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Anew Returner (lodestar) wrote in marinasylum,
@ 2011-06-16 21:48:00

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[Voice | Very much open!] Filtered from 00 cast
[once the line is open she hesitates, like so many times before she finally had the courage to click the button. Anew quickly double-checks the filter, takes a deep breath,]

Does anyone mind answering a question for me? I know it's a little personal -- [just say it]

Is it a hard thing for you to stand up for yourself?

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	lodestar 2011-07-06 05:53 pm UTC (link)
	...Is it a bad thing to want to do that on my own? [genuine question] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-08 06:14 am UTC (link)
	I don't know. [ a very slight smile. he's not judging you, Anew. ] But why do you want to do it on your own? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-08 06:17 am UTC (link)
	Because I've never done anything on my own before. And I want to make the people I love proud of me. And I... want to be proud of myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-08 07:06 am UTC (link)
	Okay. Is this the best way to do that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-08 07:08 am UTC (link)
	[small voice, you're making her feel more terrible by the moment] I have to start somewhere? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-08 07:09 am UTC (link)
	[ gives her a beat, and then he says, in a gentler voice ] Are you asking me or telling me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-08 07:12 am UTC (link)
	[pause] Asking. You don't understand! [sort of desperate to not look like an idiot further] I may look like I've had years to learn these things, but I'm not like everyone else. I never had any life of my own until I got here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-08 07:22 am UTC (link)
	[ honestly, you remind him a lot of someone else he knows ] Hey. Take a deep breath, there. Plenty of people way older than you haven't figured out stuff like this. [ he miiight be misunderstanding that last part of your sentence on purpose, but hopefully not in a way that will make you feel misunderstood. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-08 07:25 am UTC (link)
	[uwah, how embarrassing. Again.] I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell. [(she didn't yell.)] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-08 07:27 am UTC (link)
	[ he knows, he just wanted her to calm down a little. ] No big deal. Even if you had yelled. [ a smile ] I'm a big boy, I can take it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-08 07:38 am UTC (link)
	I don't want to be cruel to the people trying to help me... or at least, the people nice enough to answer. [not that everyone who answered was nice, but she assumes at least most of them had good intent?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-08 08:23 am UTC (link)
	You think yelling and being upset with someone is the same thing as being cruel? [ your ~~probably Nena?~~ probably may have deeper roots than he was thinking ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-08 08:28 am UTC (link)
	...When they didn't do anything to deserve it, yes. [i-isn't that cruel? I mean if they deserve it that's different.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-09 07:17 am UTC (link)
	Nope. Way down on the list of offenses. Doesn't mean you shouldn't still apologize, if you're sorry, but it's not being cruel. It'd be cruel if -- say -- you hurt somebody on purpose. [ well, mean at least, but baby steps ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-09 05:18 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. [these things were never taught to her. She was always just the pinnacle of polite and so... apologizing for everything is what she does.] You must think I'm terribly stupid. [she feels terribly stupid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-16 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	[ ...a small smile. ] Yeah? Is that a law? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-24 12:44 am UTC (link)
	[c-confused, but] No? I mean -- no. You can think what you like, but... [asdfklj this is the most terrible, what is she even doing trying to talk to people about this sajdkfh] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-24 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	[ he is now going to laugh, not unkindly. ] ...Hey. Relax. That's my way of saying no, I don't think you're stupid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-07-25 01:06 am UTC (link)
	[does relax, more because he told her to than because she feels relaxed.] Well... that's a relief. All this is so very far outside my normal realm of comfort. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-07-27 02:35 am UTC (link)
	Don't take this the wrong way, but... I can kind of tell. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	lodestar 2011-08-03 11:11 pm UTC (link)
	[...giggles, actually.] I know it's very obvious, don't worry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trueknight 2011-08-11 01:46 am UTC (link)
	[ all right, a laugh! ] Well, you're doing just fine so far. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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