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Caroline Forbes (agelessbeauty) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-07-07 00:42:00

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caroline forbes, kat warbler, matt donovan, mercedes thompson, niklaus mikaelson, rose tyler

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Okay, there is only so long I can sit around adjusting and pretty much doing nothing of importance before I go completely insane. Which is just not even a tiny bit fun. I know, I know. Do the classes. But even those only take up a tiny bit of time. And I got the volunteering thing at the museum, but even that’s only six hours a week so...

BASICALLY. Does anyone know any places around town that are hiring for teenagers? Something that doesn’t mean working at fast food would be preferable because raw meat is just...not a great idea to be around really ~~but I am so close to just doing that~~.

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	Klaus agelessbeauty 2013-07-08 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	Fine. What made New Orleans different than any other place? I have a few. Most of them have to do with trusting people I shouldn't have trusted. Or compelling people I shouldn't have compelled. Why was he so hellbent on destroying you anyway? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Caroline

humanitytorn
2013-07-08 07:42 pm UTC (link)

Everything. Its a melting pot, so much to catch your interest, you're surrounded by culture everywhere you look. And for a while I thought I could settle somewhere.

So your regrets are out of guilt? Who are these people you shouldn't have trusted?

He hated us, he created us and he decided we were abominations. And me I was the worst of all. He'd hated me in life and he hated me still because when I turned, when they realised that I had not ever been simply human. He realised I could not have been his. And more than that, who my father was. You'd think he'd have blamed Mother for her infidelity wouldn't you? But no. It was another reason to hate me

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	Klaus agelessbeauty 2013-07-08 07:47 pm UTC (link)
	Why don't you go back there now that he's gone? Damon comes to mind at the top of the list. My father for a bit. ~~Tyler when he hesitate saving~~ So basically he just needed extra reasons to hate you and he found them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Caroline

humanitytorn
2013-07-08 07:54 pm UTC (link)

Its where I was going to go when I considered leaving Mystic Falls. But would you believe I keep finding reasons to stay.

But Damon made you what you are, albeit accidentally. There's a part of you happier being a vampire. We both know that.

There's a question. All the horrible things Damon Salvatore has done and yet he finds himself trusted by one and all? Does that ever bother you? Do you see a difference with him and me?

Oh he never needed extra reasons

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Klaus

agelessbeauty
2013-07-08 08:06 pm UTC (link)

I wouldn't change who I am now for anything in the world if I'm going to be completely honest.

I don't know how to answer that. Some days it makes me so angry I could scream, other days I'm perfectly fine with it. Sometimes I want to drive a stake through his heart and others I don't really care much for whatever he's doing. He's...different here. I don't know how I feel at all about this Damon. I was going to say that he's saved my life, but I guess you've done that too. Though one of those times it was your own damn fault I was even dying. But I understand that you were trying to get my mom's loyalty there and probably prove something to Tyler, too. Just because I understand it doesn't mean I approve of it.

Maybe there aren't too many differences between you and Damon, but then again, I was always Team Stefan.

Why won't you leave Tyler alone?

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Caroline

humanitytorn
2013-07-08 08:15 pm UTC (link)

Nor should you.

I would never have let you die. You need never fear for your life here Caroline, I promise you that.

Oh god don't lump me in with Damon, I've got a bit more style than that at least. Besides which Stefan in his heyday was far more to be feared than Damon ever could hope to be.

I won't leave Tyler alone because I can't leave him alone. He tried to kill me, turned my own hybrids against me. Did everything in his power to destroy me. I can't let that stand.

The fact he is still alive is because of you because you love him and because it would devastate you to see him die.

But if he comes here, or if I find him back home. I don't know that I could let his transgression slide.

...Why do you love him? What is it?

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Klaus

agelessbeauty
2013-07-08 08:28 pm UTC (link)

I don't know if I'd call when he was in ripper mode Stefan's heyday. I'm pretty sure he wouldn't.

Why do you have to treat them all like servants? Make them do all of your bidding. They'd have been grateful to you for breaking them of ever having to turn. I saw how painful that was for Tyler. Helped him threw it as best as I could and he was so happy to be free of that. But then you had to go and make it a life of servitude where they didn't get any say so. You know if you'd given them a choice and asked nicely I bet some of them would've been happy to do things for you without a stupid Sire bond forcing them to do it.

