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Tahiri Veila knows the price of pain (hrosha_gul) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-04-21 10:24:00

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jacen solo, mara jade skywalker, tahiri veila

[Filtered to Mara Jade Skywalker]

I think I need help
I'm not sure how much more of this I can handle
I'm in over my head

Master Skywalker, may I talk to you?

[Filtered to Jacen Solo]

Will you be requiring me today ~~my Lord~~

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	Tahiri lifeyoulive 2013-04-21 09:30 am UTC (link)
	Of course, what do you wish to talk about? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Master Skywalker hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 09:31 am UTC (link)
	Jacen. I don't know who else I can talk to, definitely not Jaina or Anakin. I know things are complicated between you, I just think I might need some help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri lifeyoulive 2013-04-21 09:45 am UTC (link)
	~~My favorite topic~~ Is he becoming more difficult? I admit I have been wary of him in light of Allana and Tenel Ka being sent back home. I will of course help you in any way I can. Both of you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Master Skywalker hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 09:48 am UTC (link)
	I've been trying to keep him from slipping. He's not Caedus, really not him, not yet. But he's cold. ~~And violent and okay, this is me and pain and I enjoy it, we all know that~~ I'm starting to worry that I might not be enough. It's been nearly a month now and things aren't getting better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Tahiri

lifeyoulive
2013-04-21 10:36 am UTC (link)

Which basically means he is not really letting himself feel the loss, he is simply burying it and focusing on anything else. Something must certainly be done before he slips further. While I know talking is not exactly his strong suit, he does need to let himself feel, to grieve and move on as best as he can. Though more than just words will be needed.

~~I hope I do not regret what I am about to propose~~ I can try talking to him in person, try moving him to feel the pain. To truly keep him from slipping, he can't get lost in the coldness, in the anger. He must embrace the pain of loss and accept it.

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Master Skywalker

hrosha_gul
2013-04-21 12:06 pm UTC (link)

We've been doing a lot of training and hunting. He's focused on that. But he has shut down many of his emotions. ~~There was just that once. And his rage when he killed the creature we were hunting. Also there's us~~

I'm just not sure how much more I can handle on my own. He's more likely to listen to you than me. Definitely more likely that listening to Anakin or Jaina.

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	Tahiri lifeyoulive 2013-04-22 07:17 am UTC (link)
	I promise you I will do whatever I can to get him to not shut down on himself any further. Sometimes I do question how much he will actually listen to me, but that is not the point here. I will ask him if he will meet with me. Let's just hope that he will listen to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Master Skywalker hrosha_gul 2013-04-22 10:01 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. Can you avoid telling him I approached you? He would never forgive me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri lifeyoulive 2013-04-22 10:27 am UTC (link)
	You're welcome. Do not worry, he will not learn of it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-21 09:40 am UTC (link)
	Why? Do you have somewhere more pressing to be? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 09:42 am UTC (link)
	no, of course not. I need a break. I need a day, please, just one to myself Not pressing, no. Just if I wasn't needed, I was considering running a few errands. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-21 09:50 am UTC (link)
	If you weren't needed. I see. You have till 3. Then I want you here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 09:51 am UTC (link)
	Yes, sir. I was thinking of meeting Elena for coffee. Would you like me to bring you anything? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-21 09:54 am UTC (link)
	No. I'll manage with what I have. Go and...meet her. And return to me (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 09:56 am UTC (link)
	~~How much longer will we keep doing this?~~ Alright. We should eat later today though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-21 03:40 pm UTC (link)
	Should we? I believe I've eaten a sufficient amount (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 03:45 pm UTC (link)
	I've been using a lot of energy with healing trances lately. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-21 04:24 pm UTC (link)
	Are you not happy with how things have been? Is that it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 04:25 pm UTC (link)
	I'm half Vong inside, Jacen, I'm not immortal. Even I have limits of how much I can take. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-21 04:27 pm UTC (link)
	You could walk away. If you can't take it I mean (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-21 04:35 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not walking away from you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-22 10:22 am UTC (link)
	No, you really wouldn't would you? Could you? I don't know that you could actually do it even if you wanted to. But then you don't want to. You never wanted to leave my side. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-22 10:27 am UTC (link)
	I never want to leave you. I believe in you, even when everyone else left. You know that. You're also going to end up killing me if this keeps up at this pace for much longer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-22 10:31 am UTC (link)
	I do know that. ...I wouldn't let you die Tahiri. Oh I'll hurt you and you'll thank me, but you won't die while I'm around. What do you want from me? Honest answer now (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-22 10:33 am UTC (link)
	Good. Are you in control enough to be sure of that? I want to know if I'm making any difference here. ~~I want to know if I actually mean any kriffing thing to you or if I'm just someone able to take what you can hand out.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-22 10:39 am UTC (link)
	Aren't I always? You are. You're making a difference. With you, I can feel something (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-22 10:43 am UTC (link)
	I don't know. Is it enough? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-22 10:47 am UTC (link)
	Are you scared? Is that it? I don't know. It's something. It's keeping me focused (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-22 10:50 am UTC (link)
	I don't want you to kill me by mistake. Is this the plan forever then? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-23 08:58 am UTC (link)
	I'm not going to kill you by mistake Tahiri Has it been so terrible for you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-23 09:12 am UTC (link)
	Alright. I wouldn't say terrible. You know how I am, the needs I have. I just worry that this isn't going to be enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Tahiri jeditraitor 2013-04-26 11:59 am UTC (link)
	You worry too much. You all do. Believe me the alternative involves a lot more lightning. This is healthier (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jacen hrosha_gul 2013-04-26 12:33 pm UTC (link)
	I just want to know which you I'll be dealing with, that's all. Alright. (Reply to this) (Parent)