InsaneJournal

(ooc: posted before the match)

Tornadoes are coming up, and hopefully it'll be a good one to blow off the cobwebs that come from not playing since before Christmas.

Merc, Florrie, Shona, Angus, Jason, Lex, Micah

Merc knows this already, but here goes.

I went to see a private healer this morning. There's been a lot going on in my head of late and I needed to process it with people I'm not emotionally invested in in any way.

To cut a long story short, pending further meetings, she is looking into a formal diagnosis of anxiety and panic disorder. Which, given that I do this for a living, is... unusual. But she said that throwing yourself into what we do can be almost therapeutic in itself.

On a related note, I'll be going to regular meetings with her, more often in times of need. This isn't something easy but I think I'm finally coming to terms with some stuff that's been going on for far too long.

I don't want to be fixed, I just want to be better. There's a reason I've been keeping this ward small, so... yeah. I think that's everything. I hope it shows tgat I'm being proactive in making changes that I need to, here.