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John Connor ([info]johnbaum) wrote in [info]omega_reality,
@ 2013-03-02 13:41:00

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Entry tags:*complete, 2013 03, character: alexis castle, character: brian kinney, character: claudia donovan, character: derek reese, character: john connor, character: mike weston, character: nell jones, character: sean hanna, character: thomas hammond, character: tommy merlyn, character: travis marks, character: troy bolton

RP: Birthday Party at the Club
Who: John Connor, Brian Kinney, Derek Reese, Sean Hanna, Troy Bolton, Nell Jones, Alexis Castle, Tim Riggins, Claudia Donovan, Travis Marks, TJ Hammond
Where: Eleven, West Hollywood
When: Saturday, March 2, 2013 - night
Summary: John and his friends celebrate his twentieth.


John had been a bit surprised when Vance told him he could plan a birthday party just for himself and those with whom he wanted to celebrate. He didn't really think of doing things for himself and was usually not expecting others to do anything either.

But, he'd been in this dimension for two years now. This was the third birthday he'd celebrate here. And it might be the last if things went as planned. So, for once, he was taking advantage of it.

The club was definitely not what he would have chosen just for himself. But, then, he wasn't much of a clubber. So, he picked one for his friends. Eleven was a dance club with all the house, techno, trance, hip hop they could desire to grind to on a dance floor. It was also in West Hollywood, which made it a gay club practically by default. And it was definitely not PG-13.

Derek was really the only one of those he'd invited -- which had consisted of only those he would consider friends or at least people he'd spoken to or spent time with that wasn't work related -- who would probably spend most of the night on edge. But, hopefully his uncle could have a little fun at some point during the night. John had felt a small pang at not including everyone. But, for once, he was doing something for himself.

And his friends could enjoy the music, dancing, and drinking. So, it was for them, too.


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John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-02 10:12 pm UTC (link)
If John was honest with himself, he'd picked the club for Brian. It wasn't like John really cared so long as his friends enjoyed themselves and he got to spend time with them while he could. And, Eleven was definitely the kind of place Brian would like. Even if he hadn't thought so from his research online, John would have known it as soon as they saw the clientele.

As everyone started splitting up into pairs and smaller groups, John turned and put his arms around Brian.

Things weren't really much better between them than they had been a month ago. He was trying to take Savannah's advice. But, it was hard when Brian continuously rejected his touch. It had gotten even harder once they got to the safe house. At least on the island, when Brian turned away from him and rejected him at night, John could get some work done. But, in a room with everyone, he'd quickly figured out he was keeping others awake and stopped even turning his computer on at night. He just lay there staring up at the ceiling while Brian slept. If, when he finally went to sleep himself, he was curled up at Brian's side as much as he could be, well, at least here there was the excuse for warmth even Brian couldn't be pissed at him for...he hoped.

But, tonight John was hoping he could give himself the birthday present of seeing Brian smile again...even if just for a moment.

"So," he began, leaning up to speak into Brian's ear in order to be heard over the music. "You know how you don't like your birthday and are always saying you'd rather enjoy my youth?"

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-02 10:38 pm UTC (link)
Brian had liked the place the moment they had parked the cars. It had been too early to even be open, but the glass windows were enough to give him a peek at the inside. The first floor had a dance floor, plus a sitting area. The balcony reminded him of Babylon. The half naked bartenders and other staff setting up were enough to give him an idea of the clientele.

He thought he'd been ready for a night here, but he'd been wrong. Stepping inside the club had reminded him just how much he wasn't part of this world anymore. This place looked so much like Babylon, but there were no friends. People didn't know him. He was just some old queer trying too hard to hold on the past. There were part of his past that he wouldn't mind repeating, like getting drunk while high on coke and smoking a joint. The combination always left him with a headache, but it was a kick ass experience. Not that he said any of that.

Brian stayed with John, mostly because he didn't think John would enjoy being alone in this place. The question made him snort. "So you gave me a night out for your birthday? I thought this was Vance's gift."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-02 11:31 pm UTC (link)
"That is his gift." John shook his head. "I do have a gift for you, though. Of a sort."

