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alucard emery (anoshe) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-09-03 10:11:00

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It is my absolute pleasure to announce some good news to this community. Rhy Maresh and I, Alucard Emery, are to be married. I look forward to the planning with all its details, to the wondrous day to come, and most of all to all the days that will follow it.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-03 09:59 pm UTC (link)

Perhaps we can start a fashion trend. As we should. [...] I am happy to get married in the palace or elsewhere. We will be married in the palace at home, but it isn't necessarily obligatory here. I've heard some about destination weddings, though that presents some extra difficulties. The palace is the easiest place to reserve on short notice, but so much of this world is so beautiful. At the very least, I want to take a long trip for our honeymoon.

I'm not entirely sure, honestly. Especially since interior design in this world is so different. I know that I would like to keep the bed, because it already feels like our shared space. But I am open to finding new bedding for it. I want both our room, and our ship, to be very obviously touched by both of us. Whatever that looks like, I will be very happy with it.

I still have some of the paint that was used on the boat. It would be easy enough to paint over the Mucho.

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anoshe
2018-09-03 10:09 pm UTC (link)

Certainly, it would benefit everyone. [...] The palace does have grand spaces which lend themselves to a wedding. And, I must admit, that this arid climate does not lend itself to the beauty of our wedding. It has its own kind of beauty, certainly. But... yes, we have our choice of many other sorts of destinations if we so wish. If there is somewhere else we find we want to use for the ceremony, the reception at least would still do best at the palace. And it would be wonderful to host people in our home.

The bed is a wonderful piece of furniture, and if it did not start out as ours, we have certainly made it such by this time. And as much as it would never be suggested back home, we could always take what we wish from other rooms for use in our own. The palace is the sole source of Arnesian fabrics and designs. At least for bedding and some of the decor, that could be some means. And we will make sure that something that has our touch looks as good as it should.

If we have enough, we can paint over the whole name and properly center Besame.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-03 10:20 pm UTC (link)

You know... we could hold the wedding on the boat, which in turn could be anywhere we wanted it to be. Then the reception at the palace. Then perhaps back to the boat for the honeymoon?

There are so very many good memories with you in that bed. Even if it should get old and worn at some point, I would still be sorry to see it go. [...] Did you have any particular items from the rest of the palace in mind?

There is, indeed, enough paint to cover it all, and for the writing of the name itself.

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anoshe
2018-09-03 10:27 pm UTC (link)

That would work so long as we keep the wedding small. Well, relatively. It could hold a fair number of people. That could work quite nicely. And yes, we can take the boat wherever we wish to go on our honeymoon.

Mmm, yes, I am fond of them myself. It is a good enough bed it should have quite some time before we should have to worry about that. [...] Not yet entirely, but we still have quite a number of guest quarters from which to steal things.

Good. The ship deserves her name to look proper.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-03 10:52 pm UTC (link)

If you'd prefer to have a larger wedding with everyone invited, I am certainly open to hosting at the palace or finding another location. I like the idea of the boat, though. And I wouldn't mind having just our closest friends and family here at the wedding. Especially since there are a few I've already noted not to invite to anything not really intended directly for the group's benefit. The reception could be public to everyone, though. And I do think we could fit our favorite people onto the boat for the length of the ceremony. There is the matter of getting them there, but with portals and portkeys available to us, it should be doable.

It is very well made, and could also be repaired, as needed. [...] We can look at the guest quarters. But I would not mind getting new things, that are just our own.

Yes, she certainly does.

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anoshe
2018-09-03 11:03 pm UTC (link)

Everyone will be invited to the wedding back in Arnes. It is only here that we can have a smaller wedding. I would not mind some size to it; I like the image of people watching us exchange vows. But I do believe we could limit it comfortably to those that fit on the boat. We can arrange for transport readily enough, and if we are worried about anyone coming there uninvited we could always leave it to those we trust making the portkeys and like. And I do like a public reception, though this time I believe it would be best not to offer rooms overnight.

Indeed. [...] Then whether it is a displaced or a local shop, some of the furniture and decor can be taken here. It will be ours, ours alone, Rhy.

I somehow doubt the man was terribly surprised we wanted the boat itself.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-04 03:35 am UTC (link)

I have no objection to having an audience. I will, after all, declare my love for you in front of our entire country. But I do like the idea of being married on the boat. I'm not sure if we technically need an officiant, if the Bureau is making a license for us, but it might be nice to have one. I wasn't sure if you were interested in best men or someone to throw flowers, either, which are some of this world's traditions.

