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Liam Roberts is an (author) wrote in rooms,
@ 2015-03-20 12:53:00

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[After this.]

am i a monster?

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

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2015-03-21 06:44 pm UTC (link)

Aiden. I almost forgot about him. [There was a laugh, a little hoarse.] Has to be something good if he's not here. He got lucky, getting out. Not coming back.

[His sigh was longer at the mention of things not being great, but truthfully, Liam wasn't sure how things were at all. There were days of happiness, yeah, but he hadn't hardly spoken to him since things went south again, since things got difficult once more. He licked his lips, dry and parched, his steps a little quicker.] I think- I think it'd be easier for him... if I went away. I just- I upset him, y'know. Frustrate him. It's all I've done for the longest time, and I thought- I thought remembering him? That it'd be easier, but it's not. Now I just remember all the bad things too and why did I bring that back to his doorstep. He doesn't deserve this. He deserves better than me, better than I can offer him.

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

tinieblas
2015-03-21 06:53 pm UTC (link)

[She didn't bother telling him that getting out wasn't all that fucking great, not when everything you knew was here. She didn't think he needed any other downers tonight, yeah? And the reality that people here were worth all this fucked up shit that would never stop? That wasn't exactly cheery or anything.

But she knew what he described next, that feeling that someone could care about you and still want you to gtfo because shit was too hard. She got that, and she couldn't argue with him, even though she was pretty sure she was supposed to say some uplifting shit about how he was wrong about other people being better off without fucked-up people in their lives. But she couldn't. Her brother was dead because of her, and she couldn't say Liam was wrong. She felt like that all the fucking time now.]

Yeah. I feel that way a lot too. [She motioned to a parked cab on the corner.] Let's take that up, yeah? My fucking feet hurt, and I can make him cool about the wings.

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

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2015-03-21 06:59 pm UTC (link)

Different as we are, we still have a lot in common, don't we? [It was a quiet observation, hands fisting in his pocket, and he looked towards the cab that waited for its next passenger. Something told him that he shouldn't, that he should refuse, continue walking, let her go on her own if she needed, but another little voice told him that was a bad idea just then.]

How're you going to make him 'cool' about them? [His head was ducked, and he knew how much he stood out.] I don't- I don't want to cause trouble, Sam. For anyone.

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

tinieblas
2015-03-21 07:05 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, I guess. [Her response to them having a lot in common was less than enthusiastic, yeah? Shit. Shit. She didn't need to get blue on top of everything the fuck else. All the antsy jittery shit was enough without anything else on top of it, and Gotham was fucking hard, yeah? She knew where all the good dealers were, and she knew which families they belonged to, and she knew they'd give her product without fucking asking twice for cash she didn't have. She knew how shit worked too well here, because that had been her job for the short time the Donovan clan had been in business - drugs. And it wasn't any fucking coincidence that the last drug den she'd been dragged out of on Christmas had been here. Ok, no, not thinking about that shit.]

They just know me here. Come on. [She reached for his upper arm, and she tugged him to the waiting cab. She opened the back door without saying shit to the cabbie, and she motioned for Liam to get in, while she leaned in the cabbie's window and let him see her face.]

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

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2015-03-21 07:14 pm UTC (link)

[It had been ages since Liam had used, memories that he couldn't quite fetch from the back of his brain, muddled and jostled as it was. But there were issues back then, he knew that, bad things that he had chased, things that made him feel good. Better. Wonderful. It wasn't a familiar itch but it was there nonetheless, tugging and pulling at the back of his thoughts.

He let himself be tugged over to the cab, the door opened and he got in without argument, wings surprisingly flexible and easy to sit on as he scooted over on the bench seat, the smell of old cigarettes and stale beer clinging to the upholstery.

The cab driver gave her a passing glance at first, more interested in the thing that had gotten in his back seat, but anything he might have been ready to say was quickly shushed when she leaned in to give him a look. Yeah, he knew that face, knew the names that it was attached to, so he didn't argue, didn't even bother punching the meter.]

Where ya going? [It was all that was said as he faced forward, his jaw set.]

