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Cassidy Turner ([info]1stbornextreme) wrote in [info]utr_logs,
@ 2008-11-14 18:48:00

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Entry tags:cassidy turner, soren skwigelf

Who: Soren and Cassidy
What: Driving, chilling.
Where: Western US
When: Tonight
Warnings: Likely.

Cassidy had needed to get back to his normal life, such as it was. He dragged Soren out after he made sure Henn was okay on her own for a while. He needed to get out and drive, just like he always did when he needed to sort his thoughts. He dragged Soren along with, and they spent a night at a cheap motel.
The next morning, they found a place to get coffee, and a place to fuel up, and they started on their way again. Cassidy had been driving south all night, so he decided to drive east next. Before long, they were in the arid, dry mountains of northern Nevada. Cass had made sure to stock up on drinks and munchies before they hit the state border of California, and they were set for a while, at least until they got to Reno.

"You know what pisses me off, Soren? Toy poodles. No, seriously. We bred dogs to be hunters, domesticated them down from wolves, and then we decide to make something like that? Give me a break. I see absolutely no reason they should exist. They're neurotic, bad-tempered, and stupid." He smirked, "Like me."


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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 08:01 pm UTC (link)
Soren blinked, then laughed a little. Cass was delightfully random at times, and this was one of them. "Yes, but they're also adorable and fluffy and sort of precious when they hump your leg." He paused for effect before leaning over to kiss Cass on the cheek. "Like you. Where are we headed, anyway? Just goin'?" He stretched a little, leaning forward to rifle through his bag for a cigarette.

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 08:06 pm UTC (link)
Cass chuckled and shook his head, "Yeah, just goin'. I figure once we hit Reno, we can either go south to Vegas, or east to Salt Lake City. Vegas sounds more promising for fun, but I like the mountains up near the Salt Lake. You pick." He smiled and raised a brow. "I mean, it's about four hours of nothing to look at between Reno and SLC, and about the same amount of nothing to look at between Reno and Vegas. It's up to you what scenery you want to ignore."

He was feeling better, and it showed. "Just so long as you stay awake during those four hours, I'm good."

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 08:11 pm UTC (link)
After lighting the cigarette, Soren inhaled thoughtfully. "Mountains. I'm not in a lots of people gambling and smelling like desperation." He rolled the window down, ashing out into the wind. "I can stay awake if it means us not wrecking." His smile was lopsided, a good indicator he was teasing.

Reaching out, he squeezed Cass' thigh just above the knee. "Want music?"

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 08:18 pm UTC (link)
Cassidy nodded, "Well yeah. Music's always good." He looked over for a moment, before smiling and turning back to pay attention to the road. "Soren, you know, I'm really happy you and Sable are so good together. You treat her like a queen. I couldn't have asked for someone better for my cousin. You make her feel amazing. You make her feel like she's a part of things. A permanent part. She needs that." He lit a cigarette and rolled down his window. "And you spoil her."

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 08:22 pm UTC (link)
Soren leaned forward to fiddle with the radio before settling back. What Cassidy was saying actually took him off guard for a second. He knew what Cass was saying was true, but he didn't know where it had come from. He decided to roll with it and see if it had a source.

"I've been doing it more lately. After the... thing with us and Bill, I didn't - I was going to die for you. I wanted her to know she's important too. I keep telling people, heart and soul. A person has to have both to live." Nervously, Soren twirled the ends of his hair between the fingers of his free hand.

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 08:27 pm UTC (link)
A fond smile crept over Cassidy's lips, and he sighed, "I haven't apologized about that, yet. Not to her, I mean. I just... I don't know, it always seems like it's something or another with me. First that, now this whole dream shit. I'm sorry. But yeah, she really appreciates it, I'm sure. I'm glad you treat her like you do." He took a drag from his cigarette and set the car to cruise before taking his foot off the pedal and relaxing his leg. "You've always been good to her, though. I mean, since you two started dating, you've been treating her like a goddess. I love seeing that."

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 08:34 pm UTC (link)
Smiling to himself a little, Soren shrugged. "You don't have to be sorry, Cass. Nobody's life goes perfectly smoothly. Some people have financial problems, you have this. I just want to be here for you, you know?" He only blushed a little bit when Cass talked about Soren treating Sable well. Reclining his seat a little, Soren pulled a knee to his chest. "I'm glad you're not pissed about it anymore."

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 08:40 pm UTC (link)
He chuckled and shook his head, "No, now I'm jealous a little, though." He grinned. "I mean, we're best friends, and that's great, but with the exception of sex, what's changed about that? Sure, I mean, it's my fault, too. I just..." He tossed the rest of his cigarette out the window and rolled it up, "I want to know if that's all it is. I want more. I'm no romantic, I don't do gushy cutesy stuff. I really suck at keeping my cool over sweet, nice things." He stretched his legs a little before going back to driving properly.