I would not have it any other way, love.

No, I doubt it as well. It was a lucky find; I'm not sure how often someone asks to rent his boat. There are a great many boats for sale, and most of them more updated with modern luxuries. He did not seem to mind at all that I made it my own, even before buying it. Though of course it meant, at the time, that his boat got repairs, fresh paint, and new sails without a dime of it coming out of his own pocket.

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anoshe
2018-09-04 04:10 am UTC (link)

We are charming and competent at carrying a ceremony, but even with the Bureau making the license for us, I do want it to be legal in this world, meeting their standards. Though I have no one in mind, I would like an officiant. We can consider the other traditions as well. It would be nice to include Kell in the ceremony.

It was the lack of those modern luxuries that endeared the boat to you, to me, and let it grow so closely in our hearts. However many people rented it, no more will. It is ours, and the money you spent on it is even more worth it than when you first spent it.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-04 04:20 am UTC (link)

Of course, I want it to be completely legal. We will at least need to check with the Bureau to ensure our identities hold up well enough to get a marriage license through the courthouse, I think. If you prefer it that way, I am happy to do it. And you can also officially change your name at the same time, if you choose. [...] I do want to include Kell in the ceremony, and he did already agree to be a part of the wedding in some form. I think he would hate being the officiant, however.

It would have been more than worth it just for the proposal. You are worth every piece of gold I have, and more, and indeed that money is also yours. But of course there are excellent reasons not to simply go and spend it all.

[...] I quite like being described as a lifeline and a haven, by the way.

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anoshe
2018-09-04 04:34 am UTC (link)

Indeed, we can check on that. There are a few people that can affect reality on such a level it should work fine. But we do test that more than another marriage license might. I do plan to change my name at that time. You have offered it, and I am glad to part with my own. [...] He is better suited to a best man than to the officiant. Or he could throw the flowers.

Even being luxurious to ourselves, there is no need to spend all the money. And I agree, there are better uses to it. In fact, the money placed into the care of their banks are even earning us money, just being there.

[...] You read that, did you? You are both. ~~Those who see a ball and chain are the ones who should consider carefully what they are doing.~~ I have had years to consider it, and I know you for who and what you are.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-04 04:49 am UTC (link)

Whatever way it can be the most real, that is my preference. I know there are limitations since we are visitors here. But I want it to be unquestionably official. The name, too. I would not have insisted on you taking my name, but I am very happy for you to have it, since you want it. [...] Yes, that is a more natural role for him. But did you have someone that you wanted to be your best man?

There is enough for us to have luxuries and have money left over, especially since we are also earning, both through the banks and our jobs. I am very glad to have the boat; I look forward to getting more comfortable traveling at sea.

Of course, I am reading all of our congratulations, since they are for me as well. I didn't take the ball and chain comment personally, in case you were wondering. I do feel tied to you, but I want to be. I know exactly who and what you are, and that is a lifeline and a haven to me, too. [...] An anchor to hold me steady in a rough sea, if you will.

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anoshe
2018-09-04 05:01 am UTC (link)

We will make it as official as we can, and no matter where this portal takes us, we will do the same. It is our choice, ours made, and we will see it honored. Here it is more of a choice - it would be difficult to become your royal spouse without taking it - and I do still want it. Whatever has the name Emery has been tainted, and I will take it away from my father and my brother. [...] It is strange, to know of multiple people back home I would be glad to have as my best mate, but here, I have known many the same amount of time. It is something I will have to consider longer.

Yes, it is good to earn money, as well as just have it. And both our jobs help other people too. Though, mine is a bit more esoteric and removed at times. Right now it has a much more concrete goal. And I look forward to teaching you more of sailing.

We are equal partners in our congratulations. I do not know if the sentiment is missed, us being from another culture. But I cannot see how it can separate from a terrible understanding of marriage, of what it should mean to be tied to another person. Of course, some people have been forced to make such alliances, in order to survive. But even then, it should be something that helps them stay afloat, not sinking to the depth. [...] Ah, see, now an anchor is far more appropriate imagery in the use of iron for marriage.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-04 05:14 am UTC (link)

Nothing about you is tainted by your family, my love. Your father and brother truly didn't deserve you. [...] The Maresh name is not completely untarnished by some of its bearers, either. But you are worthy of it.

It is still a strange thing to have a job at all, but I do enjoy it. Teaching languages helps me to improve my own grasp of them. And with you as a teacher, I'm sure I will improve at sailing as well. I'm quite motivated to impress you.

