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Tweak says, "bow chika wah wah"

king_quentin (king_quentin) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-02-22 11:46:00

Entry tags:

brunnhilde / valkyrie (mcu), eliot waugh, elsa bloodstone (616), jason todd / red hood (au), john murphy, julia wicker, kady orloff-diaz, kylo ren / ben solo, margo hanson, penny adiyodi, princess allura, quentin coldwater

I have so many regrets and am possibly dying. Could be a temporary feeling. Maybe not.

Added in later

[Brakebills + Kylo]

So we’re leaving Steve alone, okay? Okay.

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	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-22 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	Fuck that. If he can't handle your truth he's not good enough for you. Eliot taught me that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-22 09:09 pm UTC (link)
	It’s fine. Steve’s mad at me because Eliot messaged him. And I’m just tired of making all the wrong decisions and being shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-22 10:14 pm UTC (link)
	Unless you told him to message Steve, that was Eliot's choice - not yours. And you aren't shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-22 10:18 pm UTC (link)
	I didn’t. We’re kind of talking in a non-dramatic way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-22 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	That sounds not terrible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-22 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I don’t know what to say mostly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-22 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I get that. Different thing, but... you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Quentin & Kylo

king_quentin
2018-02-22 11:20 pm UTC (link)

I like him. I hate that right now because I am not sure what that means. I don’t know what he wants or what he’s looking for out of this. I don’t understand. I don’t really known what I want him to say. I don’t want to be a replacement or a temporary stand in for someone else.

I’m sorry about your dad and all of that. Eliot, Petunia, and I are there for you if you need us, though. Even if I’m an emotional wrecking ball.

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Quentin & Kylo

behindthemask
2018-02-23 12:44 am UTC (link)

~~I don't know what I would have done if El~~ Seems to me that if you want different things, then you ought to be clear about that. At least that way you know where you both stand and it's not going to yank you around constantly. I hate being pulled different directions. I'd rather know what's what up front.

If you're an emotional wrecking ball, I'm probably an emotional Death Star. It sounds like he's dead, and I've lost him when you put it that way. Which, all right, is kind of what it is, but this is... I asked Mom not to tell him and I know that's impossible here, but I hate that I asked, and I hate that I wish it wasn't impossible. That there isn't some way to just start the whole thing over again. Without Snoke (fuck Snoke) and without the Jedi and without everything.

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Quentin & Kylo

king_quentin
2018-02-23 01:25 am UTC (link)

Yeah. That’s what I told him. I told him he needed to figure out what he wants because I can’t do this whole back and forth mess. He knows where I stand. I just don’t think he knows where he stands. I can’t do it if I don’t know what’s happening. I emotionally fuck myself over all the time, but I can’t this time.

I wish that was possible, too. But it’s not. So you’re going to have to figure out how to do it. But you’re not alone. We’re here, too. We’re all messes together. It’s fucked, but I guess we make it through.

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Quentin & Kylo

behindthemask
2018-02-23 03:12 am UTC (link)

That's good. I mean I think that's good. I'm terrible at stuff like this, I still don't quite know why El stays with me sometimes, but that seems good. It seems like ... healthy?

Yeah. It doesn't make it easier. But at the same time, it does kinda make it easier? I can talk about it with you and El and I don't feel like you're ... I don't know I feel like you're on my side, you just want me to figure it out - whatever that means. That makes it a little easier.

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	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-23 04:13 am UTC (link)
	None of it matters. Eliot was trying to help, but now Steve doesn’t want to even be friends and I’m [...] I don’t know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-23 04:18 am UTC (link)
	Maybe you need a day here. We might all need a day. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-23 05:41 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I think I need to leave. I’ll be fine, but I can’t be here right now. I can’t... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-23 05:48 am UTC (link)
	I understand that feeling well - we've got a few more days here in Middle Earth. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-23 05:51 am UTC (link)
	I’m leaving all my electronics. If I almost die, I’ll just use my bracelet. It’s fine. Alice is coming. I don’t know where we’re going and I don’t know if I’d tell if I did know right now. I hope things with your dad are okay. I’ll be there later. Promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-23 06:00 am UTC (link)
	I was going to say that you should go with someone. If Alice is coming then that settles that. Things with [...] him aren't okay, but I can't solve it tonight ~~or maybe ever~~. Don't do anything self-destructive, all right? I expect you to be back later. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo king_quentin 2018-02-23 06:02 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I’ll be there, though. No promises. I’ll consider it, however. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Quentin & Kylo behindthemask 2018-02-23 06:30 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Cause, we're friends, that's what friends do, right? Just, be there later. I don't have so many friends that I can afford to lose any. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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