We're just not going to talk about what would happen if he comes here and you hurt him.

Because I feel happiest when I'm with him. ~~Usually~~ And he makes me smile and laugh and I don't know. I just do.

What scares you?

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Caroline

humanitytorn
2013-07-08 09:06 pm UTC (link)

I suppose you wouldn't no, or him. But he was definitely more interesting with the gloves off. Until Alexia and her meddling.

That's what the Sire Bond is. I freed them of that life, of being slaves to the moon. If I'd freed them they'd have left. I wasn't about to let that happen.

You feel happiest when you're with him. Is that why it was so easy to fake the breakdown of your relationship? So easy for me to believe that he and Hayley were involved. There hadn't been a lot of smiling lately.

~~Lonli~~

Death, Same thing that frightens most vampires

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Klaus

agelessbeauty
2013-07-08 09:47 pm UTC (link)

We'll just have to agree to disagree on that one because without Stefan being "uninteresting" I wouldn't be the vampire that I am today.

You don't know that they would've left. Or even if they did, it didn't mean they wouldn't come back to help you with stuff if you asked them too. But then, the whole point of having them around was so that you wouldn't be alone, wasn't it?

Maybe I'm just a really good actress. Or you were seeing what you wanted to see. ~~Or maybe~~ It's hard to smile when life is kind of crappy ~~and we'll just not go into how I was able to easily smile at the pageant with~~

I don't think that's it.

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	Caroline humanitytorn 2013-07-08 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	Okay that one I'll grant him. There were a number of points to having them around. I'd say you're a great actress, Tyler, not so much. And Hayley, the poor girl, she shows every emotion she has if you know where to look and what buttons to press. And what do you think I'm scared of? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Klaus

agelessbeauty
2013-07-08 10:12 pm UTC (link)

But you didn't have to go forcing them to stay.

I don't really see why it matters anyway. You know it was all a ruse.

I believe I already told you that once. You're afraid no one else will ever love you and you'll be alone. That's why you create the hybrids, that's why you give out little gifts and probably why you carted around your siblings in coffins for centuries. You didn't want them dead, but you didn't want them to leave you either.

Except. You're actually trying the connecting thing right now and that ~~scares me~~ is a change.

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Caroline

humanitytorn
2013-07-08 11:14 pm UTC (link)

Perhaps not. Turns out its a moot point anyway and we have better things to talk about.

I'm aware of what you told me. Your honesty really did mean a lot. Your opinion hasn't changed any then? You think its loneliness?

I'm trying. While people insult me knowing I'm bound to this treaty, act like they're not scared. People who a year ago I'd have slaughtered by now, and I don't act because....well, you seem to see better in me

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	Klaus agelessbeauty 2013-07-08 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	I don't think you can suddenly get over something like loneliness in like a year, so yep, still using that as my assessment. I can see that you are. Or maybe you're doing it because you realize there's no reason to slaughter people just because they put up an attitude with you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline humanitytorn 2013-07-08 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	There's reason enough. There's no other way to garner respect. Or that's how it was, I suppose, before you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Klaus agelessbeauty 2013-07-08 11:57 pm UTC (link)
	Okay, time out. You cannot seriously be reeling yourself in because of me. I am not that special. So just stop saying that you're doing this for me or you're doing things differently than before you met me or any of it. Because that doesn't even make any sense. You don't make sense. Stop not making sense. [ooc: no ij that was not the icon i wanted to use] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline humanitytorn 2013-07-08 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	And that Caroline is what disappoints me. You are that special. I spent so very long hating the thought of love or affection. I told Elijah it was a vampires greatest weakness and perhaps it is. But if Tyler Lockwood was truly worthy of you then you would know precisely how special you are because he would tell you so every day. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Klaus agelessbeauty 2013-07-09 12:01 am UTC (link)
	Right. I think we've done enough screwing with my head for today so I'm going to be bowing the hell out of this conversation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Caroline humanitytorn 2013-07-09 12:06 am UTC (link)
	~~And yet you don't deny he's not worthy of you~~ Good evening then Caroline (Reply to this) (Parent)

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