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Tweak says, "Now I'm lost."

Thor Odinson (stillworthy) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2019-09-09 20:37:00

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[Tony]

I have many emotions. I do not know how to deal with them. I do not know how to forget the faces of the dead.

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	Tony + Thor notyourplayboy 2019-09-10 02:32 am UTC (link)
	I wish I had an answer, friend. Your losses were permanent and I'm so sorry we couldn't bring them back with the dusted. I know how difficult it is to close your eyes - the faces, the what ifs - but if it helps at all? You are needed and wanted here and there is a chance those people can join us. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Tony + Thor stillworthy 2019-09-12 10:02 am UTC (link)
	Jane was dusted. I didn't know until she said. She's here, you know, now and I don't... I don't know what to do about that. It's very... Complicated It just feels better, when I drink, because I'm not thinking about it. I don't feel anything and its pleasant. For a very long time, back home in New Asgard, it was the only easy I could force myself to sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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notyourplayboy
2019-09-12 04:27 pm UTC (link)

Shit. I missed that. I'm sorry, man. You talked to her?

Yeah, I remember how it was when I partied. I guess I use work as a distraction now. ~~Honestly, if it wasn't for the kids, I---~~ I only tell you that because I want you to know I'm not judging. I get it. The things you've been through --- it is hard. Fucking hard. Who wouldn't want to escape that shit?

Sam or Christine might be able to prescribe something to help you sleep. Meanwhile, if you are up, I'm probably up so if ever just want to do something else, let me know. I got that diner to rethink their opinion of you by the way.

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Tony + Thor

stillworthy
2019-09-13 02:36 am UTC (link)

A little bit. It was.... awkward.

Before I came here.... I don't think i'd even left my house in a few weeks. We'd gotten a large beer shipment and Valkyrie brought it to my house. And I just... order food and I dont have to leave, and I just drink until I can't think about things anymore and... it's ... it was nice to forget about all the deaths I had caused.

Maybe. But I dont want them to think I am weak.

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	Re: Tony + Thor notyourplayboy 2019-09-13 01:47 pm UTC (link)
	Do you still --- you know? I think I failed you in our time. I don't know why we I let that happen. I'll get a prescription if you do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Tony + Thor

stillworthy
2019-09-14 04:08 pm UTC (link)

Know what?

Everyone had to deal with what was going on in their own way. You had Pepper and Morgan to worry about. Bruce had to deal with living as the hulk. Steve and Nat... they were still trying to save the world. It's fine. In the grand scheme of things, my pain was not any more important than your own.

Would one even work on me? I'm Asgardian. It's... different, you know.

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