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Damon Salvatore had everything he ever wanted (someonehasto) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-05-27 13:16:00

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damon salvatore, hal yorke, jesse hauptman, katherine pierce, kol mikaelson, rosemarie

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I'm back. Sorry if I worried anyone. ~~I killed a few people, but it's fine I got rid of the bodies.~~

[Rosebud]

Okay, the presents were nice and all. But, it wasn't about Katherine. Me and Katherine are fine right now. I really was joking about it not being okay.

[Jesse]

Sorry I missed your party. Did you get the present I sent you?

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	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-02 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	He can't fathom it. Wanting that. But then, he's been this way for how many lifetimes now. I get it, though. You needed it. And it didn't magically solve all your problems and I don't believe you actually expected it to. But all the same, you needed this. And I'm so glad you got it, Hal. I really am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katherine

needstheroutine
2014-06-03 01:42 pm UTC (link)

About double how long we have, with some time in a box by all accounts. We lived every second of our lives, has he? Or is the 'we're the oldest' thing really just about being a show off?

Did I need it? You weren't so sure before. I needed it for other peoples sake, for Alex's and yes, for mine. But tell me what good its done me? I could have taken a cop out like Lauren did. I could have wished to be free of Him. But no. Humanity, because it was the safest way and because it was what Alex wanted, but where is she now?

Be nice if someone noticed that, but then they could deal with me whenever they wanted right, with the Originals so able to kill in a heartbeat, the Jedi, the whatever else this place has, vampires revelling in what they are because they don't need the kill.

Tell me what's better Katherine, go on?

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Hal

believesownlies
2014-06-03 02:08 pm UTC (link)

True. As for the showoff thing...I don't know. They all hold to their ages like it matters so much... And maybe to them it does, but I don't think anyone else really cares that much. Sometimes, I think it's just a crutch, for all of them.

It wasn't that I wasn't sure you did, it's just that I don't agree that it's better. Better for you, than what you were, than the struggle against the blood? Yeah, it is. Better, in general? I don't think so, personally. All I felt when I was human was weakness and vulnerability. There was no...relief of grievance for me. It was just...being less than I was and hating everything about that.

As for Alex...I don't know, Hal. Did she walk away or did you? Is it over because she said so? I don't think it's you being human that broke you two up, is it? Not really.

Are you doubting it now? Your choice. Because it kind of sounds like maybe you are.

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Katherine

needstheroutine
2014-06-03 03:47 pm UTC (link)

Age is power, we know that, but I'm fairly sure there are beings here that could annihilate them. I'm just not sure they see that.

I said it was over. Because she wouldn't accept that I disagreed with her. And I stand by that. I don't want her back.

Of course I'm doubting it.

The blood, it healed me from a wound I would never have had had I been what I was. And while the taste didn't do to me what it once would have, it was still...

Memories don't go away. I mean I debated asking you, given I was human and it wouldn't cause...that. But then that's cruel given the past.

I don't know, I don't know what I want anymore

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Hal

believesownlies
2014-06-03 04:44 pm UTC (link)

Probably. It's hard for them to comprehend that, though. Even though they know we aren't at home, they know how different things are here, they're used to being at the top of everything back home. Nothing and no one could touch them, save that one stake. Or the ash from that tree.

You don't? Not at all? Even if you could move past this one thing?

It wasn't the same, but it still gave you a little bit of that thrill that, given humanity, you know you shouldn't have, but past experience engrained far too deeply to go away.

I wouldn't fight you on it. If it's really what you wanted. But time as human... thought into pros and cons. You'd have to consider it. Whether he's still part of you or not, if you ever tripped the humanity switch, it'd be him all over again. Maybe worse. And even that aside, there's a chance you could be a Ripper, like Stefan, and then it's the same exact battle all over again and suviving on animals, knowing you're weaker for it.

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	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-03 09:11 pm UTC (link)
	And now it is possible they can be hurt. And it stings so they cling to their past. Kind of sad really. Not at all. She ended it when she chose them over allowing me my opinion. ...if I did you could put me down. I don't know (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-03 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	Something like that. Yeah, I guess it kinda is. I'd do it, if it came to it, I would. Just...think about it. No rash decisions. Not really your style. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katherine

needstheroutine
2014-06-04 12:26 am UTC (link)

You know it is.

And I'd be grateful. Its ironic really, how easily the thing I wanted most in the world has turned to nothing.

I've sat alone most of this week, just reading, occasionally meeting Tom, occasionally talking to you.

