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Tweak says, "merfie lerfie!"

inkonstage (inkonstage) wrote in rooms,
@ 2014-06-09 12:09:00

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*journal, helena wayne, marta flores, sam alexander, seven morgan, valerie king

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To the fuck heads who are responsible for me waking up naked with come dripping out of my cunt:

Just what made you think it was fucking okay to use my body as some come-dump fuck toy?

You know, I decided years ago that I'm the one who says who gets to be in my body so thanks for taking that away from me.

Wow and I hope I'm on the pill or something, right? Hate to get knocked up from this shit. And yeah, I hope whoever you fucked my body with doesn't have the clap or herpes or goddamn fucking aids. Because you fuckers obviously didn't use a condom. Did it get you off faster to bareback in a body you didn't have to give a fuck about? Now I get to go to the clinic not just now, but also down the fucking road because some of that shit doesn't show up right away. And I have to worry about giving shit to other people if I actually want to hook up with someone. Hope that if I've got a partner they're real understanding about that.

Thanks for giving me nightmares for fucking ever. Waking up naked, not knowing where I am or who's been inside of me. Real great.

And maybe it doesn't seem like a big fucking deal after all of that other shit but that was my favorite fucking shirt you assholes. It was fucking important to me, and now it's covered in some stranger's nasty jizz. Thanks. Fuck you.

[She calms down a little after talking to Seven, and just wants to get past it. It's struck out, but still visible, to an extent.]

[Anon]
The woman who probably woke up in a wet dress? Are you okay?

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	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-10 08:23 pm UTC (link)
	You said that. Listen, I'm [...] trying to understand why. And I'm not getting it? Like, I know some people are just fucked up but you're here saying sorry so I'm trying to understand. Are you a dude? [Going by name, not remembering the few conversations with Sam in the past.] Did you want to test out what it's like? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 08:27 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not going too make excuses. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-10 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, good. I don't want excuses. Excuses fucking suck and can kiss my ass. [...] Explanations are different. [...] Please? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 08:43 pm UTC (link)
	I thought it was the regular hotel bullshit, just us with a coat of paint. I didn't realize someone else would wake up like that. And you're pretty, and he liked you, and it was nice. You know? I don't look like that, and I barely remember being that young. And we fell asleep, or I wood half cleaned up. sorry - would have cleaned up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Marta F

inkonstage
2014-06-10 08:54 pm UTC (link)

[There's a pause. A long, long pause. It takes a while of hard thinking.] Okay. See, that [...] I can kind of understand, if you just thought it was different looks for the night instead of whatever fucked up body swap it actually was. I didn't know we were going to wake up like we did either.

You make it sound like you're a billion. [...raised eyebrow.] You fell asleep together?

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	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 09:00 pm UTC (link)
	Me either. I think whoever had my body got raped [that word is so quickly scribbled that it's a crazy jagged mess of her stylus against the screen] and killed. I woke up naked and covered in blood and come and it doesn't make it okay, but I got mine I guess. And everything hurts. I'm old. [...] Yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Marta F

inkonstage
2014-06-10 09:11 pm UTC (link)

[She knows that jagged-word feeling. There's a sympathy there for it.] I hate this fucking hotel. I really fucking do. Everything is always so fucked up and for as upset as I was when I woke up (that's when I wrote that stuff), there's no way you should have to deal with this shit either. How bad is the hurt?

Brain or body? [...] That's not just liking a face then. You don't sleep next to someone that's just a face to you. Not unless you're way fucked up and it's more passing out and not sleep.

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	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 09:15 pm UTC (link)
	Bad. Like it happened to me. Both. I don't have your body, that's for sure. [...] we weren't fucked up. We stayed away from those stores too. But that's romantic, thinking that about sleeping with someone. It's not true though. People sleep when they're tired. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Marta F

inkonstage
2014-06-10 09:24 pm UTC (link)

The blood too? You going to the clinic? Doctor?

So you're like 70 then? Tits down to your knees [She's decided Sam is a woman.], all dried up and pruney inside? [...] Okay, a little romantic maybe, but not all of it. I've shared beds with a ton of people, most of them I didn't fuck, would never fuck, and there's a fucking difference between someone you're not okay with and someone you are.

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	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	No. The hotel never makes shit last like that. Not that far off, but my tits aren't big enough to hang to my knees. Maybe just to my bellybutton. [...] if I thought he was an asshole or if I was scared, I wouldn't have slept with him, yeah? He was nice. It was cool. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-10 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	Just aches inside, yeah? I got stabbed once and felt like I had to cough for week after. You know I think you're shitting me, right? [...] Yeah, I get that. I really get that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	During a hotel thing? I'm older than you, baby. I'm a lot older than you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-10 09:54 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. It was an accident, but that didn't make it suck any less when it happened. I think I'm 19 now, maybe 20. So you are: 5 10 15 20 25 25+ years older than me? Because I might have a different viewpoint on what I consider old. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 11:13 pm UTC (link)
	Between 5 and 10. Closer to 10. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-10 11:18 pm UTC (link)
	That's not that old. Even if it was full 10. You're saying you're not even 30. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-10 11:22 pm UTC (link)
	Almost 28. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-10 11:41 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, and that's not old. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-11 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Feels it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-11 12:40 am UTC (link)
	[...] Yeah, there's days I've felt 100 fucking years old. Doesn't make me 100. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-11 01:51 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Maybe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F inkonstage 2014-06-11 02:01 am UTC (link)
	So. It doesn't make you 100 either. Even if you feel like it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-11 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I have a kid that needs some mac and cheese. I'm sorry again, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Sam A/Marta F

inkonstage
2014-06-11 03:27 am UTC (link)

It's better if you use milk. And, like, if you've got real cheese. If not it's good too, but that makes it special.

It's okay. Like I told ~~Russ~~ the other person, now I just need some time to get through it. [...] This is going to sound messed up, but then again I'm the girl that forced the guy that stabbed her in the chest to buy her a drink. So if you need anything, let me know.

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	Re: Sam A/Marta F jukejoint 2014-06-11 03:27 am UTC (link)
	Yeah? Ok. I don't have a lot of experience in mac and cheese. And thanks. Really, yeah? Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)