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Jessica Moore (fieryjess) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2010-10-22 12:23:00

Current mood:	crushed
Entry tags:	jessica moore, quinn fabray

Moving In
WHO: Jessica Moore, Quinn Fabray, open
WHAT: Moving into her new apartment, having ice cream and dealing with the Sam/Ruby stuff.
WHERE: Apartment Complex
WHEN: Later the evening after she finds out about Sam and Ruby
WARNINGS: TBD

Jessica turned the key in the door of her new apartment, opening it and stepping inside. She looked around her at the large, impersonal room, so different from the smaller but more homey apartment she had shared with Sam.

Sam.

God, it hurt. She didn't want to be one of those bitchy, whiny women who let getting dumped destroy their lives, but for the first time she understood why they felt that way, at least. Her heart was shattered. There was no other way to say it.

She closed the door, locked it behind her, and collapsed onto the couch, burying her face in her hands. Her eyes burned from tears that needed shedding, but try as she might, she couldn't get the tears to fall. Sometimes things just hurt too much for tears. Sam had been her first serious boyfriend. She'd been on dates in high school, sure, and one or two in college, but the guys she generally attracted weren't the guys she was interested in. She didn't want the jocks who were constantly hitting on her - she wanted the sensitive smart guys who usually didn't even show interest because they didn't think they stood a chance with a cheerleader. So nothing had ever gone past more than a date or two, when the jocks started pawing at her after she discovered they couldn't hold a conversation worth having.

Then she'd met Sam.

He'd been everything she'd ever wanted. Handsome, sensitive, smart...and she'd fallen for him hard. He was the first guy she'd ever slept with, and the first guy she'd ever loved. It had become so that she couldn't see her future without him in it, by her side, her support and her love.

And now that was all gone, and his heart belonged to another.

The pain shot through her again, and she nearly gasped. She didn't want to stay here. She wanted to go home, as far away from Sam and his new girl as possible. But she couldn't go there either. Not now. Not after what had happened.

Angry at herself for her weepiness, she went to the window and opened it, letting in the spring air. The breeze dried the dampness around her eyes, although it couldn't clear away the redness.

She had to think of the future now. The past was over, and she couldn't change it, but she couldn't dwell on the things she'd lost. It wouldn't do her any good.

Even the darkest night will end, and the sun will rise...

The lyrics popped into her mind and she took them to heart. This too, would pass. And she would make it through.

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overthebra
2010-10-24 11:40 am UTC (link)

It was pretty horrible what the girl was going through. No ones fault that she could see, but it didn't make it any easier did it. Poor Jessica had remembered a boyfriend, plans for the future and now, years later to him but not to her there was someone new. If she was honest, Ruby kind of freaked Quinn out, she'd scared the hell out of Puck even if he hadn't admitted it to her. And this was the new woman. Did Jess even know about the whole demon thing? If she didn't Quinn wasn't going to be the one to tell her. It wasn't her place. But she'd told Jess she'd come visit so she'd gotten Beth ready for the visit and put her in the pram walking down to Jess's room knocking on the door balancing baby and bag as she did.

It seemed to Quinn like the girl needed a friend. And she could do that for her if nothing else. Just be there, sit, let her play with Beth, let her talk it out, whatever she needed. It was a awful and cruel situation but she'd decided that she was going to help Jess through it. Someone needed to and as much as others were very probably trying, anyone like Sam would be too close to the situation. She understood that and she hoped he did too. This was the best way. Get Jess settled in, make sure she had a friend.

"Jessica, its Quinn" she said leaning in to make sure Beth was comfortable in her pram. She seemed to be. She'd drift off to sleep in a little while by the look of her and it would give her and Jess a chance to talk if thats what she wanted to do.

"I brought soda and cookies and a movie. It's a start right?"

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fieryjess
2010-10-25 11:18 am UTC (link)

Jessica was thrilled to hear the voice at her door. She had been alone too long with her own feelings already, and they were starting to turn towards the morose. She really didn't want to waste her time feeling sorry for herself, she hated watching the weepy, whiny women who spent weeks with kleenexes, letting themselves go to hell as they tried to readjust to not having a man in their lives. She had never thought she'd be like that. And she refused to be, no matter how much her heart hurt.