I think you are interpreting the sentiment correctly. I'll admit that I have been skeptical of whether marriage would truly be a positive thing in my life, since it is a complicated thing, for a king. But with you, it undoubtedly will be. I couldn't have imagined or asked for a better suited match, in every possible way. I truly feel so incredibly lucky to have found you -- or perhaps to have been found by you, since you were the one to approach me, both times.

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anoshe
2018-09-04 05:25 am UTC (link)

The name is theirs, and to the common person, what I do under that name passes back to them in part. This world does not know them, but even so, I would prefer to leave nothing here on which they could use. [...] They are not perfect. But it is not their name I am taking but yours.

Your grasp of them needing that terribly. I was your age when I started to learn it. Lifelong sailors can say what they like, but I have a wonderful grasp of it. And with such a small crew, I am sure you will.

I am familiar with that concern. Marriage was ever on the mind in my family; my brother's trouble securing a wife did buy me greater freedom for some time. I have something to thank the ladies of court for. [...] You were worth approaching and of great interest. So many eyes on you, but so few saw what I did. Luckily for me, some might say. They did not grasp you.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-04 05:39 am UTC (link)

We neither of us need to carry anything of our elders that does not belong to us. My name is much improved by being yours as well.

I am eager to meet you halfway in sailing, even if I will always be less experienced. I would have to gain experience without you to catch up, and that is completely unappealing. I like our craft crewed by two. [...] Even if that may, at times, present some difficulties, I am sure we will make it through.

In fairness to others, I've never been in the habit of presenting all of myself to the world around me, not in a way that most can notice. Even if I'd tried, many would still get taken in by the glamor of royalty, so it was easier to give them what they expected. And then, after you left, I didn't really want anyone else to see me as you did. But it was, and still is, a wonderful feeling to be seen for who I am, and even better by someone who loves me for it. I never want to be someone that you would look at in any other way.

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anoshe
2018-09-04 05:46 am UTC (link)

And yours is a name I wish to help improve.

I am in agreement. It is far better to have you ever the more inexperienced, so that it grows together. Even so, you will become good enough to do what needs doing, so we can be a team together. [...] It will, but having two who know how to sail will make it infinitely better than just one.

I cannot dispute it, even if I can judge them to some degree for it. You have tells to your character, Rhy, and they were alluring to catch. Once I caught sight of one, I could not help but watch for more. It was a puzzle I did not wait to fully solve to leap at. And I have not looked back since doing so. I cannot see that you should have anything to fear, love. You have already proven yourself time and again.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-04 04:58 pm UTC (link)

You already have, my love. I'm better with you.

Just as I will make sure that sailing is better for you, with me.

None of it was ever fully a lie. Just playing up one element of my character over another. But you are by far the most observant person I've ever met. More than me, certainly, at least in a conscious and deliberate way. And perhaps because of that, you've always known exactly how to get through any facade I might put up, which would be a terrifying quality in anyone else. If you had any intention of it, love, you could destroy me.

But I'm not afraid. I've known instinctively, since we met, what kind of person you are. Even when my mind doubted my instincts, my heart still knew.

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anoshe
2018-09-05 03:47 am UTC (link)

I know you are not lying, even as you act one way or another. I have done the same myself, and it is natural, a part of being who we are. It is human. And I do not hold it against you, as I hope those I care about do not hold it against me.

My love, I cannot imagine ever wanting such an event to come to pass, much less to be the architect behind its design. You should be supported, perhaps sometimes challenged, but made to succeed.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-05 04:01 am UTC (link)

I quite like the face you show to the world, don't worry. But I like the one only I get to see even better.

No, no, love, I don't think you want that. I'm trying to tell you how deeply I trust you. It's impossible, in my position, not to question the people I keep close to me, especially after a lifetime of being told that I'm too trusting for my own good. My instincts about people -- to trust them or distrust them, whether I have any reason behind it or not -- have not been wrong yet. My mind is the one that leads me astray when it doubts that instinct, or reasons that the risk might be worth taking.

I've learned to trust my instincts and my heart the most. You taught me that, by coming back and telling me the truth. And by proving over and over again that you are exactly the person I thought you were, in every moment since.

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anoshe
2018-09-05 04:57 am UTC (link)

I trust you Rhy, you and your good heart. It can accomplish what those skeptical hearts can only dream of. And I know you trust me, though I had once feared I had lost it. Taking Bard onto my ship was perhaps one of the times I most acted like you, though to be honest it was at least as much for the puzzle she represented. And so many times she nearly destroyed everything. And yet.