"Remember when you were with Amanda and she said I acted like your catty wife? Well, I guess I did because subconsciously, I wanted what you were giving to her. Well, I also always thought she was a cunt and didn't deserve it, anyway."

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 08:44 pm UTC (link)
That gave the blond pause, and he tugged at his hair harder. He was finished with the cigarette anyway, so a few of the strands found their way into his mouth. "I don't - don't not - " Pausing, he rolled up his window to give himself something to do while collecting his thoughts and waiting for his blush to go away. Breathing in hard, he looked at Cass.

"It's not that I haven't thought about marrying you." That didn't make the blush go away. Quite the opposite, it made it about a thousand times worse. "And p'fft, Amanda. I was thinking about you most of the time anyway."

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 08:50 pm UTC (link)
Cassidy paled a bit, "That's not how I mean, Soren. I mean, I would - I want to, I mean..." He shook his head, "I just want to know whether you want me as a friend or as a lover." He read the sign that said 90 miles to Reno, and sighed. "And if you want to marry me, well, I know the answer, but only in theory. You have to show me. You can't just treat me like your best friend that you like sex with all the time. It's fun, but... it's not what I want out of a romantic relationship."

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 08:52 pm UTC (link)
His blue eyes went wide, and Soren turned to look at Cass. "Baby I didn't - I don't want you to think that. I don't at all. You know what I want. ... right?" He released the hair from the corner of his mouth and reached out for Cass' hand. Thinking better of it - they were going at least sixty miles per hour, and it wasn't safe to do that one-handed - Soren swallowed hard against the lump in his throat. "Pull over?"

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 08:57 pm UTC (link)
Pulling the car over and putting it in neutral, he looked over at Soren with a small, weak smile. He wanted to say, you want a happily ever after, Princess. I do, too. However, we need to find a way to work this out so I don't feel torn between being your best friend and being your lover.

He didn't say anything, he just put his hands over Soren's and looked down.

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 09:02 pm UTC (link)
Taking one of his hands back, Soren moved Cass' chin up a little so he could look him in the eyes. "I love you. I've always loved you. You're my best friend and I always want that - but you're more than that too, and it's my fault you don't realize that." He swallowed again, and when he spoke, his voice was thick. "I"m trying to balance things between two people I'm in love with. Cass, I'm in love with you. I want you to know that. You're so much more than a friend to me. I don't want you to feel this way anymore. Ever."

Leaning forward, he kissed Cass on the forehead. It was almost tentative, and Soren sighed. He felt terrible, and wondered if he ever would find a balance between him and Sable. "I've never done this before - and I'm trying. 'm sorry."

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 09:18 pm UTC (link)
Cassidy sighed and wrapped his arms around Soren. "Don't apologize, it works both ways. I just don't know how to go from being your friend since we were babies, to seeing you in a romantic light. It's tough, but I'm working on it. I'm in love with you, so much that sometimes, it hurts. It makes me scared, it makes me more happy than I've ever been. I've... never been in love before. This is really new for me, for both of us."

He kissed Soren's cheek, more steadily than Soren had kissed his forehead. "That love won't be going anywhere. I don't think I'll ever have to worry about losing it. Or losing you. But I feel like... How am I going to show you that? Show the world that? If... we're getting married to the girls. I love Henn so much, would do anything for her, and I mean anything but if you asked me to go against what she asked me to do, I'd do it." He huffed the last part in a pained chuckle.

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 09:22 pm UTC (link)
Soren burrowed into Cass, uninhibited by the seatbelt but wishing there wasn't a partition in the middle of the two bucket seats. "It's hard. I'm getting used to it too. I just... I want a life with you, being yours. You just have to - I'll be Sable's too, and she's going to have some time with me." He didn't realize he'd gone a bit teary until he sniffled.

"I'm glad you won't stop loving me. And I don't know. We should move to Utah, then we could be married to the girls and each other." He moved closer to Cass, voice pitched low. "I wouldn't ask you to do that. ... I'd still - if you went Bill's way, I'd still go with you. I'm glad you're not going to. Don't tell anyone. Sable'd kill me." He sniffed hard kissed Cass' jaw. "Part of me hates that I can't marry you too."

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 09:33 pm UTC (link)
Cassidy blinked away his own tears and took a deep breath, holding Soren close. "Yeah babe, I know, I'm not jealous of the time you spend with her, or any of that." He honestly wasn't - he was happy that Sable had Soren and vice-versa. The time they spent together gave him time to spend with Henn and give her as much attention as he could possibly give. That time with Henn was always magical.

