have to care. But given they're not entirely fond of seeing me face to face, this is pretty much all I get (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	leconnortemple 2014-10-08 01:40 pm UTC (link)
	Cooould it maybe be because they're worried you could try and kill them? Just a thought there. Frankly, I don't know what good you think a running play by play of your futures will do. It doesn't change the past. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-08 01:46 pm UTC (link)
	Entirely possible. Oh its not a play by play. Simmons has been spending this entire week terrified about what she was walking into, and honestly, its worse than if she actually was one of them. Or am I not allowed to have an opinion now (Reply to this) (Parent)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-08 04:22 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, I don't think he will. He has no reason to. And, I really do believe him when he says he's sorry. I just don't want to look at him. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-08 04:20 pm UTC (link)
	I thought I probably was too. But, it didn't make sense that Coulson would send me in there. Unless I asked for it. (Reply to this) (Thread)

notanazi
2014-10-08 04:34 pm UTC (link)

You're not a specialist. Not trained for that. Coulson's telling you to make friends, get people in HYDRA to trust you, people you'll eventually turn right around and betray. You think they're all true believers? You think every person that works for HYDRA chose it? Can you really say you'll be able to turn on them when the time comes.

Speaking from experiance, its not easy.

And you do realise what they were getting you to do right, those triggers. How long before its you in that machine?

Coulson's lost it

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	dissectsthings 2014-10-08 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	I know, yes. But, I've seen more than what that me has. Don't underestimate me Ward. I am still a SHIELD agent. My speciality may have been different than yours, But we have no idea what happened between the medbay, and last night. And, if you'd care to remember, I'm tougher than I look. I swam to the surface dragging Fitz behind me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-08 10:06 pm UTC (link)
	You think I'm underestimating you? I'm not. You just shouldn't have to do what he's asking you to. Yeah, I know. I know you did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-08 11:53 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe. But, maybe it was my choice. We don't know. Maybe I'm looking for something specific, so it has to be me. Like the time it had to be Fitz. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-08 11:58 pm UTC (link)
	And are you ready to make friends in there, get to know people. What matters to them, their fears, likes, dislikes. Are you ready to do that then turn on them when you're ordered to. Because that's what you'll need to do. Maybe. But when it had to be Fitz they didn't send him in alone did they? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-09 12:17 am UTC (link)
	This me. The one here, no. That me, she's been through a lot of things I haven't. I really don't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-09 12:35 am UTC (link)
	Can't deny, experiances shape a person. I just didn't want you to become like that. You don't see it to you, you're all making decisions you never would have. Morals shift, little by little and you never really notice, and one day you'll wake up and realise you're no better than HYDRA (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-09 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I do see it. I wouldn't make those decisions now. But, you're the one who pointed out the fundamental difference between SHIELD and HYDRA. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-09 12:48 am UTC (link)
	I pointed out why HYDRA will win. And you have to admit. Its not inaccurate (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-09 01:04 am UTC (link)
	The points are valid. But, your conclusions are flawed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-09 01:34 am UTC (link)
	We'll see (Reply to this) (Parent)

	commanderrogers 2014-10-08 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	I thing becoming a SHIELD director would do that to just about anyone. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	justlykbudapest 2014-10-08 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	You're not wrong. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	notanazi 2014-10-08 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	He's already lost. Just hasn't worked that out yet. He'll just screw over people like Simmons on his way. He's basically asking her to do what I did (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	commanderrogers 2014-10-08 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	Dishonesty seems to be pretty much a way of life for SHIELD agents. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notanazi 2014-10-08 10:09 pm UTC (link)
	You work for any kind of organisation like that, you learn to omit facts. Not everyone has to learn to lie that well (Reply to this) (Parent)

	dissectsthings 2014-10-08 11:55 pm UTC (link)
	Not all of us. Some of us never have to. Not stuck in the lab. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 12:17 am UTC (link)
	Did you learn anything else you wanted to know? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 12:25 am UTC (link)
	I did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 12:25 am UTC (link)
	Good, bad, something in the middle? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Honestly about what I figured. I need to talk it out with Fitz though (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 12:34 am UTC (link)
	Are you...okay with it? Is everything okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 12:37 am UTC (link)
	I'm okay with it. I accepted it a while back. And I'm coping better than the me back home. Which admittidly, not hard. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 12:38 am UTC (link)
	Why do you think it's so different. You-here's coping vs you-at-home? ~~Is it because of friends and support you have here~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 12:43 am UTC (link)
	At a guess its not being locked in a cell in a basement of a SHIELD facility? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 12:46 am UTC (link)
	That would help, yeah. ~~So no. We don't mat~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 12:54 am UTC (link)
	Looks like I don't cope well, but thats okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 12:55 am UTC (link)
	At least it's better here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 01:03 am UTC (link)
	It is. Its better here. You all moved in with Marcel? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 01:04 am UTC (link)
	I'm glad. I am. It's perfect. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-09 01:36 am UTC (link)
	You've been good to me. I didn't expect anyone to react like that knowing what I did. Wouldnt have that back there. Good. Glad to hear it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-09 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	~~I knew I wasn't wrong about y~~ Maybe not, but you definitely do here. I won't be giving up on you, either. No matter what. You'll have to come by one day soon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notanazi 2014-10-12 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks. I think maybe I need that. I can do that. We're not gonna neglect your Spanish now are we (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Davina \| Grant notyourpuppet 2014-10-12 07:07 pm UTC (link)
	I think everyone does. No, definitely not! (Reply to this) (Parent)