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michael corner is reluctantly growing up (mlcorner) wrote in pandorarpg,
@ 2011-12-26 22:12:00

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!status: complete, ^date: november 09 2003, character: lavender brown, character: michael corner

Characters: Lavender Brown & Michael Corner
Setting: Lavender's flat, 9 November 2003, 2:31pm
Rating: General Public
Summary: Catching Lavender up on the meeting & getting free baked goods.

Michael wasn't sure if he felt good about the meeting or not. They had discussed plenty of things and learned loads from all different sources, but there had been confrontation and not many had considered some of what he said to be realistic, which he had expected, but being the dutiful not-boyfriend that he was, he had still said it. He wanted to give Lavender a full account of what all had happened, but he had a feeling she wasn't going to like all of it. Hopefully he could put that part off for a while.

Michael knocked on her door rather than trying to enter through the roof, though at least he had been extended an invitation this time. So maybe that meant that he wouldn't be expecting anything to be thrown at him, not that he wouldn't put it past Lavender to turn the tables on him at any moment. He waited for her to open the door, holding a bouquet of lavender coloured flowers he had procured on the way over to Lavender's flat.

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mlcorner
2012-01-13 01:28 am UTC (link)

Michael nodded in response to what she said. "I know, love." He just wondered if she really knew that she hadn't ever hurt anyone, least of all him. "And you haven't hurt anyone," he decided to add, just in case.

"Lavender, you aren't doing anything to seriously hurt anyone. Why do you think you would? You take plenty of precautions as it is, there's not much more you could do to make yourself any more safe." He considered something else she had said and added, "What did you mean by not getting to have what you wanted when you were younger?"

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lavishly
2012-01-13 01:58 am UTC (link)

And she would keep taking all of those precautions for the rest of her life to make sure that remained true. Sure, to the average person it might make her a little paranoid or even crazy, but it was about being able to feel safe. And to get the feeling, fleeting as it had been since the not-nightmares started, she had to go to extremes. Lavender leaned into him, finding a comfortable spot.

"It doesn't matter," she shaking her head. And it didn't because there were dreams she had to let die because her reality was different now. "I mean people grow up, what they want changes, for me it wasn't exactly growing up, but things changed and you make do with what you have." She could feel a tightness in her chest as she spoke because it hurt. It always hurt to think about what could have been. Her gaze drifted away from his because this was somehow more personal. It was one thing to say she wanted to eat the people she loved, it was another to confess to the boy you were kissing and in this weird nebulous place with that you had planned seven different weddings. Or that she had always pictured herself with children, one boy and one girl, some day and now she was trying to make it be okay with dreams of a fairy cake business and never actually eating someone.

Lavender might have opened up a little, but she wasn't sure that she was ready, or ever would be ready, to let it all come out. Besides today was supposed to be a break from all that. "Can we just talk about something else? Or even you know not talk." After the words had been said she realized that he might take them differently than she intended, but maybe that was were things landed today and she was going to try to let that be okay.

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mlcorner
2012-01-13 06:58 am UTC (link)

Michael wanted to push her, to get that information but he knew better. He was learned when to push and when to let things go when it came to Lavender Brown and hopefully this was what would save him his sanity in the future. Assuming that he planned to do this for a while, which was not something he generally did - plan these types of things. Thinking like this was making him a bit uncomfortable now. He shifted on the sofa, trying to figure out how that thought had crossed his mind.

He nodded. "Yeah okay," he said, but he didn't have anything else to talk about. Well, there was still some more to say about the DA meeting, but most of what the discussed was general theories. Michael looked over at her, unsure as to what she may have actually meant by that. He never really knew when Lavender was okay with certain things and while he would still kiss her every now and again, he never really tried to just snog her senseless anymore like he used to because he was afraid of being hexed or getting an entire bookcase full of books thrown at him. So even if he leaned down and kissed her again now, he did not plan on making it anything extensive because he worried about how she would react if he did. He knew what happened four years ago and he wasn't going to let it happen again - he wasn't that same stupid bloke anymore.

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lavishly
2012-01-13 02:43 pm UTC (link)

Lavender shifted again, so she was looking at him. She wanted to push back that feeling in her stomach and replace it with something better. Years ago, it would have been easy to do this, fall into some boy and get lost in the kissing. It wasn't exactly easy, but it wasn't entirely forgotten or lost. So, she leaned up to kiss him, doing more than just those simple kisses they had exchanged already, pushing it just a hair more.

She had been good at this once. Sure in just how to move and what to do. There was hesitancy now in those motions, a strange carefulness, but she wanted this. Lavender wanted to be kissing him and that in itself was a dangerous thought. But rather than linger on that and all of the other dangerous things looming around her, she decided to worry about kissing him. It probably wouldn't be anything close to any sort of being snogged senseless, but it was a place to start.

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