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Tweak says, "Shut your pie-hole!"

Wanda Maximoff (MCU) (controlmyown) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2021-03-12 08:34:00

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I'm back. [...] How long has it been? ~~This didn't all disappear while I was I'm not resp~~

[ooc: may contain wandavision spoilers]

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Wanda | Bruce

controlmyown
2021-03-13 02:54 am UTC (link)

That doesn't give me the right to make others feel my pain and grief. We didn't tell anyone, but before he died...Vis bought a lot for us. We were going to build a house, build a life together. I went there, after I left SWORD and...I fell apart. I used my powers to build a fantasy world, and I pulled the better part of an entire town into it, thousands of people. I used them to create an illusion for us, where we were married and normal and together and...we had children. Billy and Tommy.

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sevenphds
2021-03-13 03:16 am UTC (link)

No, it doesn't. But it does explain it. No one alive can say they've been what you have. A lot of us felt grief that day but what you did was extraordinary and painful and it has to feel like it was for nothing when we lost you just minutes later.

I can't condone what you did. But I can absolutely empathize with it. Who wouldn't do what you did with the power to do so? Wanda, I know how incredibly lucky I am for my second chance but if I could get back all those years I missed with Betty, I still would. I can't even imagine your grief.

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controlmyown
2021-03-13 03:24 am UTC (link)

I don't know how I did it, but I somehow managed to recreate Vision using the part of the Mind Stone I have. It was like I pulled him from me out of that connection and....life there was amazing, even though it wasn't real. But I know it couldn't last.

And then to come here so suddenly after losing him yet again, and the boys...I thought it better if I take some time away from the villa.

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sevenphds
2021-03-13 02:44 pm UTC (link)

I think there's a lot to your powers you haven't even explored yet. Maybe get with some of the magic users here, when you're feeling up to it. Maybe someone can guide you in ways we couldn't at home. Strange Maybe could have but, well, he's not here.

Promise me you're doing this in a Get Your Head Together way and not in a I Have to Hide Because I'll Hurt People way. Loneliness is a hell of a weapon, Wanda. Right up there with grief.

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controlmyown
2021-03-13 04:17 pm UTC (link)

I know more now than I did when I left Goodland, but that's a good suggestion. There was a woman who sought me out, who messed with the world I created and wanted my power. She said all these things about me and...it turns out she was right. I'm talking to Carol below, and she says that I'm a nexus being, something I've never heard of.

It's a little bit of both. Being here for so long has helped with the grieving, but going there and coming back just renewed all of those emotions. And I want to understand my power, I will understand it, but I don't have the same resources here or ways to keep myself separate from others so that I can study without fear of harming them.

I didn't mean to tell you, or anyone, all of this in this manner, but...thank you for asking if I wanted to talk, Bruce. Can you tell Tony and the other Avengers about some of it, so I don't have to repeat it all? ~~And ask why none of you claimed Vision's bod~~.

In a way...you, Tony, and Thor are my fathers-in-law now. I'd like to tell you more about your grandsons, one day.

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sevenphds
2021-03-13 05:43 pm UTC (link)

I'm glad you did tell me. I'm pretty sure a lot of the issue at home is you had no one backing you. No support. It's dangerous, it makes us do horrible things, and when you have powers you can barely control as it is, lashing out isn't exactly the best course of action.

You're not alone here, Wanda. We love you. You have such a large family now and I know it isn't the same as having him and your boys but we will not let you be alone anymore. Take a few days, take some time to grieve on your own, but don't you dare hesitate to reach out if you need anything or anyone.

I'll talk to the others. And I'd love to hear all about your versions of the boys. I imagine they're spunky and powerful and clever all in one.

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controlmyown
2021-03-13 06:05 pm UTC (link)

Part of it too is just...everyone had so many things happening. Thanos was defeated, and billions of people were back and then there was the funeral and everyone had things they needed to do. I don't blame them for overlooking me. When I found out SWORD had his body, I wanted to find out why and try to retrieve it for a burial, but I couldn't. And you're right.

I know I'm not. I'm glad you won't. Nathan is coming for dinner tomorrow, but if you want to come out at any point you can. I just wanted to be somewhere quiet and the villa is a bit loud with so many people from different universes.

Thank you, and they are. They're perfect.

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sevenphds
2021-03-13 08:57 pm UTC (link)

I can only imagine that time in our lives was just a huge blur. Losing Tony and Nat would be hard enough. The conflict, getting all of you back should have been incredible but getting settled back in, dealing with the world and the way it changed... I know it's coming for me if I go back there and honestly, I truly don't want to. I still hate that none of us was there when you needed us and I can't speak for my future self but I don't like it.

I'll come by in a day or two. I don't want you to feel overwhelmed, but I'd love to talk. Just watch that one goat. He's shady, but no one believes me.

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	Wanda \| Bruce controlmyown 2021-03-13 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	If there was a way to keep you here so you don't have to experience it...I'd do it for you. But having everyone else back is a gift in itself, and so is having Tony and Natasha here. I'll keep an eye on him. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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