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Rebekah Salvatore finally found love (hasherwhims) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2014-01-26 23:09:00

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caroline forbes, elijah mikaelson, kol mikaelson, lexi branson, niklaus mikaelson, rebekah salvatore

Filtered to Older Brothers + Stefan + Caroline + Lexi
~~Please don't freak out~~

Stefan and I were thinking of going away for a couple of days. I think I need to get my head together, and so does he. And I have a lot to make up for there.

And if Henrik is going to adjust to being told what we all are now, it'll probably help if I'm not around while I'm like this.

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	agelessbeauty 2014-01-26 11:26 pm UTC (link)
	You were in Hell. It's going to take time to even...I don't even know really. It's just gonna take time. Eventually you are going to have to see him. ~~Unless you aren't coming ba~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hasherwhims 2014-01-26 11:30 pm UTC (link)
	I want to be me again. And I don't know how. Did Nik tell you he talked to me? I want to. I want to be able to hug him and tell him it'll be okay, that nothing will ever hurt him again. But I can't do that yet. Not if the thing that hurts him could be me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

agelessbeauty
2014-01-26 11:37 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, he did. I don't know how you do it either. I don't think there's a quick fix or anything. I think its going to take time.

You shouldn't lie to him anyway. Plenty of things will hurt him throughout his life. None of you can prevent that. No matter how much you might want to shelter him, Henrik will experience loss and sorrow. Pain. But he'll experience all the good things too.

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	hasherwhims 2014-01-26 11:41 pm UTC (link)
	And I guess, being immortal and all, I do have all the time in the world. I at least want to be able to try to protect him from everything. It's just that right now, that's me. [Caroline] Stefan thought I might leave him. How could he ever think that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

agelessbeauty
2014-01-26 11:44 pm UTC (link)

And you can't have it compelled out of you either.

If you guys do that, it will seriously instill some resentment in him. Not for like huge things that might end up killing him. But pain teaches us lessons just as much as love does.
When you have your control you'll come back?

[Rebekah]
Because he's a boy and boys are stupid.

I don't know really. I think losing you to Hell messed with him a lot and he's still accepting the fact that you're really back.

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	hasherwhims 2014-01-26 11:47 pm UTC (link)
	Nope. But he's just a kid. I will. I only plan on being a couple of days, just a change of scenery, some space. Lawrence feels suffocating right now. [Caroline] He said he knows what he's like to live with like this, and he wouldn't blame me if I left him. I did this to him. It's my fault, and he's not blaming me and I don't get it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-01-26 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	I'm just saying that no one wants their life micromanaged by someone else. Even if it is to protect them. No matter how old they are. Okay. [Rebekah] Why would he blame you? You didn't do anything, Rebekah. You were swept into the cage because you wanted to save Klaus. You endured tortures none of us can imagine because of that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hasherwhims 2014-01-26 11:54 pm UTC (link)
	I guess I'm being a bit of a hypocrite. [Caroline] I pushed him into being what he hates most about himself. The Ripper. I promised to always be there for him and I did that. I'm a horrible wife and he still loves me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-01-26 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	He's your family. It's expected. [Rebekah] You had your emotions off. If they had been on would you have done it? You're not a horrible wife. You're a wife who endured a horrible situation and was going through a rough patch. That does not equal horrible wife. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hasherwhims 2014-01-26 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	I just want to shield him from everything. [Caroline] Of course not, I'd never hurt him. ~~Elena wouldn't have~~ I just know I don't deserve someone like him loving me. Never have. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	agelessbeauty 2014-01-27 12:02 am UTC (link)
	You can't. [Rebekah] Don't even. You do too deserve his love. He deserves your love. And what does that even mean really? You love him and he loves you. There's no rhyme or reason to love. You just do it. With all your heart as best you can. We all deserve love, Rebekah. Some of us just run from it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

hasherwhims
2014-01-27 12:06 am UTC (link)

I know.

[Caroline]

I do love him. So much. And despite what my brother claims, I have only truly loved three times in my life. Alexander, Marcel and Stefan. And I love Stefan more than anything.

But I'm not her. I'm not Elena. I know Stefan loves me, and I'm thankful for that every single day, especially right now. I just wonder if Elena was here, if she showed up tomorrow from a time when they were together and so in love, before my family came into her life. She's the one everyone loves.

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Rebekah

agelessbeauty
2014-01-27 12:10 am UTC (link)

I don't know what would happen if she did return. But I don't think Stefan would just walk back into her arms. Not when he knows what will happen. Not when it'd hurt you so badly.

I used to think they were epic loves, but that was pretty much before I really knew what love was. I loved Tyler and I loved Matt, but neither of those compare to the all encompassing degree that I love your brother.

And she was here and he didn't go for her. He wanted you.

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	Caroline hasherwhims 2014-01-27 12:13 am UTC (link)
	I thought he did. In the Cage. One of the things it showed me. It felt so real. Do you think he could possibly love me more than he loved her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah agelessbeauty 2014-01-27 12:14 am UTC (link)
	I think the Cage showed you your worst fears. Yes. I do think that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline hasherwhims 2014-01-27 12:17 am UTC (link)
	Dante's Inferno. The Nine Circles. But the main two were him leaving me and Nik killing me while everyone laughed. I hope so. He means everything to me. Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah agelessbeauty 2014-01-27 12:18 am UTC (link)
	Your two greatest fears realized repeatedly. Seems like hell to me. I'm just telling the truth. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline hasherwhims 2014-01-27 12:20 am UTC (link)
	You know Nik doesn't understand why I did it. Why I'd do it again. I know. That's why I'm thanking you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah agelessbeauty 2014-01-27 12:20 am UTC (link)
	Why you saved him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline hasherwhims 2014-01-27 12:22 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. He just doesn't get it. Sometimes he's a frustrating idiot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah agelessbeauty 2014-01-27 12:29 am UTC (link)
	He is. But he's slowly learning. You cannot expect miracles after a thousand years of idiocy! He compromised! That's something! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline hasherwhims 2014-01-27 12:30 am UTC (link)
	I tried explaining it in short words, he still didn't get it. Maybe I should try a diagram. He did, I'm very confused. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rebekah agelessbeauty 2014-01-27 12:33 am UTC (link)
	I don't know if he can handle that. He knows how to do it. So you remember to remind him of this the next time he's all I WILL NOT COMPROMISE. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline hasherwhims 2014-01-27 12:34 am UTC (link)
	I was going to suggest mime, but that would just be wrong. Oh, I'm printing off several copies of this. And screencapping. And all the ways I can think of to prove this happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	itchtokill 2014-01-27 03:30 am UTC (link)
	I second this as a plan. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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