He was also trying not to blush -- and hoping it was too dim or the lights too weird in the club to show it if he was -- as he started to explain what the real gift was. You'd think, after this long, he'd have stopped blushing all together. But, when he wasn't sure of himself, out it came. "Club's got a backroom. That's why I picked it. I love you and I know you love me, but I've never been enough for you when it comes to sex. So, tonight you have an opportunity to indulge yourself. Or...if you wanted," he added uncertainly, more doubting that Brian would want him than he was nervous about what he was offering. "Or, if you wanted, we could maybe both check it out. Together. Maybe enact one of those fantasies you used to share with me about the things you liked to do?

"If you'd rather not, if you'd rather go on your own, that's...fine. But, I want to give you the option, if you'll have me..."

Of course, now that he'd said it, John felt like an absolute idiot stammering on about wanting to share this with Brian when it had been made more and more clear Brian was losing interest in him that way. But, it wasn't like John was really going to enjoy the night if Brian didn't anyway. Watching half-naked men gyrate around was going to be what it was one way or the other.

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-02 11:58 pm UTC (link)
Brian stopped looking at the people and the club and focused on John the moment he heard the hesitation, because John was not the type to hesitate. He let him say his peace, before pulling him into a corner, glaring at the people he was pushing aside.

When he was as far away from the music and the crowd as possible, he pinned John against the wall. "You listen to me. One thing I've told you from the start is that you don't do anything you don't want. It doesn't matter where or why you're doing it, it's never acceptable. You're certainly not going to do it because of me. If we've gotten to the point where you're going to compromise on what you believe in for me, then we should break it off."

He pressed his forehead against John's, sighing. "If I'll have you? What does that mean, Gorgeous?" He pulled back and locked eyes with his lover. "Is this what you think it's happening? I don't want you anymore?" He shook his head. "You're wrong. I want you too much, and that scares me. I'm in a club that looks so much like mine that it hurts, because I'm not part of this world, because it's not my club, and even if I went home, how many years could I play this game? I'm getting old, and you are so young, but you have a death wish, and I can't do that. I can't watch you die."

He kissed John's forehead. "We don't have to go to the backroom. You don't ever have to go in there."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-03 04:34 am UTC (link)
This wasn't exactly how John thought Brian would be pushing him against a wall, if it happened. But, he couldn't help the slight catch in his breath anyway because it was the first sign of real life he'd seen in Brian in far too long. "I'm not compromising what I believe in. I wouldn't make the offer if it wasn't something I was at least curious about. I just..." He swallowed and nodded because Brian figured it out before John could say it. "I thought...You pull away and turn away and...that's what it feels like."

Sighing, he reached up cup Brian's face between his hands. "I don't have a death wish. I don't. And maybe you don't want to watch me die, but you're making me watch you die, us die, little by little we're losing everything we have left of life. That's why I wanted to do this for you, give you back something. I didn't think...I should have considered it would make you feel worse, not better.

"But, my offer isn't about compromising anything. I swear to that. I thought..." He took a deep breath. "I thought you didn't want me and so, you'd have...well, this." John pointed his chin at the room behind Brian. "But, I...hoped...you'd want to do it together. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't affected by the fantasies you shared. If it was because it was you describing them or because they truly appeal, I don't know. And I won't know if I never try them and find out, something I'd only do with you...not because I'm compromising anything for you, but because if there's any part of me that's starting to open up to new ideas and experiences, it exists because of you and I want you to be the one I share any further new experiences with.

"I've practically had sex with you in front of the only people I'd call friends and family. And I've voluntarily done it again. How embarrassing could it be in front of people I don't know and whose opinions don't matter? Unless, you really don't want to...which is fine. I just...I just want to make the most of the time we have together, here, there, whatever worlds in between. I want to take the chances we have here, now. There isn't even any guarantee we'll find our way there. I'm...not so certain I want to anymore." Closing his eyes, he leaned against Brian's chest, taking the moment while he could, half-waiting to be pushed away again. "I don't know what to do anymore. I just know that I want you."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-03 05:09 am UTC (link)
Brian closed his eyes just as his arms wrapped against John, holding him tight in a way he hadn't since New York, and even then he knew that things had been different. He'd been using, on edge, saying things that cut, because that was what he did when he got restless.

