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Tweak says, "hello world"

Anya Lehnsherr (notincestuous) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2008-02-22 00:23:00

Entry tags:

anya lehnsherr, henry mccoy

Who: Anya Lehnsherr and Henry McCoy
What: Anya wants to have awkward relationship discussions after two weeks
Where: Anya's apartment
Warnings: Nah

Anya had been getting ready for the evening while the dinner finished cooking. She'd straightened up, and set the table. She'd debated setting up candles, and had actually set them on the table and then taken them down three times. Eventually, she figured that Hank wouldn't object, and left them out on the table. This was the first time she'd invited Hank into her home, and she wanted everything to be nice.

After slipping on a simple black dress, she finished stirring the sauce for the last time as she put on her pearl earrings. Her timer went off right at six, and so did her door buzzer. "Just a minute," she called, pouring the sauce and setting things straight before going to the door and opening it.

"Hi," she said with a bright smile.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-22 05:05 pm UTC (link)
	Henry smiled as he arrived, nervous and bouncy. A talk, already? He hoped he had not misstepped so early, though it was about his luck. He squared his shoulders and checked himself one more time before pressing her door buzzer. her beautiful voice made him smile, but when he saw her, his jaw dropped and he stared. "Oh my stars and garters..." (Reply to this) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-23 04:50 pm UTC (link)

She smiled, leaning up to kiss the corner of his lips. She lowered back onto her heels, tilting her head to the side at his exclamation. "Is everything all right?" she asked, still smiling. She had either done something ridiculous like put on her dress backward, or he was more impressed than she expected him to be.

"Come in," she said, leading him inside before closing the door behind him.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-23 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	"You look amazing, dear woman." He bowed to her and grinned. He stepped in and looked around, eyes alight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-24 03:48 pm UTC (link)

Anya smiled. It took a bit of getting used to this much flattery, but she was enjoying it. "Thank you, Henry. You look pretty amazing yourself."

She bit her lower lip, still smiling as she looked up at him and pondered. Then she leaned up and kissed him again, just on the other side of his mouth. She was European. She could get away with two kisses for free.

"I hope the food is all right." She was a bit rushed.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-24 05:27 pm UTC (link)
	He blushed and smiled to her. He mmmmed into the kiss. "I am sure it will be. It has to be better than what I make myself." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-24 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	Anya smiled. "I would have thought you to be a great cook," she said. "If you can manage genetics and chemistry, you should be able to boil water." She led him over to the table, sitting down. "How was work?" she asked. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 03:54 am UTC (link)
	He blushed. "Perhaps it would be so. Only if you can come by some night will you learn, hmmmm?" He grinned then. "Work has been, as always a conundrum of ever efficient encounters with the unknown surrounded by a ephemeral walk along the line of scientific control." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 03:30 pm UTC (link)
	"I would enjoy that," she said, of the visit to Henry's home. She liked that they were inviting eachother into their homes. It felt...nice. "That good, eh?" she joked, smiling. It was cute, the way he talked sometimes. "I had a good first day. It's different.. A lot to get used to." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 03:44 pm UTC (link)
	"Good! I will look forward to it." He grinned at her, eyes bright. "Oh, indeed? How so?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 04:10 pm UTC (link)
	She smiled. "The English school system is different than old Institute. I went to different schools in Europe growing up, but it's been a long time and I'd never taught at one." She walked over to the counter. "And the children are a little older." She picked up the bottle and carried it to the table. "Wine?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 04:18 pm UTC (link)
	He nodded. "I imagine you will do very well here. You are smart and brilliant in thought and deed." He smiled softly. "I would enjoy imbibing in such with you, dearest woman." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-25 04:51 pm UTC (link)

"I think it will be fine, once I get used to things." She smiled. "They might need help with the day program, too. Children that aren't old enough to enroll yet." She would have to work later into the afternoon, but she liked little kids, and would love working with them.

"Would you do the honors?" she asked, gesturing toward the bottle. The glasses were already on the table.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 04:55 pm UTC (link)
	He nodded. 'Such an endeavor is a good one, and fruitful." He grinned at her. With a practiced hand, he opened the bottle, and poured, drawing in a breath with the scent, and glancing aside at her. She looked incredible, (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 05:20 pm UTC (link)
	She smiled, giving him a nod of thanks as she sat, sipping the wine. "Do you like children?" she asked, her tone innocuous enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 05:22 pm UTC (link)
	He nodded. "Indeed. I am fond of children great and small, tall and short, fat and skinny, and all shapes inbetween. Perhaps, one day..." He shrugged, a melancholic smile on his face. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 08:02 pm UTC (link)
	Anya smiled warmly, something brightening in her eye when he mentioned the possibility. "You'd like to have children someday?" she asked, hope in her voice. She wasn't sure what to make of his melancholy, but she pressed onward. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	"I would, some day, when I know I am free of a younger man's folly." he smiled softly, and his eyes saught hers. "And you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 08:23 pm UTC (link)
	She tilted her head to the side. "How do you mean?" She was wary of vague answers. 'When I'm older, wiser.' ... You couldn't get much wiser than Hank McCoy. "I would love to have kids," she said. "I've always wanted to be a mother." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	"When i was young, in search of answers I injected myself with the chemical cause of mutation, creating an ongoing mutation of my blood cells and genome. I would not have had kids in my world, for fear of passing that on, worse, to a child. I will not have them here until I know for sure that this is not a possibility." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-25 08:52 pm UTC (link)

"I.. Oh." She nodded.

