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Tweak says, "Were you there?"

inmyownworld (inmyownworld) wrote in vas_captio_rpg,
@ 2009-09-21 02:01:00

Current music:	Scars on Broadway- "Funny"
Entry tags:	!active, day 24, l lawliet, location: pharmacy, merope gaunt

Funny, How You Turned Red, When I First Said, "Let's Join the Dead"
Who: L Lawliet and Merope
What: Merope agrees to help L. She doesn't deliver in quite the way he expected, though.
Where: The liquor store (ie, the place that he haunts and refuses to leave.)
When: Day 24, 8:00 PM
Rating: PG-13 for now for necrophilic implications.
Status: Active

L's hands shook as he set down his journal. He felt sick, in so many ways. Sick in the head, as Rose had implied, sick physically, sick in his soul. He was anything but quick to trust, and the moment he seemed to find someone he could confide in, trust his well-being and attempt a shy sliver of humanity with, they were taken away before he could attain any sort of closure. He clenched and unclenched his pale, thin hands, testing their strength. It was failing, his grip was becoming looser as his mental health declined. He was far from mad, but he saw the world in a skewed way that worsened with every day that passed in Vas Captio.

Merope was still his friend, at least. She had offered to give him what he wanted and needed, obtaining a body for him and bringing it to him. How the weak-limbed young woman would manage to haul the dead weight of a female corpse to him, he couldn't guess. Perhaps she planned to enlist the help of her stoic partner, Rorschach, even though he disapproved of L's preferences. He sighed, staring at the wax he'd found in the post office that was softening in the heat. He planned to use it to repair any spots where decomposition was too obvious. While L had had sex with Laura, he wasn't sure yet if he could go through with it with an inanimate corpse, whether it looked like her or not.

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heartache
2009-09-22 08:00 am UTC (link)

She felt she wasn't doing a good job, had she spoke to much? Had her reactions to touch been so obvious that he stopped? Merope was so stupid, so easy to push into things she felt she messed up that guilt ate her like flies on corpses. Easily, she pulled him over on his back and wrapped her arm around him like she had the time he had been near death. The way he supported his head and she hid her face in his shoulder slightly so she wouldn't mess up his make-up job.

Merope was mothering, loving and tried to be whatever L needed. Parts of her could hear Rorschach calling her a whore, she wasn't sure if this was hurting him or not. While he seemed unsure of what to do right now, Merope allowed him time to think and relaxed against his body.

She was playing dead for him, it's not like she wasn't cold enough because she had been.

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inmyownworld
2009-09-22 08:07 am UTC (link)

L did not touch himself frequently. It had the opposite effect he would have wanted, actually intensifying his erection rather than calming it. He tried to suppress it, frustrated, using his other hand to cover his flushed face when Merope turned him over. He could hear undefined voices in his own mind calling him a monster, for the fact that his body was becoming this way, for the fact that this was yet another thing L couldn't control. Just the fact that Merope had given him complete control made him feel helpless, ironically enough.

Merope's slight weight against him felt remarkably, wonderfully real and solid. Please, let me, he begged himself. She would let me. I know that she would let me.

Under NO circumstances.

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heartache
2009-09-22 08:32 am UTC (link)

At this point, she had lost the idea of there being no sexual acts involved. She laid there, mostly cold and slightly breathing from relaxing fully against him. If he were to move her, she would be limp as if she were dead.

Merope was soft, slight and easily accepting of people's needs.

While she laid there, her thought of nothing so that she wasn't moving or trembling. Perhaps if he thought she had fallen asleep?

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inmyownworld
2009-09-22 12:30 pm UTC (link)

L lay, mortified, scarcely breathing himself. He was starting to realize that he was not a classic necrophiliac, by the way he couldn't make the mental leap and actually have sex with an unresponsive dead body. Laura had been an exception... though dead, she had moved, and spoken, and there was something there. What turned him on was trust and willingness to give him exactly what he wanted, and therein lay the dilemma. Merope was giving L exactly what he wanted: a pliable body, one that flopped limply as he half-rose indecisively... but the thing was, L did not want Merope dead, just like he hadn't really wanted Laura dead. He knew well enough that she wasn't, watching her very slight breathing. It both reassured him and told him that it wouldn't be all right to simply strip her of her clothes and use her body the way he'd intended to use a dead one. It would defeat the purpose. He'd needed a body, certainly... a body that no one, including the owner, needed anymore, so that he could take care of himself without hurting anyone.

If he had sex with Merope (the thought that he could was very real. Even though L was slight for a man of twenty five, taking someone as small as Merope would be extremely easy), L knew that it would be physically satisfying. He also knew that it wouldn't feel right, to have her stand and walk away as if nothing had happened, or to leave and let her go in more privacy. She was his friend, and she was wordlessly offering him the opportunity to treat her body like it was the victimless crime he'd thought he wanted, but... perhaps he could think of this as a test, he decided. Merope might have been eager to please, and happy to give others what they needed, but it was only an erection. It would go away by itself, given time, or, even knowing that the voyeuristic Management was probably watching, L could go to a quiet corner and take care of it.

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heartache
2009-09-22 12:51 pm UTC (link)

While L was laying there underneath her, she kept her eyes closed and breathing slowly, deeply. She wasn't sure of his motives at this point but they had been semi-pure, so she trusted him enough to decide she could lay there without him actually doing much. While she laid limply, it was unknown if she was actually asleep or awake from her lack of responses and movements to adjust herself.