It amazes me what instincts you have and how true they bear themselves out. I trust my observations and my decisions, but they are not made the same way as yours, and I do not know that I would trust myself the way I trust you.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-05 05:26 am UTC (link)

Oh, I liked Bard as soon as I met her. Of course, it helped that she had just helped Kell save my life.

This is yet another way in which we are incredibly complementary, love. Where my instincts might lead me wrong -- or probably more accurately, my mind might try to override my instincts -- you are not likely to be fooled, because of your observations and reasoning, and vice versa. I was glad to have you there when Kylo told us about his past, for instance. I found it difficult to think beyond the fact that I'd already trusted him with my [...] current state, because he had been able to sense that I had no life force, the way I should. But you knew how to react, how to handle that confusing ground between trust and distrust (confusing for me, at least), and I followed your lead.

It took a great deal for you to even come close to losing my trust, and even then, I wrestled with it all those years because what I had felt and what I was told about what you'd done just didn't add up. I let myself be convinced that my instincts were wrong, though, which I will never do again. I won't follow my instincts blindly, either, but rather pursue the truth until both instinct and knowledge are in agreement.

That's why I trust you now: because my rational understanding of you as a person, including your darkest moments and hardest decisions, lines up perfectly with the way I've instinctively perceived you since the moment we met. And I love the person I know you are, everything about you, with the entirety of my heart.

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anoshe
2018-09-06 01:53 am UTC (link)

I met her under quite different circumstances. She had stolen from my thief, then killed him when he confronted her. Now, what the crew did not know was that the thief had been stealing from us. So she did untie that thorny knot of a situation for me. Not how I would have done it, but... nothing I could do once it was done. And she didn't speak any common language. And was an antari whose magic was tied in knots. How was I supposed to resist?

My feelings toward Kylo are deep, conflicted, and not entirely certain. But he has been a friend to us here, as well as an ally. He is working at changing himself and has been removed from the circumstances most thorny for him. So here, I think we are safe enough as friends. But there are few people I don't watch carefully. Possibly no one. People are too interesting to simply assume I know everything about them.

I agree that we work together well, our strengths helping each other, rather than hindering. We can reduce the blind spots we have. And I trust you, wholly and completely. Just as I love you.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-06 02:41 am UTC (link)

I don't know how anyone could have resisted that, love. Even Kell couldn't, and he's resistant to everyone and everything.

I agree with your assessment. I'd mainly be concerned if his circumstances changed, or if someone took a particular interest in manipulating him. People with the best of intentions can still have their weaknesses exploited into making the worst of decisions; I am a perfect example of that. I do hope that he has the best of luck here, not just for our friendship with him, but for him. Everyone deserves the chance to be the best of themselves, I think. But it is certainly easier to think that when I know only what he's told us about his past. I suspect if I'd had personal interactions with the person he was before, I might be rather more biased.

I speak so many languages, but I still don't feel like I have the words for how wonderful you are. I hope I figure it out before it's time to speak our vows. In the meantime I suppose I'll just have to settle for showing you how I feel.

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anoshe
2018-09-06 02:50 am UTC (link)

She burrowed quickly and deeply into Arnes and into our lives. And Kell let her in before he knew she was antari.

Indeed, I would feel immensely differently about meeting him in his universe as who he was surrounded by people and structure who encourage terrible choices. I will admit I have been reading more, generally speaking, about his universe. It has taken some effort to separate the timelines. There is far more available about the other one. But yes, we have the benefit of not having born the consequences of his decisions personally. And I expect the same is true about many people here interacting with many others. I can only hope it encourages everyone down better paths.

Words have yet to capture what I want to say during those vows. It is difficult to express feelings not bound by words. But we will both have to settle, until such time. And a good settling it will be.

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goldenhelm
2018-09-06 03:11 am UTC (link)

I hope she visits along with Kell, at home. She'll keep our lives interesting.

In the deepest parts of my heart, I want those better paths for everyone, even those who've hurt me personally. Whether they can be said to deserve them or not -- though I certainly expect them to earn it, to be worthy of the opportunity. It's encouraging that Kylo, at least, is doing that.

I'm glad you feel that way as well. I don't feel a strong need to hear the perfect words from you, if that helps, though I do look forward to hearing whatever you decide to say. I am very aware of how you feel about me. Every nerve and fiber of my being is well aware.

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