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Anya Lehnsherr (notincestuous) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2008-02-22 00:23:00

Entry tags:

anya lehnsherr, henry mccoy

Who: Anya Lehnsherr and Henry McCoy
What: Anya wants to have awkward relationship discussions after two weeks
Where: Anya's apartment
Warnings: Nah

Anya had been getting ready for the evening while the dinner finished cooking. She'd straightened up, and set the table. She'd debated setting up candles, and had actually set them on the table and then taken them down three times. Eventually, she figured that Hank wouldn't object, and left them out on the table. This was the first time she'd invited Hank into her home, and she wanted everything to be nice.

After slipping on a simple black dress, she finished stirring the sauce for the last time as she put on her pearl earrings. Her timer went off right at six, and so did her door buzzer. "Just a minute," she called, pouring the sauce and setting things straight before going to the door and opening it.

"Hi," she said with a bright smile.

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notincestuous
2008-02-25 09:14 pm UTC (link)

It was the sorrow in Henry's voice that did her in. A few tears slipped down her cheeks and she sniffled. How embarrassing.

"It is," she confessed. "I thought that I would be a little more smooth than this." She forced a smile, hoping he wouldn't comment on the tears. She wasn't sobbing. She'd just gotten a little emotional. She tried to regain her composure.

"It's all right. I'm sorry."

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	"I am sorry. It would not be fair to you. And I... could not bear to lose you." he turned. "I should go." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	"What? Henry.." She stood up, reaching to grab his wrist. This hadn't been what she wanted in this evening, at all. She should have been more prepared for a negative response. Everything just seemed to be going so well.. "Don't go, please," she said, looking up at him. "What? What wouldn't be fair? Say what you mean, Henry." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 10:45 pm UTC (link)
	His shoulders slumped, then he turned. "To make you wait, either not seeing you, but promising to someday, or seeing you but not knowing if we could ever have kids, and if the possibility was no..." He shook his head. He felt weary. "I would not do that to you, Anya, not when it is that important to you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 10:57 pm UTC (link)
	She held onto his hand, not willing to let him go yet. "So find out, Henry. It's your field. If anyone can find out, it's you." She reached up, touching his cheek. She was scared, yes, but she wasn't ready to give up. She didn't know how long that sort of research would take, but she would try to wait. She wanted to try. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	"I have no idea how long it will take. Reasonably, rebuilding my life's work and then testing myself? It may take decades. Or days. But I don't know which, and I won't until it is done." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-25 11:16 pm UTC (link)

Anya bit down on her lower lip. She would rather have a blue baby than no baby, but Henry felt differently and she had to respect that.

She was conflicted. On one hand, she really cared for Henry and didn't want to lose him. But she didn't want to waste more years like she did with Warren. At least Henry had been honest with her, and himself, from the start.

"Well.. there are other options, aren't there?" If it turned out he would pass on whatever it was, they could get a donor or adopt. And there was a good chance there wasn't anything to pass on, wasn't there? He wasn't blue any longer.. That was a good sign.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 11:20 pm UTC (link)
	"There are, are you willing to take them?" He looked at her and closed his eyes, then opened them. "I care for you already, Anya, in fact, am very close to loving you. But I need to know if this is going to be a deal breaker. I want to be with you. It's your choice." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-26 01:05 am UTC (link)

"I..." Anya looked down, giving herself a moment to take this all in. 'Deal breaker.'It was a harsh turn of phrase, but she had to work through this. "I want to be with you too.."

She took a deep breath. "It is a deal breaker," she said, then added "but listen. Warren and I dated for a few years. We'd talked about kids, and he told me he wanted to be a father. We got engaged, and we had a.. well, I suppose you'd call it a pregnancy 'scare'.. Warren did. It turned out I wasn't, but Warren realized that he couldn't handle it. He told me he couldn't be a father."

She frowned, looking back up at Hank. "But Warren wouldn't have been any less afraid if we had been talking about adopting. He didn't want to be a father. I.. I would rather have my own child biologically than adopt, yes. But I'm open to options."

"If this is something we both want, we can make it work."

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-26 02:06 am UTC (link)
	He winced at her first words. "I would like to have children, but biologically, for me, anyway, is out without being sure I don't consign them to a never ending chain of mutations. Adoption would be something I would be willing to do, with you by my side." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-26 02:53 am UTC (link)
	She let out a breath. It felt like she'd been holding it for minutes. "Then let's not rush things and just.. relax and enjoy dinner?" She gave him a small, hopeful smile. She really wanted things to work. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-26 02:56 am UTC (link)
	He smiled, a little wary, but a smile. "Dinner sounds good." he drew a breath. "What is on the menu tonight, oh hostess?" (Reply to this) (Parent)

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