In actuality, Merope was somewhere in-between the two of them. She was half-asleep, she'd respond to questions at this point still.

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inmyownworld
2009-09-22 01:06 pm UTC (link)

In actuality, Merope's unresponsiveness was becoming slightly unnerving to L. He squirmed slightly, hoping that his erection wasn't as excruciatingly noticeable to her as it was to him. It was uncomfortable, but he had faith that it would die down and leave them both alone in a little while, since it seemed unlikely that he'd be able to find an appropriate moment to get up. He'd asked Merope to stay like that until he was asleep, after all.

"Laura. Why are you doing this?" he sighed quietly, half to himself, unsure if she would answer. He caught himself a sentence too late, murmuring an apologetic correction. "Merope."

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heartache
2009-09-22 07:47 pm UTC (link)

How did she respond? She breathed easily for a while until her ears perked slightly with his stirring and voice she heard booming inside of his chest. "...To help you." She hadn't even heard his mistake, it was muffled as she moved a little more so her right hand was against his own.

In her head, this moment of allowing L to use her was also a way for her to feel the way she made Tom feel. Tom felt used when he could do nothing to defend against her love potion, but she wouldn't tell anyone that. Only Rorschach had knew.

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inmyownworld
2009-09-23 03:21 am UTC (link)

L couldn't honestly deny that Merope was helping him. Her supple, young body felt good against his own, and her willingness to become absorbed in a role that he wanted filled for the moment was admirable. Still, feeling her cold hand slip against his did nothing for his state of arousal... if he didn't know better, he'd have thought that Merope wanted him to take advantage of this. Either that, or she didn't know her own skill as a seductress.

"Merope... I need to get up," he said after a moment, trying to shift so that his erection wasn't pressing awkwardly against her. "I have to take care of something... I am sorry..." how mortifying.

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	heartache 2009-09-24 03:08 am UTC (link)
	Merope didn't think of an erection, she was focused on other things. Instead of doing exactly what he asked, she got up and looked down at L with an insecure face plastered there. "Are you scared of me, L?" She tilted her head as she waited for an answer, not fully understanding the concept of why there was a problem. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	inmyownworld 2009-09-26 06:10 am UTC (link)
	L scratched the back of his head distractedly. He stayed turned away from her; if she'd already seen it, there wasn't much he could do to save face, but at least she wouldn't be staring at it. "Of course I'm not... scared of you... I just... don't take it the wrong way, but you're almost doing this too well." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

heartache
2009-09-26 08:35 am UTC (link)

Merope breathed and move towards him, she was sitting directly behind him. She was more of a person to show how she felt physically instead of with words, she was no good with them. Her lithe arms slipped behind him, and pressed a light kiss against the back of his neck. "It's okay...I'm here to be with you. I can take care of whatever you need me to." She lifted her arms a little so she could lightly rub the fabric on his stomach.

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inmyownworld
2009-09-26 08:39 am UTC (link)

L shuddered at her touch. He knew that Merope often acted contact starved and needed to touch others to feel close to them and feel comforted herself, but at the same time, didn't she understand what it was he actually wanted right now? She touched his stomach, and his shoulders went slightly limp. This was exactly how Laura would behave in this circumstance. Firm without being overwhelming to the sexually timid young man.

"I am ashamed to ask."

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heartache
2009-09-26 08:42 am UTC (link)

Leaning her head to the side, she pressed a light kiss to the side of his head. "I don't want you to hurt yourself anymore. Please...tell me.." Merope cuddled as close as she possibly could, her cold hands having never warmed due to lack of heat coming off of L all together. Merope knew she would certainly be hoarding over her lover when she got back to the Clock Tower.

"..Have I made any reason to be ashamed? I came here....right?" Merope mumbled into his shirt.

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inmyownworld
2009-09-26 08:47 am UTC (link)

Her lips were still chilled enough that when they brushed his skin, they raised goosebumps along the back of L's pale neck. He was, indeed, cold despite his arousal. He hadn't eaten much, he hadn't slept... it was a wonder he could get and hold an erection at all, actually.

"You've given me no reason to be ashamed... that's only me," L admitted. "You've had a child, so you understand this, somewhat... but I slept with Laura. I asked for a corpse, in part, so I could sleep with it. I thought that it would remind me of Laura, and..." he stopped. Just stopped, abruptly, biting his tongue. There were things that Merope didn't need to hear, from him or anyone.

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heartache
2009-09-26 08:54 am UTC (link)

"...Then pretend I am her. Call me Laura." Merope now moved in front of him, she was looking at his face and not his erection as she was kind of ignorant to this fact. All she wanted to do was make L feel better, if she was called Laura and thought to be another woman, she was okay. "Did you want to sleep with me?" Merope tilted her head kind of stupidly, her eyes were slightly wide.

The term wasn't something she was super familiar with, but it had to do with sex.

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	inmyownworld 2009-09-26 08:59 am UTC (link)
	L closed his eyes. It was so tempting. It was a struggle and turmoil to even think of passing up an opportunity for sex when he, in truth, needed it very badly. "Perhaps that's what I want. You shouldn't feel like you have to say yes," L said softly, still not looking at her. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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