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Ernie Macmillan is brilliant but flawed (closedcaptioned) wrote in neeps,
@ 2018-03-04 17:51:00

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! journal, elektra yaxley, ernie macmillan, justin finch-fletchley

[Justin]

So, I've already talked to Monte. How are you doing?

[Lex]

Hello - have you heard about this Magpies-Pink thing? Georgi was talking to me about it.

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	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 04:42 am UTC (link)
	Do we need to have a talk about it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 04:47 am UTC (link)
	I'm not sure it matters what I think. It's not about what I think. It's about what those who fought in the war and were affected by it think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 04:53 am UTC (link)
	Oh dear. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 04:53 am UTC (link)
	What? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 04:58 am UTC (link)
	Your language is very avoidant and I can guess at why. But I've asked twice; if you don't want to talk about it, I'll leave it alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 05:12 am UTC (link)
	I honestly don't know what's left to say, Ernie.. Nothing's going to make up for the guilt I feel, nothing's going to make up for what I didn't do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 05:23 am UTC (link)
	I guess I hoped you would say you were supportive of it. And I suppose I wanted to find out that if you weren't, why not. And then, I imagined, I would try to talk you into being supportive of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Ernie | Lex

yaxlie
2018-03-05 05:31 am UTC (link)

I still don't think quidditch is the place for this, but it doesn't matter. Flint's made sure this is where this is happening.

I don't think who your parents are makes you any better or worse of a person or a better or worse quidditch player or witch or wizard. You can't pick your parents. I think muggleborns have been treated unfairly and unjustly and if anything, quidditch has proved to me that parentage shouldn't matter.

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	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 05:35 am UTC (link)
	Why isn't Quidditch the place for this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 05:41 am UTC (link)
	~~Because quidditch should be a safe space away from the world's problems~~ I feel quidditch should be about the game, not politics. And this.. well... it feels like it's a new dividing measure of teams and players. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 05:47 am UTC (link)
	You think it's political to support Muggleborns? I think politically the subject is pretty well settled, don't you? It's socially we're still at odds and ends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 05:49 am UTC (link)
	I thought the subject was settled. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 05:52 am UTC (link)
	Not socially. Not in the day-to-day. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 05:53 am UTC (link)
	And shaming people into wearing pink is going to help? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 06:01 am UTC (link)
	Are you? Ashamed? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 06:03 am UTC (link)
	Is there a difference between shame and guilt? ~~I don't like being forced to do things.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 06:08 am UTC (link)
	I don't know. But I think that if you believe it to be truly pointless and against your beliefs about Quidditch and its place in society, you shouldn't do it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 06:10 am UTC (link)
	I don't think it's pointless. It's also about team loyalty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 06:12 am UTC (link)
	You shouldn't do it out of shame, is what I'm saying. If you believe something, you should stand up for it, Lex. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 06:17 am UTC (link)
	I'll be wearing pink. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 04:36 pm UTC (link)
	Because it'll damage your career not to. Not because you actually want to support your Muggleborn teammates in the fashion of their choosing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Ernie | Lex

yaxlie
2018-03-05 04:46 pm UTC (link)

....

Because Jason is my teammate. And I promised to protect him on the pitch. But that's not enough. I have to stand by him now even if I didn't before. And all my bullshit reasons of why I don't think this is the best way don't matter because it's not about me. It doesn't mean I don't feel those things, or recognize them as bullshit reasons, but they're not as important as standing by my friend and teammate.

I know it's loyalty to my family that's make me hesitate, but Montrose is my family too. And Montrose has stood by me when I've done things. And I need to stand by Montrose and Jason. Even if ~~my father~~ ~~my aunt~~ -- even if there are consequences.

I was a coward before.

And I'm scared and uncomfortable and worried about doing this, but I need to do it.

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	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 04:51 pm UTC (link)
	Ok. Good. I think you need to do it too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ernie \| Lex yaxlie 2018-03-05 04:56 pm UTC (link)
	I also need a big bottle of whiskey and to figure out how to get back to playing like myself in quidditch, but well, all in due time. ~~Father would-~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ernie \| Lex closedcaptioned 2018-03-05 04:57 pm UTC (link)
	Nah, you don't need whiskey. Whiskey is for bad times. Chocolate is for good times. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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