"I'm-" Sorry, but Brian didn't apologize. He had done it once, and it really hadn't solved anything, had it? "I love you, Gorgeous, and I'm not-" He pulled back so that he could look at John. "You're a sexy, gorgeous, intelligent, fucking hot man and anyone in his right mind would want you. If you think otherwise, then you need a mirror, because you're the most handsome man around. That was true at Splash, it's true tonight, and will be true at any other club we'll end up going in the future."

He sighed . "You were thinking that if I didn't want you." Brian shook his head. "Stick to thinking about computer, Gorgeous, because you missed the mark on this one." Words were so overrated in his opinion. His hands glided up and down John's back until his fingers cupped the swells of John's ass and he pulled his lover closer, almost possessively, before leaning down to kiss John, tongue pushing inside John's mouth, mapping it until it wasn't enough and he pushed John against the wall again, pressing his entire body against his lover's. "You're gorgeous," he panted. "Never doubt that."

Brian moved back only enough that he could look into John's eyes. "You really want to go and check it out, then we do it together. You can have anything you want in there. You can have anyone, but I'll be right there with you, because those fantasies were never about fucking in public. Been there, done that, it's-" He shrugged. "Not really a big deal. It'd doing it with you, it's seeing what you like, it's watching you blush for all the right reasons. We can go, but i want to know what you have in mind, because once you get in there, there isn't a lot of talking, and if you want someone to bring in there, we need to find that person out here." It was a lifetime ago that he stood on a balcony with Justin, picking out men they wanted to share, but it felt different, maybe he'd grown up, or maybe it was just life in this dimension, but it was important that they got this right. "what do you want, Gorgeous."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-03 02:48 pm UTC (link)
John clung to Brian. He knew that was what he was doing, clinging. But, for the first time in what felt like forever, when Brian held him it didn't feel like going through the motions. It finally felt like he was there with John and John didn't want to lose that spark now that he'd found it.

And this was nothing like the response he'd been expecting. Hoped for. Longed for. But expected? No.

He didn't so much listen to the words Brian spoke, as absorb them, staring up into his eyes. There was an intensity to it all that had been missing for so long and John desperately hoped this wasn't temporary. But, he could not seem to find more words of his own. The first sound he made as a low, deep moan as Brian kissed him. One arm wound around Brian's neck, while with the other hand he grasped at Brian's shoulder to pull him even closer. John gasped as his back hit the wall, sandwiched between it and Brian himself, only able to nod his understanding. After so long without, he felt almost scorched by the heat of both Brian's touch and his words.

Torn between standing like that forever just to feel Brian with him or kissing Brian again and again, John finally found his voice and a slight smile. "Really trying to lose that blush," he said with a rough chuckle. "I want to know what fantasy you'd like to make a reality. I think that's part of the appeal for me, knowing this isn't just something to try because I'm young and looking for new experiences. It's knowing that whatever happens is something you want, something that turns you on. Whether it's just us back there, or inviting a third to join us. You once said you wanted to watch me with someone else and then fuck me after in the same way I fucked him, knowing everyone was watching and that while I might fuck him, I was going home with you. Is that something you'd still like?"

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-03 05:23 pm UTC (link)
Brian wasn't letting go just yet. They could have this discussion while they were wrapped around each other. It might not make sense to most people, but he really didn't give a fuck about what everyone else thought about them. The only one that mattered was John, whether he believed it or not.

"I love that blush. It was fucking awesome to see how you liked something I was suggesting just by the blush you get. It gave me an excuse to spend the night with you at Splash, because you wouldn't have lasted a second in that place, with that gorgeous blush in your face, the way you were looking and not at the same." He leaned down and kissed him again. "So fucking gorgeous," he whispered into the kiss.

"Do you want to be with someone else?" he asked. "Because fantasies are just that. If the idea of being with someone else while I watch makes you horny, then okay, but if it doesn't, then I don't need it. There are other things...." Brian stopped. This was going against everything he'd done for the past few months, and it would be so easy to use this to push John just enough to get what he wanted, but while he didn't give a fuck about people's feelings, he didn't play mind games with the people he considered friends.

