InsaneJournal

Tweak says, "outta my outta my head"

Courfeyrac Doesn't Need Your Stinking Participle (the_centre) wrote in valarnet,
@ 2013-03-27 17:13:00

Current mood:	intimidated
Entry tags:	arya stark, courfeyrac, feuilly, gaz membrane, jehan prouvaire, john blake, marius pontmercy, sister jude martin, thorin oakenshield, zevran arainai

Parental Updates!
Today, I had a letter, cosigned by their lawyer, informing me that I have been formally disowned, with the agreement that tuition for the next semester (and following) "will be covered, provided that you manage to pass the semester, and contingent upon your remaining free from academic probation status".

My family name and fortune may be retained if I "return to Massachusetts to complete (your) course of study at an approved university, agreeing to a position within the firm upon (your) graduation" and "cease the antics learned in California and grow up".

There's even a form for me to fill out and sign and date to indicate my decision, along with a place for a witness to sign it for me.

I shouldn't be surprised. I really shouldn't be surprised and it's exactly what I wanted but I can't help hating them a lot right now. It's not the money. It's the way they decided to do it that...

I guess I shouldn't have expected more, but I'll survive. I took two pairs of shoes, my boots (yeah I was a little teary there. I'm man enough to say it) and some clothes in to sell today and I've emerged okay for all the major expenses, dropped off some resumes, and I've been taking a look at my expenses this afternoon. It's kind of shocking and depressing and disgusting really:

Current Monthy Expenses minus groceries, bills and rent:

Hair Products: $200.00

Other Health Stuff and Cosmetics: $100.00

LAX:

-Yearly Membership is paid through December
-Group Lesson $90.00
-Footwork $80.00
-Privates $35.00 as needed. Averaging one a month

Food and Coffee: About $150.00

Netflix: $8.00

Clothes/Shoes/Etc: ...Yeah I'm not even gonna copy out the figure here. It's pretty shaming...

So, clearly, I've got some big decisions to make, even once I've GOT a job, considering this is what I'm doing AFTER rent. Dropping lessons isn't an option I'm remotely entertaining and if that means I'm getting shampoo at the dollar store, cutting back on the coffee, stopping with the clothes, and making some changes, I'm willing to do it.

There are a lot more important things to consider, sure, but for now, it's a start?

I am so very, very, overwhelmed...

	boston_bitch 2013-03-28 12:29 am UTC (link)
	Unfortunately, the place I work isn't hiring or anything, but it does seem like other people are. You shouldn't have to live with it. Your parents are supposed to be behind you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_centre 2013-03-28 12:42 am UTC (link)
	There are a lot of people on here really willing to help me out. It's kind of amazing. Thanks for the thought. I...this is probably better in the long run though. I keep telling myself that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	boston_bitch 2013-03-28 12:48 am UTC (link)
	It might be, yeah, but still. Fucking cruel, to do that. (Reply to this) (Parent)