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John Connor (johnbaum) wrote in omega_reality,
@ 2013-03-02 13:41:00

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*complete, 2013 03, character: alexis castle, character: brian kinney, character: claudia donovan, character: derek reese, character: john connor, character: mike weston, character: nell jones, character: sean hanna, character: thomas hammond, character: tommy merlyn, character: travis marks, character: troy bolton

RP: Birthday Party at the Club
Who: John Connor, Brian Kinney, Derek Reese, Sean Hanna, Troy Bolton, Nell Jones, Alexis Castle, Tim Riggins, Claudia Donovan, Travis Marks, TJ Hammond
Where: Eleven, West Hollywood
When: Saturday, March 2, 2013 - night
Summary: John and his friends celebrate his twentieth.

John had been a bit surprised when Vance told him he could plan a birthday party just for himself and those with whom he wanted to celebrate. He didn't really think of doing things for himself and was usually not expecting others to do anything either.

But, he'd been in this dimension for two years now. This was the third birthday he'd celebrate here. And it might be the last if things went as planned. So, for once, he was taking advantage of it.

The club was definitely not what he would have chosen just for himself. But, then, he wasn't much of a clubber. So, he picked one for his friends. Eleven was a dance club with all the house, techno, trance, hip hop they could desire to grind to on a dance floor. It was also in West Hollywood, which made it a gay club practically by default. And it was definitely not PG-13.

Derek was really the only one of those he'd invited -- which had consisted of only those he would consider friends or at least people he'd spoken to or spent time with that wasn't work related -- who would probably spend most of the night on edge. But, hopefully his uncle could have a little fun at some point during the night. John had felt a small pang at not including everyone. But, for once, he was doing something for himself.

And his friends could enjoy the music, dancing, and drinking. So, it was for them, too.

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Re: John/Brian

b_kinney
2013-03-03 05:23 pm UTC (link)

Brian wasn't letting go just yet. They could have this discussion while they were wrapped around each other. It might not make sense to most people, but he really didn't give a fuck about what everyone else thought about them. The only one that mattered was John, whether he believed it or not.

"I love that blush. It was fucking awesome to see how you liked something I was suggesting just by the blush you get. It gave me an excuse to spend the night with you at Splash, because you wouldn't have lasted a second in that place, with that gorgeous blush in your face, the way you were looking and not at the same." He leaned down and kissed him again. "So fucking gorgeous," he whispered into the kiss.

"Do you want to be with someone else?" he asked. "Because fantasies are just that. If the idea of being with someone else while I watch makes you horny, then okay, but if it doesn't, then I don't need it. There are other things...." Brian stopped. This was going against everything he'd done for the past few months, and it would be so easy to use this to push John just enough to get what he wanted, but while he didn't give a fuck about people's feelings, he didn't play mind games with the people he considered friends.

"I... I'm getting old. I feel old, John, and I thought that... it wasn't even conscious, but I thought that you'd see that you were better off if we broke up, and this would be so easy to turn into something else, but I never expected that I could do the damage, the pain-" He brushed John's hair. "I don't want to hurt you and I'm tired of pushing you toward someone else, so if you want to fuck someone, be my guest, Gorgeous, but don't do it because you think it's what's going to fix me. I was fucked up long before you were born. I can give you the fantasy with just us if you'd prefer that."

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Re: John/Brian

johnbaum
2013-03-03 09:03 pm UTC (link)

John wasn't usually the 'aggressive' one in their relationship. Oh, he wasn't a doormat and he was stubborn to a fault. But, he usually let Brian take the initiative. He wasn't actually sure why. It just was the pattern they'd fallen into, probably for a myriad of reasons. Now, though, he pulled Brian as close as possible and kissed him with everything he had, everything he wanted to say and didn't know how to.

When he pulled back the scant distance between his head and the wall, he was back to staring. "There is no version of my life where I'm better off without you...and I ought to know," he added with a tiny smirk, then leaned up to kiss Brian again, unable to get enough now that they'd started. "Thinking you didn't want me anymore...yeah, it hurt. But, what hurts the most is watching you in pain and not being able to do anything to help you through it. I'm not alright if you're not alright. I can't be when you mean more to me than anything. And you've been in pain. You're not broken. You don't need fixing, definitely not from someone who's just as fucked up if in different ways."

He reached up to trace Brian's jaw with his fingertips. "I'm not trying to fix you and I wouldn't make this offer just to 'fix you'. Sex doesn't fix things, not even between us. If it did, we'd have been perfect back at Christmas. Do I want to be with someone else in general? No. You're all I need. And I know what you think about my doing things just for you. But, I'm not the green kid I was two years ago. I'm not even a teenager anymore now. I know the difference between doing something I don't want just to make you happy and doing something I may or may not enjoy on it's own, but brings you pleasure. Knowing I have the ability to give you pleasure...I don't know how to explain this. It's not so much the idea of being with someone else while you watch that gets to me. It's knowing that the watching brings you pleasure, that even my being with someone else has the ability to turn you on...I don't really understand the how because watching you with anyone else wouldn't do it for me. But, the reverse...that, in a way, it's showing you what I want you to do to me...I don't want to be with someone else on a regular basis. But, tonight, I want to share this with you, I want to experience a little more of your life, your world.

"And you're not old. Maybe you're in unfamiliar territory. But, you're not old. And, you know what? It doesn't matter if you are. I'm in love with the total package and the only way it gets better for me is if we're together. I guess, if I'm trying to fix anything, it's not you, but us. I miss us."

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