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Tweak says, "1 + 1 = 11"

Billy Kaplan (actualwizard_bk) wrote in valarnet,
@ 2019-09-12 11:13:00

Entry tags:

billy kaplan (wiccan), gareth visser, kara danvers (supergirl), wanda maximoff (scarlet witch)

Woke up with a stack of vintage comic books on the floor beside my bed. All issues I don't have. I know how I'm spending my day.

My dreams are still super weird. I mean, I'm definitely in New York but the Avengers are real and they've just disbanded. I know it's stupid but I woke up feeling heartsick because they'd broken up. I feel like I've just gone through a parental divorce or something, like the world's wonky. It's not real, I know that, and it's not like I can tell my therapist by the way I feel really crappy today because in my dreams my favourite superhero team totally just disbanded because everything's SNAFU in this alternate dream reality and by the way I can fly now, you know? I can't do that, so I'm just sort of left feeling like I've lost something even though I haven't.

I dreamed that someone called Iron Lad came from the future, I think? Anyway, he came and picked out a bunch of us to form the Young Avengers, which I guess makes me a superhero now? If that doesn't make me a superhero, I'm pretty sure the costume that appeared in my closet does, right?

I always thought I'd feel more excited if I ever developed superpowers but no one tells you about how to handle being able to fly if standing on top of a ladder freaks you out because it's too high. I can fly in the dreams and I levitated this morning when I was reading without really thinking about it. I guess that's something else to practise along with my electricity powers but I definitely wanna practise flight with someone who might be able to catch me if/when I inevitably fall. I don't wanna break my neck or anything.

I haven't mentioned these dreams to my therapist, but I kinda feel like I should. She wouldn't believe me, though, and I really don't want anyone thinking I'm losing my mind and having trouble distinguishing reality from fiction. It'd be better to just stop therapy altogether but my mom would start meddling if I did that and I'm not sure I can handle my mom deciding to fly out to California to shrink at me in person.

I don't know, I'm not even sure what the purpose of writing this up was. I don't really feel any better getting it out.

TL;DR dreams are interesting, I think I might be a superhero and probably need a new shrink.

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	fears 2019-09-17 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	I think that might be a tad unethical on their part. The point is to make you feel secure enough to discuss anything without it passing the door. Peer or not. I do like hot chocolate. Would you like to get some with me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	actualwizard_bk 2019-09-17 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	I know, and I'm stuck with her because it's a condition of my- nvm, you don't need to know about that. Yes! Uh, yes, please. I would like that very much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fears 2019-09-17 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	It's okay, you can share as much or as little as you want. I take it your mother vets all your potential therapists though? I'm free after class if you'd like to meet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	actualwizard_bk 2019-09-17 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	My mom's a psychiatrist, so she tends to just... use her friends and professional colleagues? Definitely, that would be great! Which campus are you on? Omg I have class today. Ffffff. After class would be perfect. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fears 2019-09-17 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	That's a lot unethical, you should be able to choose your therapist based on your needs, not what your mother wants. Can't you appease her by seeing someone you choose? I'm on Irvine, but it doesn't take me long to get places anymore, so I can meet you wherever. Maybe take one of your new comics? Then you've got a pick me up for getting through class. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	actualwizard_bk 2019-09-17 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	I've tried that one. It's someone she chooses or I have to go home. It's a long story. Yeah, maybe. ~~Not sure I can face class today~~ I can meet you at Irving? What time does your class let out? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fears 2019-09-17 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	You would think, as a psychiatrist she would understand that is not a helpful situation. My last class is at two today, there's a nice place near the building that we could go. It shouldn't be too busy either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	actualwizard_bk 2019-09-23 06:31 pm UTC (link)
	You'd think, but apparently not. Mom's... protective, I think is the right word? Oh, cool, yeah, less busy places are better. More chance of finding a table and stuff. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fears 2019-09-23 06:50 pm UTC (link)
	~~Overbearing seems closer~~ Maybe too much. But I suppose that might be what mothers are like maybe. Yes, and more chance we can talk rather than not hear each other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	actualwizard_bk 2019-09-23 06:55 pm UTC (link)
	Especially mine. She worries a lot. Yeah, thanks, Wanda. I totally appreciate it. :) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fears 2019-09-23 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	It's understandable. It's no problem Billy. I'll meet you outside class. :) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	actualwizard_bk 2019-09-23 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	See you later, thanks again! (Reply to this) (Parent)

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