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Tweak says, "Put the candle back!"

Seiya Kou (ourera) wrote in valarnet,
@ 2013-01-10 00:46:00

Entry tags:

seiya kou (sailor star fighter), taiki kou (sailor star maker), thea queen, yamamura sadako

Why am I so afraid to lose you, when you're not even mine? And probably never will be?

~~I'm so depressing sometimes, ugh.~~.

I need people to talk to about... Emotions.

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	wheniamqueen 2013-01-10 06:00 am UTC (link)
	I think you should talk to the person you were talking to in that first bit. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ourera 2013-01-10 06:02 am UTC (link)
	I can't do that. It wouldn't end well for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wheniamqueen 2013-01-10 06:19 am UTC (link)
	Why not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ourera 2013-01-10 06:20 am UTC (link)
	Because I don't want to upset this person. We aren't on amazing terms. And I know this is one-sided. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wheniamqueen 2013-01-10 06:23 am UTC (link)
	Did they tell you it was? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ourera 2013-01-10 06:24 am UTC (link)
	I... Well no. But I may have gotten said person mad at me from the start by being an ass. We went to an event together and it seemed fine. It's been a few days after that of course. I guess I could say I'm just scared. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wheniamqueen 2013-01-10 06:32 am UTC (link)
	You could apologize to them. That sounds like a good start. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ourera 2013-01-10 06:35 am UTC (link)
	I did! I think that's how I managed to get them to actually go with me to the event. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wheniamqueen 2013-01-11 12:13 am UTC (link)
	Well, maybe you could talk to them about your feelings. Even if it is one sided, you'll at least know for certain. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Private: besticoulddo 2013-01-10 08:40 am UTC (link)
	Hey, is something up? I'm not really any use to anybody right now but I can try. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Private: ourera 2013-01-10 08:50 am UTC (link)
	Well. I'm kind of in an emotional mood. I don't really like it because it's not something I understand. My PA says he thinks it's love. Well, You Americans use the word love more freely. The Japanese and Korean languages have different words for it. But I'm using the term love because you'll know that better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private: besticoulddo 2013-01-10 08:55 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, there's a shrink that proposed seven kinds of love here. I don't remember them all right now but, so, what KIND of love are we talking? Like infatuation? friend, or more passion? Love's weird in any case. I actually don't feel any of those for anybody, well okay, a couple friends on here but... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private: ourera 2013-01-10 09:00 am UTC (link)
	The wanting to be with someone romantically kind of love. Her name is Hee Young. She's a girl I met only about a week ago and I can't get her off of my mind. Even if I kind of pissed her off when e did. I got her to go with me to one dance and then. I can't not think about her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private: besticoulddo 2013-01-10 09:15 am UTC (link)
	Ouch so she's pissed at you but you like her? There's a guy like that from, well, he's not exactly real here if that makes sense but I kind of seriously wrecked my chances with HIM in the dreams he's in. And it blows. But with somebody real. Hmm. I'd do the nice apology thing. Girls are into that. Like flowers and romantic shit. And then maybe see what happens? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private: ourera 2013-01-10 09:21 am UTC (link)
	She's an intellectual person. I don't think flowers would work. But I could try? And I already apologised. I'm more than certain this is one-sided. It kind of sucks. I want to go get drunk but... Can't be bothered. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private: besticoulddo 2013-01-10 09:27 am UTC (link)
	Okay, so maybe something she would be into? Books? One sided's icky but you can totally try. I mean as long as you know what no means and stuff like that. God. I feel that one. Drunk sounds awesome right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private: ourera 2013-01-10 10:22 am UTC (link)
	Maybe? I just don't know. She liked olives? Maybe I should send her a decorative jar or like a gift basket with different olive items in it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private: besticoulddo 2013-01-10 10:51 am UTC (link)
	Sounds pretty nice to me, all personalized and things. Good going. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	overinfinity 2013-01-10 11:51 am UTC (link)
	I don't know whether I should be thankful that you're letting your emotions show or not. Probably healthier than keeping them bottled up, though. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ourera 2013-01-10 11:57 am UTC (link)
	You should be thankful. It's better than drinking or toking up away my problems, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	overinfinity 2013-01-10 12:19 pm UTC (link)
	Definitely. A lot healthier for you too, no doubt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ourera 2013-01-10 12:26 pm UTC (link)
	I sent her a present... I hope she doesn't think I'm trying to win affection. It's not that kind of gift or me trying to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	overinfinity 2013-01-10 12:29 pm UTC (link)
	Your reputation might mean it looks like that, but I'm sure you can try and explain it to her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Private to Taiki

ourera
2013-01-10 12:32 pm UTC (link)

It's uh. This.

2 Jars of Olives.
Mudlark Hand and Body Lotion (Olive Blossom Scent).
Chamomile and green teas.
White chocolate dipped Pocky sticks.
Olive Blossom & White Fig Soy Candles.
Olive oil and rose petal bath salts.
Little Dove shaped stuffed heat pack that's chamomile and rose.
Little tin of Chocolates in different flavours.
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All in a basket. I may have messed up the note and the thing might not be arranged or decorated the best but... I tried.

...I spent three hours in the mall, then two in other shops. I may not be able to stand at work tomorrow.

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	Seiya overinfinity 2013-01-10 12:37 pm UTC (link)
	I'll make sure they let you sit down. That's something you'd be fine with, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Taiki ourera 2013-01-10 12:40 pm UTC (link)
	Of course... What do you think of what I got her? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Seiya overinfinity 2013-01-10 12:46 pm UTC (link)
	I think it's pretty impressive. Even if I get the feeling that if some people knew, they'd accuse you of being just the tiniest bit gay. ...Not that I'd agree with them or anything. I'm a good guy like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Taiki ourera 2013-01-10 12:48 pm UTC (link)
	I'm bisexual. Or Pansexual. Or. I just like a lot of things. But I'm very picky about what guys I find attractive. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Seiya overinfinity 2013-01-10 12:50 pm UTC (link)
	Nice to know you probably have taste, then. Most people don't understand pansexuality. Can't understand why - it's a pretty simple concept. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Taiki ourera 2013-01-10 12:52 pm UTC (link)
	We can find someone attractive, and if we reach down their pants, we're fine with whatever is down there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Seiya overinfinity 2013-01-10 12:54 pm UTC (link)
	Which clearly means it's the best sexuality in the world. Definitely something I'm glad to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Taiki ourera 2013-01-10 12:56 pm UTC (link)
	I kind of figured. Too gay to be straight. ;P (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Seiya overinfinity 2013-01-10 01:06 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not that gay, Seiya. I try to be subtle! (Reply to this) (Parent)