Ky+his El.
I don't know how Fen feels. I can only speak for myself, but I feel as if we sometimes run circles around you. We're both orbiting around you, and sometimes we come into paths with each other, but it's awkward, and difficult to set the orbits because it's not... the gravity is wrong.
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That is, scientifically speaking, a terrible analogy, but never mind that.
I love you. And I have a connection to you, we've promised that to each other. And I don't want to change that. She loves you, and she's married to you - you've promised that connection to each other, and I don't believe she wants to change that and I don't believe you do either. But what is less certain is how Fen and I belong together, or if we do, or what we are to each other. Maybe we shift that. Maybe the commitments aren't just to you, but to each other? If you left tomorrow, what would Fen and I be to each other? I think in some ways we'd still be tethered by that connection to you, and I don't mean that in a bad way. Nor that I would resent it at all - I do like her. I just don't know how always to relate to her.