Ollie Queen Has An Arrow For That (acearcher) wrote in valarnet, @ 2013-01-23 23:56:00 |
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Current mood: | blah |
Entry tags: | candy quackenbush, kirsty cotton, oliver queen (green arrow), remy lebeau (gambit), thor odinson |
He's getting married. Somehow, right in front of me, without me really noticing it, Roy's grown up. It feels a lot of the time like he's still the eleven year old who came to live with me when I had no clue what the fuck I was doing and it showed. I mean, we got through those awkward first couple of years, and middle school and everything, but still. It doesn't seem possible that he's actually seriously going to be somebody's husband. I'm happy for them, oh fuck, I'm really happy for them both, but it's like that thing about time going fast is suddenly true.
And my little sister is eighteen and sleeping on my couch until she figures out her next step. That one is even weirder. I just met her a couple months ago, but she's still my little sister who I should be giving, I don't know, unicorns and riding lessons instead of taking clubbing so I can make sure she's not drinking or getting drugs off somebody.
It's really weird with both of them standing there as real, actual adults with adult type stuff going on, and shows me that I'm...old and washed out and kind of incredibly pathetic. Is this how midlife crisises start? Are you allowed to have one of those at 36?
Or is the last couple of years my midlife crisis? Either way, I suddenly feel really old and off my game and everything else. ...I'm confused.