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Tweak says, "Sk8r, l8r"

Ronan Lynch (alteridem) wrote in valloic,
@ 2020-04-28 18:13:00

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!: network post, god of war: atreus, the raven cycle: matthew lynch, the raven cycle: richard campbell gansey, the raven cycle: ronan lynch, ₴ inactive: bev marsh, ₴ inactive: kate danvers, ₴ inactive: lyra silvertongue, ₴ inactive: noctis lucis caelum

[FILTERED TO NOCTIS & GANSEY & EVERYONE INVOLVED WITH THE WELCOME VIDEO]

Hey so, ~~Caroline~~ the welcome video is done. It's not perfect but if I don't turn it in now, I'll just end up setting it on fire and pretending this never happened. I'll hand it off to Gansey and he can bring it in tomorrow.

If any of the rest of you assholes wanna watch it, we can project it on the side of a building or something? IDK.

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	Pynch alteridem 2020-04-30 02:47 pm UTC (link)
	Would you be as rattled if it was my bank account that showed? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Pynch tamquam 2020-04-30 03:21 pm UTC (link)
	No. You're different about how you spend your money than Gansey is. It's not the same thing. ~~I think I was too hard on him~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Pynch alteridem 2020-04-30 04:22 pm UTC (link)
	These days Gansey puts more thought into how he spends his money than I ever have or ever will. So what really bothers you about him having this money, Parrish? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Pynch

tamquam
2020-04-30 04:46 pm UTC (link)

I don't even know anymore. I like working on solutions with Gansey. I like trying to find ways to creative troubleshoot financial problems. I like that we were all forced to split things equally because it was necessary, not because everyone was doing me a favor because I couldn't contribute more than my means.

He said he wouldn't do that now, but if we ever get stuck he can just pay for it. He'll offer, he's too kind. I don't want reminders of things I can't do or don't have. ~~I don't want to feel ashamed of~~

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	Pynch alteridem 2020-04-30 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	Nobody splits things with you because we're doing you a favor. We split because we're a family and a team and we all bring different shit to the table. Especially here. Did you tell any of this troubleshooting shit to Gansey? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Pynch tamquam 2020-04-30 07:50 pm UTC (link)
	~~But~~ No. He's just going to say that it will still be like that, but how can it be with a trust fund involved? I can't offer that to anyone. I can't offer that to him in return. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Pynch

alteridem
2020-04-30 08:30 pm UTC (link)

Do you seriously think he values your friendship less than some dumb trust fund? I mean, seriously. Do you really believe he likes swiping a debit card more than he loves working out solutions with you? His anxious ass is probably going to agonize over goddamn dollar he spends so he doesn't lose your respect or upset Sargent and you won't even tell him that you're just worried he'll choose the money over you and your spreadsheets.

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Pynch

tamquam
2020-04-30 09:10 pm UTC (link)

I know that he doesn't like it when a solution could be him just swiping his debit card and I won't let it be. I know he hates how I want things to be even when all he's offering is kindness because he doesn't value money the way I do. I know he wants to help, and if money can help, he has the means to. But I don't.

And don't give me that bullshit that he doesn't care. I care. I care that the only thing I have to offer Gansey is fucking spreadsheets and one day it won't be enough for me because ~~he is a better person that I am~~

I need to go for a walk. I have more shit I need to work through.

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	Pynch alteridem 2020-04-30 09:30 pm UTC (link)
	I wish you fucking knew your real worth. Take your walk, Adam. We're not going anywhere. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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