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Tweak says, "oh no-no"

Rebekah Salvatore finally found love (hasherwhims) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-09-29 21:08:00

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claire callahan, hayley marshall, rebekah salvatore, stefan salvatore

[FILTERED TO HAYLEY]

So, I'm back from vacation now. Can we talk?

[FILTERED TO CLAIRE]

I'm sorry about earlier. Bad session and all. Thank you.

[FILTERED TO STEFAN]

Well.

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	notadamsel 2014-09-29 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	Of course. (Reply to this) (Thread)

HAYLEY/REBEKAH

hasherwhims
2014-09-29 08:46 pm UTC (link)

I kind of figured out a couple of days ago that Hope is my niece. Which is pretty insane to get my head around, but in a good way. I don't know what things are like at home, but as you may or may not have been told, Niklaus is currently in one of his "I hate Rebekah" phases. Long story. I've reached the point of trying to have minimal contact with him. Anyway.

I know you just got here and I am so not going to ask you to get into any conflicts with him because we all know what kind of a temper he has. I just want to say to you that you and Hope are always always welcome in my house [ADDRESS]. Regardless of what Niklaus might claim, Stefan would never do anything to hurt Hope in any way, and neither would I. So if you guys need anything, let me know, I'm here.

We good?

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	HAYLEY/REBEKAH notadamsel 2014-10-04 09:44 pm UTC (link)
	I don't really know Stefan, but I do know you and I trust you. I know you would never let anything happen to me or to Hope. So, we're fine, okay? And I don't really care if Klaus likes it or not. Whether any of you remember it or not, you and I are friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	HAYLEY/REBEKAH hasherwhims 2014-10-05 08:30 pm UTC (link)
	I can definitely see why the me at home likes you! Stefan's biggest fault in Mystic Falls was that he would do whatever made Elena happy. Here, he doesn't have that problem! So I'd really like the chance to get to know you, again/first time/timeline wibble. Want to maybe grab some lunch or something? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Panda wasaripper 2014-09-30 02:44 am UTC (link)
	Your brother is an asshole. We can disown him, right? (Reply to this) (Thread)

Stephanie | Panda

hasherwhims
2014-09-30 09:20 am UTC (link)

He's already disowned me and seems to have decided that I am the cause of all issues or something.

I mean really, like you didn't figure out the baby thing over the weekend like I did. The idea you would ever hurt a child is abhorrent and ridiculous.

I just

I hate how his words still affect me so much. A thousand years of abuse from him, a thousand years of never really having a life because of him and still I'm hurting because he's rejecting me. I loved him through everything and it's all meant nothing to him. And it hurts, Stefan. This is all part of the stuff I'm working out in therapy with Claire. The root causes of the feeding issues. It's not that I can't feed. It's that on some level I don't want to. I don't deserve to.

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Stephanie | Panda

wasaripper
2014-10-08 06:14 pm UTC (link)

I hate to say this, but I feel like I have to:

Maybe it's time to write him off. If he hurts you this much, he doesn't deserve to have you in his life, even tangentially. I know you swore to stand by him... but he swore the same thing and we both know that he hasn't exactly held up his end of the bargain, especially lately.

I think our lives, yours and mine (and everyone else in the world's really, if I'm honest here) would be better without him anywhere near it.

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Stephanie | Panda

hasherwhims
2014-10-08 06:25 pm UTC (link)

Logically, my head agrees with you. I mean, he's already written me off. I think everyone would probably be better off without Klaus around. I will never ever wish harm on him because I still love him. I just really don't like him.

My heart just can't seem to let go though.

Plus there's the practical side of things. There's Henrik. He still hero worships Klaus, even after finding out all the horrific things Klaus has done, and yes that does actually disturb me somewhat that my kid brother can still adore someone who is an actual psychopath after knowing how he's treated siblings. But I can't stop that and I won't lose Henrik. And then there's Kol, Elijah, Caroline. And now Hope, who is my niece.

I feel trapped in this loop. Like I can't get better with him in my life but I can't realistically function without him in it.

I went to Hell for him, Stefan. And he still doesn't love me and I still want him to, how fucked up is that? I just wish we could go back to being as carefree as we were over the weekend in Chicago. No siblings, no drama, there was just you and me and the champagne and dancing. Made me feel like an actual person again.

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	Rebekah changinghats 2014-09-30 02:58 am UTC (link)
	It's fine, sweetie. Like I said, when you're ready to talk, we will. No rush. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Claire hasherwhims 2014-09-30 09:23 am UTC (link)
	My brother has a child. Which everyone has probably figured out already because please, it wasn't complicated. But yes. Klaus has a baby. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah changinghats 2014-10-01 05:54 pm UTC (link)
	And you want one. Rebekah, this is a ridiculous world here. You could do anything. You have a husband who loves you, kids can still be a thing that happens. Whether adoption or the Seal or the Bauble things. Don't rule it out yet. And don't hold it against Klaus. Somehow I doubt he intended this to be a thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Claire hasherwhims 2014-10-01 06:14 pm UTC (link)
	I've wanted children since the days I was human. Let's face it, I'd be a terrible mother. I'm a mess. You know, it's strange. As much as my heart broke for myself, I was happy for him. At first. Until he used the news as an excuse be snide about me, horrendous about Stefan. (Reply to this) (Parent)