"I... I'm getting old. I feel old, John, and I thought that... it wasn't even conscious, but I thought that you'd see that you were better off if we broke up, and this would be so easy to turn into something else, but I never expected that I could do the damage, the pain-" He brushed John's hair. "I don't want to hurt you and I'm tired of pushing you toward someone else, so if you want to fuck someone, be my guest, Gorgeous, but don't do it because you think it's what's going to fix me. I was fucked up long before you were born. I can give you the fantasy with just us if you'd prefer that."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-03 09:03 pm UTC (link)
John wasn't usually the 'aggressive' one in their relationship. Oh, he wasn't a doormat and he was stubborn to a fault. But, he usually let Brian take the initiative. He wasn't actually sure why. It just was the pattern they'd fallen into, probably for a myriad of reasons. Now, though, he pulled Brian as close as possible and kissed him with everything he had, everything he wanted to say and didn't know how to.

When he pulled back the scant distance between his head and the wall, he was back to staring. "There is no version of my life where I'm better off without you...and I ought to know," he added with a tiny smirk, then leaned up to kiss Brian again, unable to get enough now that they'd started. "Thinking you didn't want me anymore...yeah, it hurt. But, what hurts the most is watching you in pain and not being able to do anything to help you through it. I'm not alright if you're not alright. I can't be when you mean more to me than anything. And you've been in pain. You're not broken. You don't need fixing, definitely not from someone who's just as fucked up if in different ways."

He reached up to trace Brian's jaw with his fingertips. "I'm not trying to fix you and I wouldn't make this offer just to 'fix you'. Sex doesn't fix things, not even between us. If it did, we'd have been perfect back at Christmas. Do I want to be with someone else in general? No. You're all I need. And I know what you think about my doing things just for you. But, I'm not the green kid I was two years ago. I'm not even a teenager anymore now. I know the difference between doing something I don't want just to make you happy and doing something I may or may not enjoy on it's own, but brings you pleasure. Knowing I have the ability to give you pleasure...I don't know how to explain this. It's not so much the idea of being with someone else while you watch that gets to me. It's knowing that the watching brings you pleasure, that even my being with someone else has the ability to turn you on...I don't really understand the how because watching you with anyone else wouldn't do it for me. But, the reverse...that, in a way, it's showing you what I want you to do to me...I don't want to be with someone else on a regular basis. But, tonight, I want to share this with you, I want to experience a little more of your life, your world.

"And you're not old. Maybe you're in unfamiliar territory. But, you're not old. And, you know what? It doesn't matter if you are. I'm in love with the total package and the only way it gets better for me is if we're together. I guess, if I'm trying to fix anything, it's not you, but us. I miss us."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-03 10:38 pm UTC (link)
Brian kissed him back, smiling. "You're so much better off without me, but you're too stubborn to see it." He nipped John's lip. "I never said that I need fixing, only that you wanted to fix me. I know who I am, faults and all. I've made peace with who I am long ago. I wouldn't be able to live the life I live otherwise. I'm not sure it's your type of life."

He listened to the rest and no matter how John played with the words, it always came down to the fact that John was doing it for him, and that didn't sit well with him. "Whether you're doing it to make me happy or because it brings me pleasure, it's still not something you want, and that alone makes me not want it." He started to laugh. "Fuck, Gorgeous, you're so blind. I am old, but you know what? It doesn't matter tonight, because I'm not giving you a fantasy tonight, but I'm going to show you how much I want you."

Taking John's hand, Brian began to walk. He hadn't asked about the backroom when he'd come in, but it was hard not to know where it was if you knew the signs. He walked straight there, and once he stepped inside, he was in very familiar territory. The room was dark, with just enough light to give you glimpses of what was happening. The smell of sex permeated the air. The sounds were drowned by the music, but that only rendered the more tantalizing. Then there was that secret language that existed in every back room. it was a language made of looks. Lust, jealousy, challenge, they were all present in one way or another, and Brian knew how to decipher them all.

He stood around just enough to find the perfect spot, the right combination of space, privacy, while still having everyone's eyes on them. He stalked there, still holding John's hand, and this time, there was a very different reason to pin his lover against the wall. "You can still change your mind. It's not going to change anything with us."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-03 11:30 pm UTC (link)
"And I'm saying I love you just the way you are and I don't want to fix you," John returned with a smirk, relaxing a little in Brian's embrace. "Maybe it isn't, but I won't know if I never try. I don't have a type of life of my own. I've spent my whole life living someone else's. Tonight I chose to see what yours is like for real."