Then he sat up, at a flash thought that made him grin like a man gone wild. "Soren. Oh jeez, Soren, you're a genius." He bounced into his seat and started the car again, "Okay, screw the mountains, I have an idea. There's a few portkeys in Reno. Look them up for me, and also do me a favor and look up Swedish law regarding marriage on my phone. Then look up England's laws. I need a refresher."

He loved his iPhone, yes he did. He also knew that if what he was remembering about English Law was right, that all foreign legally binding contracts including marriage were only upheld on a case-by-case basis, and only if a member of Parliament sees to it. It was an old, archaic, shitty law that nobody had ever thought to correct or amend, and Bill had gone on at great length over how useful that law was in piracy.

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 09:38 pm UTC (link)
A hand went to Cass' cheek to wipe away his tears, and he smiled a little. "I love seeing you with Henn too, you know. you light up around her. It's... it's good." He smiled, thinking about the way Henn looked around Cass too. Instead of making him jealous, it made him happy that he had their family, their absurd little atom shaped relationship.

But then Cass was sitting up, and he blinked. "I am? Oh - uh, okay." He grabbed Cass' iPhone and looked up the portkeys, jotting them down in his Moleskeine notepad that he always took with him everywhere. "What am I looking for?"

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 09:44 pm UTC (link)
"Just read the Swedish laws regarding marriage to me, particularly the ones in whatever province, state, whatever Stockholm is in. I'll get Bill to find that law he spouted at me later, see if it's still intact." He smirked. "Half the work, on your part. And you know how Bill is, he probably has that law memorized." He rolled his eyes and laughed softly.

He blinked and decided to grab a soda before he started driving again. "If I'm not mistaken, Homosexual marriage is a-okay in Sweden, given that one of the people being married is a resident."

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 09:48 pm UTC (link)
Soren blinked hard, trying not to cry while he tapped things in on the (infuriatingly small) iPhone keypad. "We have to both be eighteen, we can't do it in a church, and we don't have to wait to get a certificate we can do it whenever we want. You just have to sign something saying you're free to get married at the consulate - are you asking what I think you're asking?" Soren had to pause, setting the iPhone in his lap. "I don't want to say yes if it's a hypothesis. I'll look overeager."

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 09:53 pm UTC (link)
"I haven't asked yet, calm down. I'm just making sure it's legal first." He rubbed his beard and grinned then, before stretching out his legs as he put the car back into cruise control. "And yeah, like I'd ask you on the most unromantic stretch of road in America. God, this place is desolate." He turned to Soren briefly. "But hey. What's your schedule look like?"

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 09:56 pm UTC (link)
"You said yet! That means - " Soren grinned and bit his lower lip to keep from making the least manly noise in the history of the world. The tiniest of squeaks did manage to make it out, and he had to turn his head away to keep from giggling. Giggling wasn't becoming on adult men that were as tall as he was. "Yeah, I think even the cows got bored and left. There's seriously nothing here."

Reaching out to take Cass' hand again now that they were cruising, Soren got a little quiet. "I've got a four hour shift at the Snake Pit coming up in a couple of days, but I can wiggle out of it."

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-14 10:02 pm UTC (link)
Cassidy's smile went devious. "Hm, you know what? I think about a week or so is just enough time we need for an impromptu getaway." He sped up just a bit, still staying within the speed limit. "I'm not saying we leave the ladies out of it, but... a day or two, just us." He looked at the sign they passed. "We'll be in Reno in about an hour, give or take. Want to go to your home country for a couple hours?"

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-14 10:05 pm UTC (link)
Soren stretched a little bit, grinning so much his face hurt. Being coy while being so happy was a bit of a challenge, but Soren was willing to give it an attempt. "I like that idea a lot. A day or two of just us, then call the girls over, campfires, cross country skiing. It'd do us all good, too." Then he raised his arms and put them behind his head. "Dunno, Cass, what do you want to do in Sweden?"

He wanted his friend to say it, or he would.

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[info]1stbornextreme
2008-11-15 12:23 am UTC (link)
"Oh, you know," Cassidy started, aloof as ever. "Hang out and get some coffee, maybe go see your folks, go sign our names saying we can go do this thing at a consulate some time soon. Say, two months? Does January 15th work for you? Half a month in to a new year?" He quirked a brow.

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[info]twiceloved
2008-11-15 12:33 am UTC (link)
"It'll give us time to tell the girls, yeah." Soren smiled and leaned his head against his seat, turning to the left to face him. "Invite people. You haven't even asked me yet." He smirked a little, cocking his head to the side. "What makes you think I'm going to say yes yet?"

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