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Tweak says, "I'm the woman."

AAUAUOOUUGUUHHHH (painfeels) wrote in marinasylum,
@ 2012-05-08 14:34:00

Entry tags:

aerith gainsborough, allen walker, cain, howard link, jade curtiss, karkat vantas, kira yamato, legion, painwheel, prospitian monarch, puck, rose tyler, touma kamijou, tyki mikk, wayward vagabond, yomi isayama, yuri lowell

voice; [REVERSE INTRO!]
[upon her arrival, Painwheel definitely had a little bit of an episode. she tore up that welcome basket and flipped her every shit available to be up-ended, and finally inspected the network a little once she calmed down and all the fear and irrational anger subsided—once she realized she's actually in control and she doesn't have to be such a fucking spaz.

it occurs to her, however, that she hasn't properly socialized in a very long time. she's probably bad at carrying on conversation. she also doesn't want to talk about herself. she doesn't want people to see her face. but she wants to know about the other criminals here. she wants to know people like she used to know people. they can't all be bad, right? ...RIGHT??

and so, she's been inspired to make this post!]

...Hello— [her voice is deep and worn, gravelly in its quality, like her vocal chords have been blown out a little.] My...name is Painwheel.

[she takes an unsteady breath in, and manages to push herself forward, a little.]

There's a lot of people here—people who've committed crimes... So I guess that's our common ground, as people... But that can't be it, right?

So...what do all of you enjoy? Who are you? I'd... like to know, I think.

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	voice; painfeels 2012-05-17 04:48 am UTC (link)
	You don't have friends, do you? You don't know love well enough to know that you've probably never had it. You've been abused. You don't respect your body. I'm only so damaged because I did respect my body. I did have friends. I've known love from my friends and family! You have no idea how pitiful you are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	video; toomanyzippers 2012-05-17 04:52 am UTC (link)
	I don't need to be held to your human standards! [his anger fizzles out anyway, instead replaces with a deep, dark, numb emptiness that he can't place and can't understand.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	voice; FINISH HIM..... painfeels 2012-05-17 04:54 am UTC (link)
	And living creatures shouldn't be held to the standards of a machine. That's why you have no idea what love is, but because you have a heart that beats, you want it, and you know that, and that's why you pity yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	voice; toomanyzippers 2012-05-17 04:59 am UTC (link)
	[the video feed is cut as he begins to sob. He kinda meant to shut it off, but he's a mess.] F-forgive me, [choke, sob] m-muh-huh-other. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE] voice; 1/3 painfeels 2012-05-17 05:00 am UTC (link)
	[oh jesus she wasn't expecting to actually devastate him.] Cain? (Reply to this) (Parent)

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painfeels
2012-05-17 05:05 am UTC (link)

[oh jeez she took it too far she was determined to "win" this thing that was happening but what does that even mean she just bullied him into tears she was just so blinded at her offense and chasing her own anguish away with anger and attacking Cain and WOW SHE FEELS REALLY BAD......(even if she meant everything she said)

but she didn't really think it possible for a person like him to cry!! OH GOD WHAT DOES SHE DO? SHE REALLY DOESN'T KNOW HIM TO HAVE THOUGHT THAT, APPARENTLY

toooootally in shock]

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	[PRIVATE] voice; 3/3 painfeels 2012-05-17 05:07 am UTC (link)
	...I'm sorry. I didn't think you would cry. ...Even though I was insisting you were a person and had feelings, I...guess I was treating you like you weren't, and you didn't. I'm really sorry. I-I feel terrible... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	[PRIVATE] voice; toomanyzippers 2012-05-17 05:11 am UTC (link)
	*I told you not to pity me.* [he's fighting tears and wiping them from his face as much as he can.] I am not crying, I don't have weak human feelings, and I don't need someone like you feeling sorry for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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painfeels
2012-05-17 05:14 am UTC (link)

[oops maybe she shouldn't have stressed how pitiful he is—now he's going to get a complex.]

I'm not going to be okay with inflicting that kind of pain on someone... even if you were being kind of a jerk. I took it too far because I was upset.

And I don't know why you think emotions are a purely human construct; animals feel them, and I've known non-human creatures intelligent enough to function in their own societies to be just as delicate.

I...won't say anything like that again. About your mother, and things like that.

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	[PRIVATE] voice; toomanyzippers 2012-05-17 05:18 am UTC (link)
	You had better not,human. [he leaves it there, fuming a little, but honestly comforted by her words and acceptance. He feels drained, and shuts off the feed pretty spontaneously.] //cuts voice chat// (Reply to this) (Parent)

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