Despite the fact Brian was vetoing the fantasy, John couldn't help grinning. "I like hearing you laugh like that." It had been too long. Far, far too long. "I'll take it over the someone else any day."

The one snag in the plan was that in order to get to the backroom, they had to move and there was a tiny flash of fear that it would be enough to break what felt like a fragile renewed connection. But, John squashed it, holding Brian's hand tightly as they made their way to the backroom.

He wasn't sure what he'd been expecting. But while he could feel a prickle of that damned blush as his eyes and ears sorted out what was happening in the dim room, it wasn't as shocking as the images he'd built in his head. Whether that was because he was too happy to have this feeling back or the private parties with their friends had loosened him up a bit, John wasn't sure. And it didn't matter for longer than it took to comprehend they were surrounded by people having sex.

As soon as he was once again back to a wall with Brian pressed hot and familiar against him, nothing else really mattered. "Not changing my mind." He smirked again. "Unless you take too long and I have to take control."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-04 12:07 am UTC (link)
"You're sounding too smug." Brian didn't care. In fact, it was better to hear that than the pain from moment before, but discussions were not something for the this room, or at least not this type of discussion. "Gorgeous, you're not taking control right now, but nice try."

Brian worked to open John's pants as he spoke and he planned to do something he hadn't ever done in a backroom. He dropped to his knees right there, looking up at John as he took him into his mouth. He held John's hips tight as he started to bob his head. He wasn't planning on getting him off this way, but only to tease and make him hard. They had done this in the privacy of their room plenty of times, but the sounds around them make it even better, making Brian hard in his pants.

He stood up again, pressing his erection again John's hip. He kissed John's neck, before licking his way up to John's ear. "I'm going to fuck you in front of everyone, Gorgeous, and you're going to see the way people look at us, at you. You'll see how gorgeous you are in their eyes, how much they want you." He took John's hand and pressed it against his crotch. "And this is how much I want you. Sucking off for a few moments did this to me."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-04 01:12 am UTC (link)
John might have still been smirking, but only for a moment longer before smug went out the window along with reserve. His eyes widened at the role reversal, Brian on his knees now as John had been the last time they'd been anywhere as close to being in this position. And John couldn't take his eyes off Brian's, his breathing growing heavy with desire. A soft moue of disappointment was interrupted by John's own quiet moan as Brian stood and John's now hard cock was trapped between their bodies, the feel of Brian's along his hip.

"Need you." His voice was rough with that need, the pent-up emotion of the last several weeks. "This much?" Pulling his hand gently from Brian's grasp, he reached for the fastens of Brian's pants to undo them. Once he had enough room, he slid his hand inside Brian's pants to curl his fingers around Brian. "Show me," he murmured, stroking lightly. "Show me what it's like to be the most wanted men in the room. Let them want what you can have."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-04 02:27 am UTC (link)
They had spoken about this and he'd shared plenty of fantasies, but nothing came close to the reality, and Brian was more than willing to change things up. Sex was fun and spur of the moment, and you adjusted to the situation and tonight was all about showing John off.

There were things he carried: lube, condoms, tissues, cigarettes, and drugs .He reached into his pants pockets and grabbed a foil of lube. "Rules are still the same, Gorgeous. Anything makes you uncomfortable, you tell me," he warned. Still he didn't want to get to that point, and Brian thought he knew John's boundaries. "You're going to have to let go."

Brian moved around John, stepping between his lover and the wall. "We're going to look at them," he said over John's shoulder. "While I fuck you. I don't want you to miss a single moment. Spread your legs a little." He pushed John's pants down a little, making sure they wouldn't slide down all the way. The lapel from the shirt would keep him covered. Brian didn't have to see him to know just how good he'd look, the right mix of innocence and lust, the bare hint of skin making him even sexier than the half naked men around the room. They could imagine, but they couldn't see as Brian's fingers found their way inside John, breaching him open with slow movements so uncharacteristic for a backroom. "You're so tight. They can't even imagine how good you feel when I'm fucking you."

This was a show, for the people around them, for John, and Brian was amazing at giving people what they wanted and needed, but John also got the truth behind the fantasy. "I've missed you, too, John," he said in a much softer tone. No fantasy, no show, just the raw truth as he finally pushed inside his lover, one arm around John to pull him closer.

