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Tweak says, "You brave little soldier..."

AAUAUOOUUGUUHHHH (painfeels) wrote in marinasylum,
@ 2012-05-08 14:34:00

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aerith gainsborough, allen walker, cain, howard link, jade curtiss, karkat vantas, kira yamato, legion, painwheel, prospitian monarch, puck, rose tyler, touma kamijou, tyki mikk, wayward vagabond, yomi isayama, yuri lowell

voice; [REVERSE INTRO!]
[upon her arrival, Painwheel definitely had a little bit of an episode. she tore up that welcome basket and flipped her every shit available to be up-ended, and finally inspected the network a little once she calmed down and all the fear and irrational anger subsided—once she realized she's actually in control and she doesn't have to be such a fucking spaz.

it occurs to her, however, that she hasn't properly socialized in a very long time. she's probably bad at carrying on conversation. she also doesn't want to talk about herself. she doesn't want people to see her face. but she wants to know about the other criminals here. she wants to know people like she used to know people. they can't all be bad, right? ...RIGHT??

and so, she's been inspired to make this post!]

...Hello— [her voice is deep and worn, gravelly in its quality, like her vocal chords have been blown out a little.] My...name is Painwheel.

[she takes an unsteady breath in, and manages to push herself forward, a little.]

There's a lot of people here—people who've committed crimes... So I guess that's our common ground, as people... But that can't be it, right?

So...what do all of you enjoy? Who are you? I'd... like to know, I think.

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	pierrot 2012-05-09 04:51 am UTC (link)
	Why don't you... [thought process: she should see me, and how weird I look, and that'll make her feel better about how weird she looks!] ...come meet me by the athletic fields! They're southwest of the tower in the middle of the dome. I'll be the one throwing a "frisbee" at a dog. Do you know what a frisbee is? [he didn't!] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-05-09 05:04 am UTC (link)
	[she would think he was making fun of her were it not for the fact that he's been very polite so far...so instead she smiles, and makes an effort not to laugh.] Of course I do. Should I go towards there now, then? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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pierrot
2012-05-09 05:19 am UTC (link)

Ah, good! Please do, and I'll see you then, Miss Painwheel.

[and indeed, Allen is out and about with a blue merle border collie pup racing avidly over the field after the disc. Allen is, of course, a mass of white hair and bizarre scars, and he's even taken the liberty of shedding his jacket, even though it's cold. he doesn't mind the cold much, but more importantly, down to his sleeveless black undershirt this way, it's easy to see the strange dark exoskeleton of his left arm, extending to claw-tipped fingers]

[and it certainly doesn't stop him from ducking down to ruffle the dog after a good catch, or the dog from leaping excitedly up to meet him]

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action;

painfeels
2012-05-09 05:48 am UTC (link)

[it's easy finding Allen, once she successfully makes the trek (after a few wrong turns—her eyes find first the puppy and her heart almost stops, seized by the glory of its irresistible cuteness.

then, of course, there's Allen—she assumes. she's immediately observant of his scars, then his strange, long, armored arm and its even stranger fingers; a prosthetic or synthetic parasite are her first guesses.

and Allen was right to guess that it might put her at ease, because something inside her swells with relief, her barriers collapsing as she breathes in the cool air. she feels comfort, because she knows immediately that Allen is different, just like she is.

...so, she takes her shy steps forward, unused to the lightness of her own steps since the removal of her parasites. she's got a huge scar not unlike some of allen's on her lower back, otherwise wrapped in an open-back, halter dress. there's shackles, and her veins are dark and spidery. her face is trapped behind dark, tough leather, stapled to her face, framed by soft hair. her shoulders, thighs and hips are pinned with large nails; the keratin in her nails are black and dead.

none of this bothers her, right now.

tentatively, she waves to him.]

Allen?

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chance that Allen will end up crying: 90%

pierrot
2012-05-09 06:03 am UTC (link)

[in spite of himself, he wasn't really prepared for it, and when he looks up, his eyes widen for a beat, heart stopping as he takes it all in. "Painwheel" is such a horrible name, and he's wondered at how she acquired it -- who gave it to her -- but it's so much worse wondering how this happened, who did this to her]

[but in a second those scattered half-thoughts all refine down to: she must've been through a lot]

[because she seemed very kind, and as he said to her, that's the most important thing. so he pulls up a smile, straightening out again. it's right on his tongue to ask if she's in any pain, but instead what he says instead is]

That's right. And this is Lincoln. [to the puppy, which is standing by Allen's side, tail wagging but not coming any closer] Go on! Say hi.

[Link barks in apparent response, and then, emboldened by the sound of his own noise, trots over to investigate her]

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oh gOD WE'RE STEERING INTO A DISASTER ZONE

painfeels
2012-05-09 06:12 am UTC (link)

[as Painwheel comes closer, she feels weirdly small without the giant weaponized pinwheel coming out from her back, especially with her weakened posture—she tries to straighten up a little to her full 5'1" so she isn't just staring at the ground.

she's wondering similar things about what's happened to Allen, but it's her first day meeting him, so she's not going to ask! she's trying not to stare, but then it occurs to her that her point of vision isn't very...clear...actually...

anyway, whatever, she's got Link to meet—and so, hesitant only because she hasn't interacted with a dog since her transformation, she politely extends her hand to the pup, crouching a little so that she's lower to the ground. she's well versed in good doggy manners.

it's not very visible, but she's smiling widely beneath her mask. dear god she is going to pass out because this puppy is so precious.]