She'd known about the chemical.. The cause of his blue appearance in her own world. She just hadn't been thinking of it, since he looked so different here.

"I see," she said. She felt her face flush, and she wasn't sure what she was feeling, precisely. It was pragmatic of him, she supposed, to be thinking of that. Part of her wanted to encourage him to hurry up and figure out, and part of her was afraid that it would turn out the chemical had created a hereditary change, and Hank would be unwilling to have kids.

Obviously, they weren't going to have a child anytime soon, but what if his research took years? What if they didn't find out the worst news until Anya was in love with him? She didn't want to go through with Hank what had happened to her and Warren. What if they didn't find out until she was too old? She was already in her thirties.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 08:57 pm UTC (link)
	He blushed and looked own, feeling bad. "You would be a good mother." His voice was soft, and full of sorrow, as he set his drink down. "I'm sorry." He glanced up at her. "This si why you asked me here, isn't it?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-25 09:14 pm UTC (link)

It was the sorrow in Henry's voice that did her in. A few tears slipped down her cheeks and she sniffled. How embarrassing.

"It is," she confessed. "I thought that I would be a little more smooth than this." She forced a smile, hoping he wouldn't comment on the tears. She wasn't sobbing. She'd just gotten a little emotional. She tried to regain her composure.

"It's all right. I'm sorry."

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	"I am sorry. It would not be fair to you. And I... could not bear to lose you." he turned. "I should go." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	"What? Henry.." She stood up, reaching to grab his wrist. This hadn't been what she wanted in this evening, at all. She should have been more prepared for a negative response. Everything just seemed to be going so well.. "Don't go, please," she said, looking up at him. "What? What wouldn't be fair? Say what you mean, Henry." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 10:45 pm UTC (link)
	His shoulders slumped, then he turned. "To make you wait, either not seeing you, but promising to someday, or seeing you but not knowing if we could ever have kids, and if the possibility was no..." He shook his head. He felt weary. "I would not do that to you, Anya, not when it is that important to you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-25 10:57 pm UTC (link)
	She held onto his hand, not willing to let him go yet. "So find out, Henry. It's your field. If anyone can find out, it's you." She reached up, touching his cheek. She was scared, yes, but she wasn't ready to give up. She didn't know how long that sort of research would take, but she would try to wait. She wanted to try. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	"I have no idea how long it will take. Reasonably, rebuilding my life's work and then testing myself? It may take decades. Or days. But I don't know which, and I won't until it is done." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-25 11:16 pm UTC (link)

Anya bit down on her lower lip. She would rather have a blue baby than no baby, but Henry felt differently and she had to respect that.

She was conflicted. On one hand, she really cared for Henry and didn't want to lose him. But she didn't want to waste more years like she did with Warren. At least Henry had been honest with her, and himself, from the start.

"Well.. there are other options, aren't there?" If it turned out he would pass on whatever it was, they could get a donor or adopt. And there was a good chance there wasn't anything to pass on, wasn't there? He wasn't blue any longer.. That was a good sign.

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-25 11:20 pm UTC (link)
	"There are, are you willing to take them?" He looked at her and closed his eyes, then opened them. "I care for you already, Anya, in fact, am very close to loving you. But I need to know if this is going to be a deal breaker. I want to be with you. It's your choice." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notincestuous
2008-02-26 01:05 am UTC (link)

"I..." Anya looked down, giving herself a moment to take this all in. 'Deal breaker.'It was a harsh turn of phrase, but she had to work through this. "I want to be with you too.."

She took a deep breath. "It is a deal breaker," she said, then added "but listen. Warren and I dated for a few years. We'd talked about kids, and he told me he wanted to be a father. We got engaged, and we had a.. well, I suppose you'd call it a pregnancy 'scare'.. Warren did. It turned out I wasn't, but Warren realized that he couldn't handle it. He told me he couldn't be a father."

She frowned, looking back up at Hank. "But Warren wouldn't have been any less afraid if we had been talking about adopting. He didn't want to be a father. I.. I would rather have my own child biologically than adopt, yes. But I'm open to options."

"If this is something we both want, we can make it work."

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	mccoysluck 2008-02-26 02:06 am UTC (link)
	He winced at her first words. "I would like to have children, but biologically, for me, anyway, is out without being sure I don't consign them to a never ending chain of mutations. Adoption would be something I would be willing to do, with you by my side." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notincestuous 2008-02-26 02:53 am UTC (link)
	She let out a breath. It felt like she'd been holding it for minutes. "Then let's not rush things and just.. relax and enjoy dinner?" She gave him a small, hopeful smile. She really wanted things to work. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mccoysluck 2008-02-26 02:56 am UTC (link)
	He smiled, a little wary, but a smile. "Dinner sounds good." he drew a breath. "What is on the menu tonight, oh hostess?" (Reply to this) (Parent)