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-04 03:41 am UTC (link)
"I will," John promised, pulling his hand back reluctantly to let Brian maneuver. Given how much Brian worried -- and always had -- John wasn't afraid of being uncomfortable. Until Brian moved behind him, he'd half forgotten there was anyone else in the room, so much of his focus was on Brian and them. All the awareness he had left for the rest was the usual awareness of his surroundings, that was more unconscious than conscious knowledge people were watching them.

There was a slight flutter of nerves when it sank in that he was really going to be on display like this. But, Brian was right there and his voice had it's usual effect of both calming and stirring up something hot and liquid deep inside, that both settled and excited John. He was a little surprised to find his clothes staying on, but it made it easier to relax even more and proved John's trust in Brian still well placed. He wasn't sure what to do with his hands, but opted for raising his arms above his head to drape them loosely around Brian's shoulders.

Not missing a single moment was difficult when his eyes wanted to close in order to better savor the feeling of being stretched and prepared. Instead John let his eyes rest half-closed, glancing at the room from beneath his lashes when he thought to do so.

He wasn't expecting the private admission, a whispered secret just for them. Back arching as Brian entered him, John turned his head to catch Brian's lips in fervent kiss. "Love you," he murmured, pressing back and closer, taking Brian a little further inside him with another moan he didn't try to hide. If Brian was going to show him off, then John was going to show off how good Brian could make him feel.

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-04 04:12 am UTC (link)
This was as close to heaven as you could get. Sex all around them, the vibrations from the music reverberating in the room, total and absolute surrender to pleasure, uncaring of the moralists outside. To top it all, he was fucking a boy, a man who'd managed to get under his skin and into life, making him care in ways he didn't know possible, making him feel so much that it hurt, and he'd pulled back, forgetting his own simple rules. No excuse, no apologies, no regrets. He was not going to regret giving this up to protect himself.

"Love you, too. More than I've loved anyone in my life." There had been a plan, words meant to keep the fantasy alive, but they seemed secondary. "This... So much better than watching you with someone else. They're watching us, they see a gorgeous man being fucked, displayed, thinking maybe next time, it'll be them, just got to find the right night, but they don't know they'll never get that chance, because you're mine. I'm the only one who's been inside you, like this, not because I've asked you or made you, but because you want to. Jesus, John, I... how do you not know how much I want you?"

Fuck this, fuck the fantasies, fuck these fuckers who wanted a show while getting their dicks sucked. Brian didn't give a shit about any of them. This was about him and John. He kept one arm around John and spun them around. "Hands on the wall, Gorgeous. I don't want to hurt you." He laced the fingers of one hand with John's while he fisted his lover with the other. He began stroking him faster as he fucked him, putting weeks of isolation to an end with each snap of his hips.

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-04 12:04 pm UTC (link)
John's eyes opened wide as Brian spoke, his breath catching on his own emotions. "Only you, Brian...only you."

But, words beyond those few failed.

He was feeling too much for mere words to hold it. After weeks of uncertainty and self-doubt, it seemed that maybe sex could fix some things. Only...it wasn't the sex, or not just the sex, that seemed to be healing the cracks inside the distance between them had created. It was the words, the emotion he heard in Brian's voice, the way Brian touched him. John could feel the connection between them again.

The change of position was surprising, but welcome. As much as he'd talked of sharing this, it was still all about Brian, wanting to be with him, to be together. The show and the fantasy were just trappings around the core of what was important. Them.

Hands on the wall, he tightened his fingers around Brian's and pushed back, letting Brian fill him. "You won't hurt me," he breathed. "Can't when you make me feel so alive." A whimper caught in the back of his throat as the physical pleasure spiked. He wasn't going to last long. "Close." It was awkward, but he leaned back into Brian's shoulder. "Want it to last. You, here, just like this. But, so close."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-04 03:45 pm UTC (link)
He'd been an idiot to deny both of them this. The fears were still there, and sex couldn't erase them, but sex could remind him that he'd never lived for the future, choosing to enjoy the present and fuck the rest. It might not be the way people lived, but it had served him right for too long.