He's so small... I didn't realize your dog was so young. He's adorable.

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	/aw yeah all the late pierrot 2012-05-17 01:32 am UTC (link)
	[Allen smiles as Lincoln sniffs and then nuzzles her hand] For some reason, many of the animals here are still very young. He was given to me for Christmas by a friend here only a few months ago. I've always been a fan of dogs, but -- well, it never felt right to get one. [sharing normal thoughts with her] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	delicious painfeels 2012-05-17 02:19 am UTC (link)
	[THIS TINY CREATURE IS SO ADORABLE. she promptly scratches him behind the ears and all that, and as she keeps conversation with Allen—true to his word, the dog doesn't seem to give a single shit about her strange appearance, and neither does Allen. she feels a little at ease.] —No? Why's that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrot 2012-05-17 02:22 am UTC (link)
	I don't exactly lead the most -- settled life, back home. I couldn't drag an animal all over the world with me, or expose it to the kind of enemies I've made. It wouldn't be fair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-05-17 03:18 am UTC (link)
	...That makes sense. I understand. [she scratches at Lincoln's chest, her gaze growing distant; her life is similarly chaotic, though she's completely certain their situations are of a different struggle.] Are you more relaxed, in this place? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrot 2012-05-20 03:41 am UTC (link)
	Some of those enemies are here, so I can't say it's too easy to relax. [that, and he doesn't want to relax. the worst thing he could imagine is forgetting how much he's needed back home. or -- it would have been, at one point] But usually it's pretty pleasant here. Day to day life is more peaceful. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-05-20 11:51 pm UTC (link)
	Even with your enemies here? [she blinks up at Allen, absently aware of all the licking at her fingers.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pierrot
2012-05-24 06:38 pm UTC (link)

They keep quiet more often than not. Which is a little nerve-wracking, but I wouldn't begrudge them the right to lead an ordinary life if they wanted. [a small sigh. unfortunately, that's not really what they want]

Still, I taught Link commands to flee and stay away in case anything did happen. [chuckling, and lifting a sharp-tipped finger to scratch at his cheek] It sounds so paranoid to say it like that...

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painfeels
2012-05-24 08:00 pm UTC (link)

I'd call that cautious, not paranoid; it doesn't sound unreasonable. I mean... I doubt this place is perfect, right? Is it generally peaceful?

[she watches him scratch his face with that claw, the exact pin-point of her gaze indescribable with their blotting red glow. she wonders about it to herself, and takes just a second to appreciate that with something that looks so dangerous, he can do something so delicate and mundane such as scratching his face.

then she's looking at Lincoln again, scratching his ears and rolling his head side to side in her hands a little. STARING IS RUDE, so play with the dog. yep]

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	pierrot 2012-05-25 04:12 am UTC (link)
	That's right. There's a defense force here that tries to maintain that peace, as well. [looking down and smiling at Lincoln again] --The animals here are very nearly fearless. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but perhaps you should visit the pet cafe sometime and see for yourself, Miss Painwheel. You seem like an animal lover. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-05-25 08:37 am UTC (link)
	[her large red eyes widen impossibly, turning suddenly to stare at Allen again.] Pet Cafe? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrot 2012-05-25 07:47 pm UTC (link)
	There's dozens of animals there -- they climb all over the place, roaming free. You can go and visit and play with them anytime you like, or adopt one to take home if you'd prefer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-05-26 01:36 am UTC (link)
	[she pretty much leaps up at the notion, there] Really!? Oh—! [her wrists are between her collarbones and breasts, hands balled into gentle fists as she glances back down at Lincoln, then back to Allen. she tries to pull it back a notch, there.] Really?? [wait, you just asked that, Painwheel] Is that where you got Lincoln? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrot 2012-05-31 09:30 pm UTC (link)
	A friend that I made here gave him to me, but she got him from there. [smiling at her warmly. go on and be excited] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

painfeels
2012-06-02 07:23 pm UTC (link)

[she holds onto that excitement for a moment, then allows it to gently dissipate, looking at Lincoln. she regards him for a second or so and then stands up, looking at Allen. her thumb brushes her shoulder, arm crossed over her rib-cage.]

...I'll keep that in mind; I've always wanted a dog of my own. But it's like you said before, I guess. I'm not in a place where I think it's fair to keep a pet.

[she looks at her feet, curling her black-nailed toes.]

I'm not like how I was before. I don't know if I could handle it, yet.

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	pierrot 2012-06-04 02:55 pm UTC (link)
	--It'll come. You just need some time away from... that. [smiling faintly. whatever "that" is] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-06-05 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	["that" trips her up for a moment, confusing her—but upon some brief reflection, she thinks she understands.] ...Yeah, you're right. I need to find out how to actually get away from it first before I spend time apart, I guess. I ...just have no idea how. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrot 2012-06-05 06:50 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't either. It's just something you get used to, in time. You learn how to breathe, almost. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	painfeels 2012-06-05 07:44 pm UTC (link)
	[that sounds nice.] Some prison. How long have you been here, Allen? (Reply to this) (Parent)

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