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Tweak says, "*waits 4 fry*"

Caitlin Snow/Killer Frost (frostandsnow) wrote in paragraffiti,
@ 2009-05-09 13:07:00

Entry tags:

ben braeden, eddie brock/venom, jacen solo, ruby, sam winchester

This city never ceases to amaze me, amid all the bad we still find time to squabble and debate morality and good vs evil. Its safer in that gray area I say. No one expects much of you there and even if they do they can pretend they didn't so they don't get dissapointed. And the ones that know you, the ones you can count on. They understand.

[Filtered to Ben]

I'm sorry I can't just come say it in person
You'll understand soon, all of you will
Once Sam's strong enough to
Everything will be better and maybe you'll be my friend again.

Happy Birthday

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	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 04:12 pm UTC (link)
	I don't only care about you. I care about Ben, I love Castiel. You just need me around a lot right now. You need me to get yourself strong. Its just, he wouldn't understand that. None of them would, you said so yourself (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 04:20 pm UTC (link)
	I know. But it comes off like I'm being put first and no one really wants that. When will I need you around less? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 04:27 pm UTC (link)
	Right now thats how it has to be. Well I'll still be around, I mean if you want me there, but you can feel it right, how strong you're getting and you've only taken the blood twice. Eventually, You won't need me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 04:34 pm UTC (link)
	We can't keep doing it like that. I need you now though. Which complicates things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 04:43 pm UTC (link)
	So how do we fix it?. It does complicate things, but I don't know how to make that better, Not while they don't trust me around you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 05:14 pm UTC (link)
	Give him more time. That's not gonna change either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 05:26 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, I guess I can do that, He really said he didn't trust me? No, its not is it. So what are we gonna do? You know you can call on me whenever you need it but there's more to it than just that isn't there? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 05:40 pm UTC (link)
	Not necessarily, no, but that's how it all came off to me. I need you there when I use it for a while. I need to have someone watch my back while I'm learning to adjust to it. We might have to go out later than usual. It'd give us less time, but we'll be able to make room for everyone else. It'd raise less suspicion. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 05:46 pm UTC (link)
	It'll raise more suspicion. You and me being around each other, no one's suprised by that. If we start sneaking around in the middle of the night to meet each other they'll know somethings wrong. Maybe if you started to take more. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 05:57 pm UTC (link)
	...you're right. Dammit. More? You mean...I don't know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	Yes more. It's okay Sam, It is. You know it works, and taking more, we can maybe get you to that place quicker and maybe if we're not sneaking off all the time we can just get back to being friends and maybe people will stop freaking out about it all. It'll be easier when you're strong, when you're in control. I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	I can barely take in what you're giving me now. How am I supposed to do more? I don't know about that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	We don't do it rushed. We take a few hours, see how it goes. Can you get away from everyone for a whole evening? I do. You don't believe me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	Probably. Could say I'm pulling an all nighter at work. Doing stock or something. I do. I just don't know if I can handle it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:33 pm UTC (link)
	That'll work. You can handle it. We'll do it slow and we'll make sure. But I know you can handle it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	You'd lose a lot of blood. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	I know how much I can afford to loose. We can do this Sam. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:49 pm UTC (link)
	What if it's too much? What if I can't handle it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	Then we'll stop. There's no harm in just trying is there (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	I thought we were gonna take this slow? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 07:11 pm UTC (link)
	I wanted to. But the way everyones been about me lately, if you don't want them to find out we really should amp things up a little. But your decision of course. Its always your decision. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	What will happen if I drink more? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	That energy you get when you drink it, there'll be more of it, more intense, and the hope is you'll be stronger from it. I'm gonna try and build to it though, thats why we need the whole time. Nothing bad'll happen. Thats the important thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	How do you know nothing bad is gonna happen? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 03:58 am UTC (link)
	Because I know. Because I know what we can both handle and I know it'll be okay. You understand why though, why I'm worried about taking it so slow. If you really think Dean and the others would never understand then we need to speed things up a little, or they'll get even more suspicous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)