John's words were proof that he'd made the right call. John could talk about wanting to fuck someone else, but that wasn't who he was. "You're burning up around me, so fucking hot inside." Words were becoming more difficult to say, to even think them coherently. Too long. It had been too long since they'd felt so close.

Brian's hand moved faster, twisting and squeezing just like he knew John liked. "Don't, Gorgeous. Let go and let me see you come, and when you rest, we can do it again and again. We have all night."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-04 04:15 pm UTC (link)
The rest of the room might as well have not existed for John. In that moment it was all about Brian, the feel of him around John, inside him, Brian's voice and scent filling his senses. He'd missed this so much: the sex, the closeness. If he could have made it last, he would have. But, there was too much built up after so long, too much physical need, too much emotional need.

Pushing back, he clenched around Brian both to feel him there that much more and to try to bring him over the edge as well. John had been holding on to so much, trying not to put so much burden on Brian, or force him into anything while he healed, his reserves of strength were depleted and all he needed was the okay from Brian, Brian telling him to let go, Brian really there and with him.

John gave up the last of his control gladly, coming apart at the seams and coming with a quiet sob that left him shaking in Brian's arms.

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-04 04:49 pm UTC (link)
Brian closed his eyes, burying his face in the crook of John's neck, to stave off his own emotions. So much had been building up for weeks, months and everything erupted in less than an hour; now, Brian could barely hold it together.

Sensations piled on top of emotions until he stopped thinking all together. Feeling. Touching. Holding. Fucking. He pulled John closer with a hand while he jerked him off until John was trembling in his arms, warm semen covering his hand, while he continued to fuck his lover until he was coming as well, pushing John against the wall.

Complete darkness for a few moments, before the music, sounds and lights made it into his consciousness. "You okay, Gorgeous?" he asked softly. It was better than all the sappy things crossing his mind, and it was one thing to say them while you're fucking, and another to say them afterwards. He was not that whipped, or at least he knew better than to say it aloud.

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-05 10:21 am UTC (link)
"Yeah," John breathed, nodding his head. His breathing was still little more than breathless pants. He could feel sweat causing his shirt to stick to his back between them. When he was more coherent he probably wouldn't want to think about what was probably on the wall his forehead was leaning on just then.

And the only thing that mattered was Brian's weight pressing against him, Brian's voice low in his ear.

"Yeah," he repeated. "Better than okay. Don't move just yet." Keeping one hand on the wall to steady both of them, he wrapped the other around the arm Brian still had around him. It felt like a lifetime since John had felt so connected to Brian and he was almost afraid it would break again once they moved and cleaned up. It felt different than it had at Christmas, less fragile. But, it had still been several long weeks spent feeling like he was watching Brian die with nothing he did seeming to help. Now that he'd seen and felt some part of the old Brian again, he was more determined than ever to help keep him there.

He turned his head just enough to nip along Brian's jaw. "Best birthday present," he murmured, wondering how to convey that he meant more than the sex without sounding like a girl. "You're here with me."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]b_kinney
2013-03-05 01:08 pm UTC (link)
"I'm staying right here until you're ready," Brian answered with the same hush tone. The show was over and conversation was just for them. He stared at John, familiar blue lights covering his face, but it was enough to see each other. Brian nodded. "I'm staying with you. Anywhere."

He kissed John and then smirked as he pulled back. "So. Best present. Does that mean that you're not interested in fucking someone else? Because you sounded so eager." He shook his head, still smiling. "Never do that for me, because you're more than enough, Gorgeous, and we're going to stay here until you're ready. I have some tissues to get cleaned up. We're going to go dancing and when you get bored, we'll find a free couch and we can make out all night long if you want, or come back in here. Your night. You tell me what you want."

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Re: John/Brian
[info]johnbaum
2013-03-05 05:29 pm UTC (link)
John didn't give a damn who, or if anyone, was watching them. He knew things weren't perfect. Perfection was a pipe dream that never happened. But he had Brian back, the real Brian Kinney who was full of fire and life. There might be a few hiccups along the way, but they'd figure it out and John was going to take better care of Brian than he'd managed so far. He didn't want to lose this again. "Good. You're stuck with me."

Returning the kiss, John smiled and chuckled at the reprimand. It was the first truly easy smile he'd worn in months. "You're better than someone else. I'm not taking it off the table as an option permanently. One day I'm going to convince you that doing something for you can also be doing some thing for me, too. But, there's time for that. Tonight, I want to celebrate with you." He kissed Brian softly. "Let's go dancing. I want to show off the fact the sexiest man in the club is with me tonight."