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

tinieblas
2015-03-21 07:22 pm UTC (link)

[Sam had a bad feeling about absolutely fucking everything, yeah? But this was the quickest way to get Liam somewhere safe, somewhere where shit could actually get better for him, and she wasn't going to let being scared or whatever change that shit. Sure, she wanted to run. She wanted to run as far and as fast as her fucking feet could carry her.

She promised herself she could do just that once Liam was at Zatanna's, with Lou. Then she could go do whatever. It was like any anticipated bad thing, yeah? You counted the fucking seconds, minutes, whatever.

Her fingers shook as she took them off the window ledge, and she was grateful the driver didn't ask why she was wrinkled or whatever.] Shadowcrest.

[She knew the names, and she sounded like she was supposed to be going there. Ok, Easy. Easy. She slid into the backseat next to Liam, and she maybe exhaled too fucking hard when the driver kicked the car into drive.

She tapped her fingers nervously against the window as the city flew by.]

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

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2015-03-21 07:32 pm UTC (link)

[Shadowcrest. He felt like it was a name he should know, but he couldn't put meaning behind it. But Sam, yeah, she knew where it was they were going. He glanced over towards her where she sat beside him, his heart pounding a little harder, his vision tunneling slightly in response. The logical part of him knew that she meant him no harm, but something deep inside of him, something old and dark, felt quite differently.

A shallow breath, his hands flexing on top of his thighs, the edges of his nails rust-red with blood, and he leaned his head back against the seat and tried not to think too much.

The city rushed by, a blur of lights beyond the window, and again, his fingers twitched.]

Sam?

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

tinieblas
2015-03-21 07:40 pm UTC (link)

[The smog of Gotham in the rearview, and the Heights was like being in a completely different fucking place, yeah? Ok, so it was all still dark and kind of gothic or whatever, but it wasn't hookers and blow and smog so thick you couldn't fucking see.

The movement of his hands on his thighs drew her attention, and she tried not to see the blood beneath his fucking nails. What the fuck was she even doing? Jesus fucking Christ. Breathe. Yeah, ok, breathing. His fingers twitched as the verdant lawns and huge fucking gates of the manor homes came into view, and words, yeah? She should find words. And at least if shit went bad here, he'd be wandering around Zatanna's neighborhood, yeah? And Batman. Batman lived next door or whatever. Someone could catch him if she lost him; it was better than the fucking alley.]

Yeah, baby?

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

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2015-03-21 07:47 pm UTC (link)

[A different place was right, and it was different in a way that made his very bones ache with repulsion. Fingers twitched again, clenched into the fabric of the pajama bottoms he wore, opulence passing by them outside the windows. The skies were clear, crisp midnight blue with the stars nearly visible, and he looked out at them, thinking, planning.

His attention was drawn back to her, dragged back, and there was something different in his face then, something that wasn't quite him.] I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Sam.

[Blue when flat, and twitching fingers pulled at the latch to the door, cold air whipping into the cab as he all but launched himself out into the night. The cabbie came to a hard halt, tires squealing, but Liam was already gone. White wings against the dark sky that took him higher and higher until he wasn't visible any longer. There was no thought in the action, nothing but instinct driving him on, away from the place where magics ran deep, from the place that he could not, would not go.]

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Re: Gotham: Sam & Liam

tinieblas
2015-03-21 07:56 pm UTC (link)

[The cab driver slammed the breaks on, and Sam just cursed. Fuck this, man. Fuck it. She slammed her heel into the back of the seat in front of her, and she'd just put her ass at fucking risk for nothing. Neil too, yeah? All for fucking nothing.

Whatever. She was done helping. So fucking done, yeah?

She asked the cabbie to pull the fuck over, and she didn't have any money, yeah? She was going to ask that Zatanna woman to pay the fare, and now she owed this asshole. Great, fucking great. She knew she'd have to work off the fucking fare, because influence only counted for so fucking much, and even the threat of a crime family reemerging wasn't worth shit without something behind it, and she wasn't willing to push it that far.

Fifteen minutes later, and she was walking back to the city. Whatever. Just- whatfuckingever. Liam could shove his fucking apology. She was done helping people. She'd lost her place in the shelter line for fucking NOTHING.

Fuck this night.]

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