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Aimé Laurent (tigersatthegate) wrote in toujoursliberer,
@ 2008-09-26 07:40:00

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aime_laurent, augustin_laurent, plot

Aimé Laurent: The Funeral.
Subject: The Funeral.
Who: Aimé Laurent
Where: The Embassy Chaple.
Warnings:None
Open to: Everyone

Fittingly it was a cold day. The air was crisp, and the sky cloudy and the coffin the best that they could afford. The body should have been entombed in France, in the family plot, but at least there was a little comfort to be taken in the form of the Catholic ceremony. His father would have been proud of that, although it would cost dearly one day the sacrfice was worth making.

Aimé was numb. He knew there were things he should be feeling, thinking but he couldn’t begin to comprehend that tomorrow he would get up and his father wouldn’t be there. It had been a week already but with the arangments for the funeral he had been distant from his emotions, preocupied with organising.

Tomorrow. There would be so much to do tomorrow. To think about. But not now, now he had to show a united front with Antoine, greet those who had come to pay their last respects and put off grieving for another day.

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theotherlaurent
2008-10-07 05:07 pm UTC (link)

"To keep an eye on him. I knew he was trying to find you, find something to hand you, Antoine and father to the Committee. I was trying to do what was best for the family once you got to England," he said whispering loudly. "Why is it okay for you to do what's best for the family but I can't?"

He knew it'd been foolish to think Aimé would hae been happy to see him, to have worried at all about him. "I.... well for some reason I thought my family wanted to see me. Clearly dumb Augustin was mistaken yet again. It's okay for you to have your beliefs and feel strongly about them, but I'm not afforded the same."
Augustin straightened his overcoat. "You've made yourself clear. Let the Ambassador send his document to the papers, lean on Antoine as your brother. Perhaps I did make a mistake, but it seems those aren't forgiven in this family anymore."

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tigersatthegate
2008-10-07 05:17 pm UTC (link)

"I don't understand Augustin..." Aimé said, confused and feeling as if he was missing some important piece of information that would make sense of this all. "You made a mistake? Are you admitting it? Do you want to come home?" His heart swelled a little at the thought, the misery of the betrayal swept aside in the emotion of having his brother come back to them. "Oh Augustin..."

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theotherlaurent
2008-10-07 05:35 pm UTC (link)

"I'm tired Aimé. I hate fighting with you, Antoine and father, and of being alone. We believe different things perhaps we always will, but I do love my family. But I feel stuck in the middle. I... I do want to come home yes, but... I fear I will always be the outcast now. D-do not worry for me Aimé. Just be happy okay? No matter what, be true to yourself, that's the most important thing."

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	tigersatthegate 2008-10-07 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	Aimé reached out, touching his brother's arm. "You could come home. You could apologise. Family first, Augustin, you know that. If you just admited you were sorry I know Antoine would allow you back...I would." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

theotherlaurent
2008-10-07 05:48 pm UTC (link)

Augustin turned back toward his brother. "Antoine doesn't want me back Aimé; he has made that clear." He couldn't help looking sad, the fight to keep a stiff upper lip and be strong overwhelming him and he was more defeated than anything. "I am sorry for hurting you, for leaving without any word and if it could have been helped, I would have."

He looked at Aimé. "Do you understand that I am sorry for hurting the family, for not being near but that I was doing what I thought was right, what was best, Aimé? But that above all, hurting you was furthest from my mind? Antoine, he... he doesn't understand that, doesn't like that I disagree with him."

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tigersatthegate
2008-10-08 04:25 pm UTC (link)

Aimé drew himself up, trying not to show how upset he was by his brother's words. "You're not even going to try are you? I don't understand how you can say you're trying to do what's best for the family when you won't even attempt..." He shook his head, sighing softly. He couldn't believe how much he wished to be the family they had been before everything awful had happened in France.

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theotherlaurent
2008-10-08 04:39 pm UTC (link)

Augustin frowned. "What do you think this is? Of course I'm trying, I want us all to be happy together again. I would speak with Antoine, but he has made his feeling clear Aimé, don't you understand?" He grew more and more sad. "Don't you realise how dreadful it's been, feeling so alone, having to actually wonder if anyone missed me, when everything I saw and heard showed that I wasn't.. I would do anything for you Aimé."

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	tigersatthegate 2008-10-08 04:55 pm UTC (link)
	"How had he made his feelings clear, Augustin? I do not understand if you've not spoken to him how can you know his mind?" Aimé said, growing more angry with his stubborn brother with every moment that passed. "Please, don't say things like that, Augustin. It hurts me when you make promises you can't keep." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

theotherlaurent
2008-10-08 05:53 pm UTC (link)

Augustin sighed. "You're right. I don't. And I suppose it is possible he's changed since the last time we spoke. If he would see me, I will speak to him. But did you see the paper? The news about father? I wasn't even mentioned; yes everyone mourn him and the TWO sons he leaves behind." He looked at Aimé, lost and bewildered. Had time passed so much that the brother he knew no longer existed for him. "I am not making promises I can't keep, what do you mean. I WOULD do anything for you, anything to see you happy again."

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tigersatthegate
2008-10-12 06:58 am UTC (link)

"Are you blaming Antoine for that?" Aimé asked softly, crossing his arms across his chest. "No-one knows about you here, no one in England and we have hardly presented ourselves as having a brother who abandoned us. You cannot blame Antoine for what the papers think or choose to print." He said, well aware that soon his name would be within those pages - this time in circumstances that would most likely ruin any good reputation he had.

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theotherlaurent
2008-10-13 07:38 pm UTC (link)

"I... " Augustin didn't know what to say. He'd just reacted, the past between he and Antoine so strained for so long. But Aimé was right. He couldn't blame Antoine, not without talking to him, giving him a chance to speak to him himself. "No, you're right Aimé. I keep upsetting you and it isn't my intent. I should go. I don't wish to do it any further, nor do I wish to upset Antoine in kind either. I will seek him later to speak to him. No one else would be expecting me to be here anyway."

Augustin pulled his coat tighter around his body. He felt colder all of a sudden and had managed to ruin an already hard and emotional day even moreso.

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