That's exactly why I like reading them - because it just hurts that much! When I'm in the mood for a good cry I know reading one of the handful of really good death!fics I've found will get me there. Of course sometimes I'm like everyone else and avoid them because I just want to read schmoopy happy post-513 fics... but then again some of the best death!fics are those too. What is this "best one ever" you speak of? I know how it is and you must space out the death!fic recs so you don't upset the masses, but can you email it to me? pendulumchanges @ gmail dot com. Chances are I've already read it seeing as I seek out death!fics, but I'm hoping I've just found another one!