Luke Castellan (anineiron) wrote in valarnet, @ 2017-08-09 22:55:00 |
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Entry tags: | abigail hobbs, asami sato, damon salvatore, jace herondale, luke castellan, thalia grace |
Okay, so I guess I'm not dead. That doesn't mean things aren't going to get worse, though.
Do you ever look at yourself in the dreams and think, "Please don't" only to know damn well your dream self is going to do what you told him not to do? Because that's basically me every time I have a dream anymore. I'm really tired of it, too. I'm tired of watching myself do things that will eventually hurt the people I care about, that could kill them. I know I'm angry at Olympus and at the gods and...basically at everything, but can't I just have healthy coping mechanisms for once instead of "Destroy Olympus and probably end up killing all of humanity"? It would be nice for a change.
Maybe I could get therapy? A hobby? Anything? I seriously would like to not use my dad being a neglectful asshole as an excuse for my behavior because it's a really piss poor excuse.