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Tweak says, "nolite bastardes carborundum"

Caitlin Snow/Killer Frost (frostandsnow) wrote in paragraffiti,
@ 2009-05-09 13:07:00

Entry tags:

ben braeden, eddie brock/venom, jacen solo, ruby, sam winchester

This city never ceases to amaze me, amid all the bad we still find time to squabble and debate morality and good vs evil. Its safer in that gray area I say. No one expects much of you there and even if they do they can pretend they didn't so they don't get dissapointed. And the ones that know you, the ones you can count on. They understand.

[Filtered to Ben]

I'm sorry I can't just come say it in person
You'll understand soon, all of you will
Once Sam's strong enough to
Everything will be better and maybe you'll be my friend again.

Happy Birthday

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	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	Yes more. It's okay Sam, It is. You know it works, and taking more, we can maybe get you to that place quicker and maybe if we're not sneaking off all the time we can just get back to being friends and maybe people will stop freaking out about it all. It'll be easier when you're strong, when you're in control. I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	I can barely take in what you're giving me now. How am I supposed to do more? I don't know about that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:22 pm UTC (link)
	We don't do it rushed. We take a few hours, see how it goes. Can you get away from everyone for a whole evening? I do. You don't believe me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	Probably. Could say I'm pulling an all nighter at work. Doing stock or something. I do. I just don't know if I can handle it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:33 pm UTC (link)
	That'll work. You can handle it. We'll do it slow and we'll make sure. But I know you can handle it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	You'd lose a lot of blood. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	I know how much I can afford to loose. We can do this Sam. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 06:49 pm UTC (link)
	What if it's too much? What if I can't handle it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	Then we'll stop. There's no harm in just trying is there (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	I thought we were gonna take this slow? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 07:11 pm UTC (link)
	I wanted to. But the way everyones been about me lately, if you don't want them to find out we really should amp things up a little. But your decision of course. Its always your decision. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	What will happen if I drink more? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-11 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	That energy you get when you drink it, there'll be more of it, more intense, and the hope is you'll be stronger from it. I'm gonna try and build to it though, thats why we need the whole time. Nothing bad'll happen. Thats the important thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-11 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	How do you know nothing bad is gonna happen? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 03:58 am UTC (link)
	Because I know. Because I know what we can both handle and I know it'll be okay. You understand why though, why I'm worried about taking it so slow. If you really think Dean and the others would never understand then we need to speed things up a little, or they'll get even more suspicous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-12 06:42 pm UTC (link)
	How do you know for sure what I can handle, Ruby? There's not a guide to this, we don't know what'll happen and we need to be careful. This is me, okay? I mean, I'm drinking demon blood and it's bad enough that I already have it in me. What am I thinking? What am I doing I understand the why. It's the result that worries me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 07:02 pm UTC (link)
	I'm being careful Sam, we're both being careful. Think about it, any downsides so far? Feels good doesn't it. In spite of what it is its making you strong. So just hold to that. What do you mean the result? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-12 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	I know. It makes me strong. But aren't you worried that there's gonna be some kind of weird side effect later? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 07:22 pm UTC (link)
	No, I'm not worried, I have faith it'll work out, make you strong like you should be. Isn't that enough for you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-12 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	Faith? Ironic coming from someone who's so anti-religious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 07:37 pm UTC (link)
	~~That depends what you define as~~ You can't have faith in your friends now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-12 07:50 pm UTC (link)
	I have faith in my friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 07:54 pm UTC (link)
	Then trust that I know what we're doing (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby. ex_demonbloo908 2009-05-12 07:56 pm UTC (link)
	It's scary. What we're doing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2009-05-12 08:04 pm UTC (link)
	Of course it is. That doesn't make it wrong though. You know why we're doing this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)