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Eliot the Spectacular, High King of Fillory ([info]the_spectacular) wrote in [info]thedisplaced,
@ 2018-07-28 16:03:00

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Entry tags:alucard emery, bucky barnes / winter soldier (ph), eliot waugh, eliot waugh (helladjacent), fleur weasley, fray, jo harvelle, kylo ren / ben solo, margo hanson, marina andrieski, petunia dursley (au), poe dameron, quentin coldwater, ronan lynch, sam winchester, seivarden vendaai, victor frankenstein (cl), waverly earp

I'm Eliot. I understand you've already met someone who shares a strong resemblance in name, face, and hopefully an excellent taste in vests and alcoholic beverages. Some of you have been here for some time, and I am hoping you can help me.

This isn't my first time being pulled into another world, or my second, or even third, or forth, and so on. Some of you have also been pulled into other worlds which may or may not have been purgatory like before ending up here. I'm trying to get some information on my friends? They might have mentioned a Hell Hotel? Hotel Kairos?

Paul Rovia, aka Jesus
Castiel
Claire Novak
Gretel (yes, that one)
Negan
Judith Grimes
Rowena Ravenclaw
Godric Gryffindor

Just looking to see if anyone else made it out. Any information you might have would be deeply appreciated.


[Eliot's Homeworld(s)]

So, hello. I've just spent the last two years in a semi-sentient, murderous hotel. How're things?


[Quentin Coldwater]
Jesus fuck, Q. Except not literally. Are you my Q? Were you at the hotel? Please tell me you made it out, too. I'm still in quarantine.


[Margo Hanson]
Bambi?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 04:10 am UTC (link)
Perhaps just a few nights a week? I don't know. [...] I just feel like I'm doing wrong by her. Is it a stupid idea?

But, yes, it'll affect how things are. We can figure it out. I'm not really wanting to give up our spontaneity.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 04:28 am UTC (link)
No it’s not stupid, El. It just shifts things, but that doesn’t mean badly, just... it will.

What does she want?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 04:41 am UTC (link)
I think we need to shift things.

I haven't talked to her yet.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 04:47 am UTC (link)
We might. [...] I've been feeling that a bit myself.

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 04:51 am UTC (link)
Bambi says I placate her.

I don't think she's necessarily wrong.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 04:54 am UTC (link)
You placate Fen?

Can I... be honest?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 04:56 am UTC (link)
[...]

Yes.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 05:05 am UTC (link)
I don't know how Fen feels. I can only speak for myself, but I feel as if we sometimes run circles around you. We're both orbiting around you, and sometimes we come into paths with each other, but it's awkward, and difficult to set the orbits because it's not... the gravity is wrong.

[...]

That is, scientifically speaking, a terrible analogy, but never mind that.

I love you. And I have a connection to you, we've promised that to each other. And I don't want to change that. She loves you, and she's married to you - you've promised that connection to each other, and I don't believe she wants to change that and I don't believe you do either. But what is less certain is how Fen and I belong together, or if we do, or what we are to each other. Maybe we shift that. Maybe the commitments aren't just to you, but to each other? If you left tomorrow, what would Fen and I be to each other? I think in some ways we'd still be tethered by that connection to you, and I don't mean that in a bad way. Nor that I would resent it at all - I do like her. I just don't know how always to relate to her.

I don't know if that makes sense.

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 05:18 am UTC (link)

I can't speak for her outside of what she's told me. I just know that [...] whether intentional or not, she feels undervalued, and that was not what I wanted her to feel like. I made a mistake by not telling her about Rupert but [...] I didn't want her to break down again. I didn't mean for it to be just another example of me confiding in your or Margo or Quentin instead of her, but she's taken it that way.

[...]

And that's why I want te shift. It does feel wrong.

Do you want to make a commitment to her?

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 05:22 am UTC (link)
You were worried because of what happened with your child. It's understandable, El. And I know that was not your intention.

Before I answer that, what do you want from the shift? What are you envisioning?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 05:26 am UTC (link)
I hate that she and I aren't on the same page. Maybe if I had experienced it with her, I'd have had better insight.