It seems I have few friends now that I've apparently hurt Alex and been mean to some people who frankly need to grow up and smell the hypocrisy that surrounds their life.

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	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-04 02:00 am UTC (link)
	It's kinda sad, actually... that it's turned out the way it has. That's unfortunately the way it is around here. They're blind to their own hypocricy and double standards. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-04 08:42 am UTC (link)
	Yeah well, she made her choice. Of course they do, or they lie straight to the faces of those who hold them in such high regard cause what if they lose friends for being the monsters they truly are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-04 12:50 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, I guess she has. There's also that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-04 12:58 pm UTC (link)
	You're infinately better than them. You stand up for your beliefs, don't ever back down. And yet you pander to them because of that man. I don't understand why he means so much to you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Hal

believesownlies
2014-06-04 02:50 pm UTC (link)

You really think that?

I love him, and I hate seeing the problems it causes for him to split everything between the two parts of his life. If pandering to them some eases some of that for him, good. And the other side is, of course, if it came down to a choice, which it seemed like it was coming to pretty quickly... they'd win over me, every time, and I don't want that either. So tolerance. It's all I'm looking for, really.

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	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-04 03:49 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. And it actually makes me sad that you don't think that. You've been acting like less than them for so long. Pandering to a madman, if Elijah loved you he'd put you first. And he'll never do that, will he. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-04 04:15 pm UTC (link)
	Five centuries of hearing something, I guess eventually some part of you begins to believe it. No. It's always family first for him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katherine

needstheroutine
2014-06-04 09:56 pm UTC (link)

And why should it be? Are you honestly happy being made out to be the villain of the piece? Yes you made mistakes, did awful things, but that family are hardly saints. I hate that you let them treat you like dirt.

So he doesn't love you as he says he does, perhaps you're a means to his independence from them, perhaps a pretty trinket he can wheel out to show how much he doesn't care for their opinion.

He lets them treat you like this

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	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-05 12:56 pm UTC (link)
	No, I'm not happy to be made the villian, but I can't stop their opinions, Hal. What would you do, in his situation, then? Where family always came first, above all else, and they hate the woman you chose. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-05 03:13 pm UTC (link)
	Then don't take it from them. Me personally, I'd have walked away long ago. I suppose it comes down to if loving him is worth how they treat you. How he lets them treat you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-05 03:15 pm UTC (link)
	Fine lines, Hal. My life is full of them. Maybe it doesn't make sense, but...he is worth it, to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-05 03:22 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps so. But you hesitated didn't you, because as true as that might be the reverse is not. He doesn't think your love is worth fighting his family on. And so he lets you be treated like a hound by a family that will never step away from their own hypocracy long enough to give you a chance (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-05 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	No, it's not. And I have to be okay with that. Or leave. Which I'm not doing, so... Rebekah's trying, at least. Caroline has actual, legitimate reasons to want to avoid me the way she does. And I have no hope of Klaus ever changing and I'm not deluding myself to think it, either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Katherine

needstheroutine
2014-06-09 03:52 am UTC (link)

Those aren't the only choices you have. Even though the latter really would do you good.

Rebekah's remarkably self involved, do you really see that as trying? Caroline would have had legitimate reasons if she hadn't made herself a hypocrite. At the very least Klaus is honest. He won't change but then I don't think he pretends to be anything less than psychotic.

And yet this is the family you ingratiate yourself to?

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Re: Katherine

believesownlies
2014-06-09 05:38 pm UTC (link)

For me, it basically is, though.

Who in Lawrence isn't largely self-involved one way or another? And am I really one to talk about that, of all people? But she actually has talked to me, completely civilly, if only privately it's something. A hypocrite? How is doing something to protect herself making her a hypocrite? I can't speak to that either, I had made a deal with the Bennett witch for immortality on level with Silas. Nothing could have touched me if the little witch bitch had held up to her end of the deal. You kind of respect him, don't you? In a sense, at least.

It is. Crazy as that may be.

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	Katherine needstheroutine 2014-06-11 01:33 pm UTC (link)
	Oh its not that. Its the fact that she acts sweet, and kind, judges others for imagined slights while dating that psycopath. That's why she's a hypocrite. Simply for his honesty. You could do better. And yet they make you feel as if you could not (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Hal believesownlies 2014-06-12 04:02 pm UTC (link)
	Imagined slights? I figured as much. Maybe I could. But Elijah is the one I love, so I deal with the rest secondarily. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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