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Troy/Sean
[info]t_bolton
2013-03-04 05:27 pm UTC (link)
Troy had never really been to a gay club. Clubs yes, but gay clubs, not so much. It found that it didn't matter. He was with Sean and it was the first time they were able to go somewhere in a very long time. He had no intention of leaving his husband alone, even if there weren't plenty of gorgeous men staring. Not that some weren't staring at him. Troy knew what he looked like and if anything all of the training had even improved his looks.

There was one thing that was different. It became obvious when John and Brian disappeared into a room and came out looking well fucked out. He pushed himself against Sean, shit-face grin on his face. "I've never been to a gay club before tonight. Or a backroom. Care to take your husband in there?" He wasn't sure what to expect in there, but whatever it was, he wanted to make sure that it wouldn't send Sean sparkling.

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Re: Troy/Sean
[info]sean_hanna
2013-03-05 11:15 am UTC (link)
Sean had always suspected Vance had a soft spot for John. Oh, he knew the Director cared about all his people. But, there were always one or two people who got in closer. It was human nature. If there was anyone who seemed to have gotten closer to Vance than the rest, it was John. And if Sean had doubted it before, this party at this club would have clinched it.

Sure, they'd gone out to dinner for other birthdays. But, no one else got the club or the party or the small group outing without much supervision. This was as much something special for John from Vance as the first Jazz Night at the base had been a gift to Sean from his dad. Or so Sean would believe.

In a way, he supposed he, Sean, needed it, too. It wasn't the kind of club he'd normally go to. Not enough live music. But, as a place to let go for a little and try not to brood over his dad or his sister, to spend a few hours wrapped up in his husband and their friends, it made for a good distraction. It was pretty impossible to brood when Troy was pressed up against him and grinning that particular grin. "I guess that depends," he replied with an answering grin. "You prepared to make everyone in there jealous knowing the hottest man they're ever going to see -- from a few feet away -- is already very spoken for?"

To emphasize his point, Sean slid his hand over Troy's ass and pulled him even tighter against his own body. Sean himself hadn't actually ever done the backroom thing before, either. But, he'd heard enough listening to Brian over the last year or so to have an idea of what to expect. He was fine with indulging their shared need to show off sometimes, as long as everyone was perfectly clear the rest could look, but not touch.

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Re: Troy/Sean
[info]t_bolton
2013-03-05 01:18 pm UTC (link)
"A few feet? I don't know," he said, pretending to think. "I'm just not sure how big that room is They might be a lot closer than that." He raised his left hand. "But this means something to me, even if not to them, so I guess they'll have to content themselves with watching from however distance there is."

Fuck, Sean was going to kill him with his possessive streak. In the past, he heard about people complaining that it was lack or trust, a sense of possession, being treated like a thing. Usually the people bitching were women. Troy could honestly say that he didn't give a damn about any of that. In fact, it always made him hard on the spot.

The words, the hold, the hand on his ass. Yep, he was going to naturally combust and without Derek's power.

He looked at Sean with less grin and a lot more lust. "You'll just have to show them how very spoken for I am if they don't notice the rings. It's your game in there. I want you comfortable with whatever happens, because frying someone isn't good, and I'll do anything you want. Always trust you." He put his arm around Sean's neck and pulled him close for a heated kiss, leaving him breathless as they broke apart. "Let's show them."

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Mike
[info]mike_weston
2013-03-05 03:45 am UTC (link)
Mike was not the shy type, and when he'd seen the place, he'd asked to tag along. His sexuality was not something that he shared with co-workers, but here there was no off duty time, which meant that they would find out one way or another, and he liked for people to find out on his terms.

A gay club was just the place.

Maybe not exactly this type of club. Too much skin, too much sex and too many drugs. Being in a place like this wasn't good for the career of an FBI agent, but here, he was not an agent anymore, and he could enjoy the night.

The backroom was a little too public for his taste, but there was dancing and there were bathroom stalls that were used for various reasons. Getting a little release after chasing Carroll's crazy followers and ending up in a new dimension was just the thing he needed.

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