I'm still working that out. I think a lot of the shift needs to come from me. Her feeling valued is a top priority right now.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 05:36 am UTC (link)
Or maybe you'd still be struggling because communication is hard sometimes, and maybe more difficult when you were pushed into something you weren't ready to commit to.


[...]

Maybe. Or maybe it's from more than just you. She should feel valued, I don't know her well, but she is worth that. And I don't know her well, but that's not a requirement for a commitment. I know her well enough to believe that if you left I would still want to look after her. Perhaps it would help her to understand that she's valued?

Of course she may want nothing to do with me. Or not be interested in that. I don't know. I don't suppose you could bring me a cocktail when you come to bed?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 04:24 pm UTC (link)
Or that.

[...]

It isn't just undervalued that has been a problem. I think if you were to tell her that you still would be part of her life if I were to leave will certainly go a long way in aiding a strong bond for you two; which ultimately will help us three. But [...] the things she said and expressed to me are all founded in pains I brought on her when we built our foundation. I'm trying to change them, and was in Fillory as well, but it's old wounds. [...] That all stem from not being ready or wanting to be where she and I were in the beginning.

Is that something you'd want to talk about together or should I try to brooch the subject first to get some clarity? And is it something you are actually interested in? Yes, dear, I can.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 05:00 pm UTC (link)
You can’t change who you were in The past, El. Anymore than I can. We just move forward from here to the best of our abilities. But I feel tension sometimes even though I have no doubt of your desire for me. Maybe that’s not what she’s feeling, I don’t know, but if it’s part of it, then maybe it helps create a better base for you both to heal from. I don’t like seeing either of you unhappy.

I... don’t know. I feel like maybe it should come from me. But I’m not sure how to say it exactly.

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 05:06 pm UTC (link)

No, I suppose I can't. [...] Tension between Fen and I? Or between you and I? [...] We'll keep working on it until it's better. I think her opening up and telling me how she felt will help.

Maybe.

I'd only approach her about it if you are sure you are interested. I don't want either of you feeling pressured.

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Re: Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 05:16 pm UTC (link)
I'm not certain what I feel is that specific to either you and I or her and you, or even her and I. Or maybe it's pieces of all of it.

The only thing I'm not certain about is that I don't want her to feel pressure because I am asking. That's not a situation I want to put her in.

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 05:20 pm UTC (link)
Okay.

I wouldn't think you would want her to feel pressured. I'm saying I don't want you to feel like I'm pressuring you and I wouldn't want the same for her.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 05:50 pm UTC (link)
El, there are probably other ways to navigate this. I wouldn’t ask if I didn’t want to consider it as an avenue. There’s also just, crawling into bed together and seeing what happens - but I also wonder if that doesn’t potentially lead to more hurt feelings or confusion under the circumstances.


I don’t know.

I’ll talk with her. Or I’ll try anyway. [...] Do you want to be there?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 06:23 pm UTC (link)
There are most definitely. I just--

Which would make you most comfortable? I don't have to be but I could be.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 06:44 pm UTC (link)
I'm not certain. You know her better than I do maybe, but I think I should approach this on my own maybe.

El?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 06:46 pm UTC (link)
You talk to her. She cares about you so I can't see her reacting poorly even if it isn't something she wants.

Ky?

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 07:14 pm UTC (link)
If she wants it, are you all right with it? This shifts us too.

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 08:23 pm UTC (link)
It'll shift but I think as long as we're true to who we've always been, it won't be a negative shift.

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Ky+his El.
[info]behindthemask
2018-07-29 08:53 pm UTC (link)
I love you.

I'll see you in a minute?

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Ky+his El.
[info]highkingeliot
2018-07-29 08:56 pm UTC (link)
I love you, too.

With cocktail in hand.

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Ky+his El. - [info]behindthemask, 2018-07-29 08:57 pm UTC
Ky+his El. - [info]highkingeliot, 2018-07-29 09:13 pm UTC
Ky+his El. - [info]behindthemask, 2018-07-29 09:26 pm UTC

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