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Tweak says, "Little of life goes as planned"

Claire Winchester (née Bennet) (regenerating) wrote in paragraffiti,
@ 2008-12-13 17:07:00

Entry tags:

buffy summers, claire bennet (future), heather mason, sam winchester, spike, the mayor

I hate this stupid city.

~~And I hate waiting.~~

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[SBC!Claire]

lonestarclaire
2008-12-13 04:50 pm UTC (link)

Thats not all we are...we're not just freaks or special or anything like that. We're people just like everyone else and you need to remember that.

I know what you went through had to be horrible, you thought it was Nathan doing it all and I can only imagine how that must have felt. But Peter fights, its what he does, its what he is. Not all of what he is but its a part of it

He fights for his family, his friends and everyone else that needs to be help.

He saved me...us. When all we were was a face in a painting. He flew to Odessa because it was the right thing to do.

You're me. Different experiances but you are Claire Bennet as much as I am. And I refuse to hear myself give up.

Don't make me come over there Sassy Brunette Claire. Cause I will.

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[ABC!Claire]

regenerating
2008-12-13 05:05 pm UTC (link)

Fine, so we're people, but that doesn't make us destined to be the puppets in some war between higher powers that can't fight their own stupid battles.

Yeah, Peter fights for all those things. He also fights for people who don't even notice what he does and for murdering almost-serial killers because he's too blind to see the danger right. And he gets kidnapped and tortured for it, but maybe next time he'll get a break and it'll be Dad that gets taken, or Nathan, or the rest of our family.

Don't you remember what we told Peter, about Dad? He let himself be shot and his mind screwed with so we could have a life, not a destiny. In my timeline, he died trying to protect me, spent all those years trying to give me as much of a life as he could. And sometimes I hated it, because it wasn't ever enough of a life, it was never going to be normal. I'm tired of watching people sacrifice everything to make a life none of us will ever get.

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[SBC!Claire]

lonestarclaire
2008-12-13 05:16 pm UTC (link)

...Dad died?

God I...

That can't be all there is, we're not just pawns, we're not. And...I don't know maybe Peter and Nathan see something that we don't with not yet Sylar, he's not the issue right now.

I remember...

I just need there to be more to all this cause I need to feel like something I do means a damn, That I'm not just 'the Cheerleader' that I'm not just 'special'

I need a reason.

Yeah there's bad people, this person thats got Peter, I'd kill them. I would. I'd put a bullet in their head soon as look at them. But for every them there's someone good, for every Sylar there's a Peter, for every Bob there's someone like Dad.

It balances.

It has to.

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[ABC!Claire]

regenerating
2008-12-13 05:23 pm UTC (link)

I don't know if he's from when he died, but yeah. It's how they found me, Parkman picked his brain to find out where I was and then killed him, because you know Dad, he wouldn't have let anyone hurt us as long as he was alive to stop it.

Maybe it balances, but there's not just good or bad, black or white, there's people in the middle, people who don't fight either side, people who just live their lives because not everyone has to be some kind of hero. If you need that, then do it. Just because we're the same person doesn't mean we should do or need the same things.

Don't cry. I know you're crying. I'm sorry.

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	[SBC!Claire] lonestarclaire 2008-12-13 05:51 pm UTC (link)
	Parkman did? Your worlds more messed up than I thought. I don't expect us to want the same things, I'm just worried about you. You want a normal life, It is possible, I just dont think that you'd be happy. ...I'm not crying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ABC!Claire] regenerating 2008-12-13 05:59 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I can't have a normal life, I just want a life, not whatever this all is, because it's not a life. Peter's not here, I just told you more about my messed up world and I said Dad died there. If you're not crying, you're some kinda Clairebot. So don't lie or I'll come over there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[SBC!Claire] lonestarclaire 2008-12-13 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	Okay so here is pretty messed up, but with the exception of Mom, Meredith and lets be honest...Mr Muggles, our family is here. Thats a life. I am the Clairebot right, even by our standards I'm the weird one. But okay so I was crying. You tell no one. I'm okay anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[ABC!Claire] regenerating 2008-12-13 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	I know it is, and that's why I'm tired of things trying to take it away again. Only sometimes. You can have a free pass today on the weird. It's not like people would be so surprised. We cry when we're sad, we cry when we're happy, we cry when we're scared. God, we kinda suck. I could come over there in a not-a-threat way? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[SBC!Claire] lonestarclaire 2008-12-14 05:02 am UTC (link)
	I won't let it. We won't let it. Things can try but they WON'T win and we're gonna get Peter back. I promise. Free pass. Aww. We really do huh. I'd try to deny it but you're me so I can't deny it to you. But we're also in many ways awesome. That'd be cool. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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