She answered the door, smiling at the baby in the stroller with an indulgent expression before looking up at Quinn and smiling.

"Oh, she's beautiful," Jessica said softly, with obvious admiration. She had always planned on having a couple of these in the near future. Now, single and with the apocalypse looming, she was starting to think she'd never have the chance.

Another thing to be sad about.

"Both of you, please, come in. That's wonderful, Quinn. Thank you. I'm alright, really, it's just...taking some time to get used to. It's a big adjustment being here at all, and, well, to have to handle it alone with a broken heart...well, let's just say that it doesn't make it any easier."

She stepped out of the doorway to let them in.

"How did you end up here?"

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overthebra
2010-10-27 01:11 pm UTC (link)

Quinn loved compliments about her little girl, she really was without a doubt the most beautiful thing in the world to her and with Jess cooing over the pram, Quinn grinned pleased, as she stepped into the room pushing Beth ahead of her. Maybe just having Beth here had made the new girl feel better, she hoped it had. It did something good for her. She wasn't sure what she needed to do here bar talk to Jess, let her vent, let her rant. Let her hate Ruby because it was normal wasn't it. Other woman and all. It was perfectly right for her to have these feelings and Quinn knew that those wouldn't go away for quite a while. Still, she'd sort of made it her mission to help her through. Because where Jessica was right now, it sucked.

She set Beth's pram up somewhere she could see it and check on her but for now the girl was happy to sit where she was mostly asleep already. As for how she ended up here, "...I pretty much just did, one miniute I was at School in Ohio and the next I was here. It was crazy but I've kind of settled in a bit and I'm not the only one from my world here so that's good. Mostly the freaky thing is people know who we are so you get a lot of...fan stuff when they see you just out and about. In that resepect at least you don't have that to deal with."

She looked over to Jess finally, not sure how to say it, not sure how to ask something so simple as if she was okay when of course she wasn't. "How are you settling in?" she said simply. At least Ruby and Sam were living elsehwere, that had to help.

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fieryjess
2010-10-28 01:34 pm UTC (link)

"I'm fine," Jessica replied without looking at her, hoping desperately that it sounded truer than it felt. It was taking a lot of getting used to, being here, seeing Sam with another woman. It was something she never thought she'd see, and with everything else that had been thrown at her at the same time it was rather overwhelming.

"It's nice enough here, I guess. People are nice. The apartment's roomy. I guess after a while it might feel like home."

She sighed. The cheeriness just wasn't working.

"Honestly, I miss Stanford and the life I had there. I'd give anything to go back, but Sam says I can't leave. Which makes me almost want to leave out of spite, but I won't, because he knows what he's talking about most of the time. At least it's helping to know that it's been weird for other people too. That it was weird to you. Fan stuff? I don't think I have any fans."

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overthebra
2010-10-30 05:17 pm UTC (link)

She really doubted Jessica was fine. But there was no point pushing either. Quinn had figured that out very early on. The woman needed time, she needed good people around her and she needed to let go of Sam. But that'd take time. So she was prepared to be there for her while she did. That was all it took. And she was right, the people here were nice...for the most part. Some of them were blue haired tramps. But as a general rule she'd met a lot of nice and genuine people since getting landed in Apoca-Kansas.

"After a while it might. It doesn't have to feel like home yet. And Stanford and all...Its another life I guess. Its got to be harder for you cause this is your world. Your family are still here and all but you can't can you. You'd terrify them and who knows what they'd do." It was sad, it wasn't fair and she was sorry that Jess had to deal with that on top of everything else but she was right. "The Winchester do sort of seem to know what they're talking about with all of this. I'd trust them"

The fan stuff. Oh the stupid fan stuff. "I'm...from a TV show here. Glee. Which sort of made me out to be a giant bitch" Which she supposed she was back then but people still liked her more than Rachel. "Everyone knows everything about Puck, about the pregnancy, Beth. There's an actress, like...identical to me who 'plays Quinn' It's lame. You should be happy not to have crazy fans."

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