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Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-03-18 23:13:00

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:mingle, aidan reilly, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), nico di angelo, pavel chekov (au), suzaku kururugi, ton phanan

[Day 419] [Mingle / Closed to Defense Force]
[Kitty waits until the team gathers into the Defense Force headquarters. Once upon a time this team was big enough that having a meeting inside would have been uncomfortable. That hasn't been true for awhile. She loudly taps a pen against a desk a few times to get everyone's attention before she starts.]

You were probably hoping I scheduled this surprise meeting so I could deliver a long speech at you, and your hopes are being fulfilled. [A pause as she once again considers not moving forward with this.] I have been thinking about the Defense Force and where it started and how it's changed and the direction it could or maybe even should move in for awhile now. We're a smaller team than we once were and I've been wanting to refocus our efforts more on the investigation side of things, but our numbers don't reflect that. I think a lot of us are here because we do something similar back home. We protect. We fight. We have a team to support us. We wanted that here too, but I'm not sure the needs of this prison support that now. I'm not sure they ever did. I'm not saying we haven't had successes. We have. I'm proud of what we built and what we've accomplished even if it's surprising how completely unpopular a team for saving lives and getting people home is. [She's taken the brunt of that message too. Complaints and criticisms from what they did to stop Spike from attacking people to just not getting everyone home within a few months time against impossible odds.]

I think it's time for a fresh take on this idea. And the thing is... It's not going to be with me. [Just looking out at everyone.] I don't think leading a team is what I should be doing right now. It's meant a lot to me. It's been the only thing that got me through some hard times. But it's not here for that.

I've talked to Jack and he's not going to be moving into the role either, so where this leaves us is kind of up to all of you. And before anyone volunteers I just want to say take some time to think about it. Think about whether you have a direction and a passion for it. Also, it won't be my call to make what happens next, so you'll just have to see if others will follow if you want to lead. Which means, for the moment, there is no Defense Force.

[And with that her speech is over. Time to see what comes next.]

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whiteknightmare
2017-03-20 12:45 pm UTC (link)

[ Because he's a pro at self-castigation while doing what needs to be done and can see the signs from a mile away?

Besides, he has worked long enough with her to know that she wouldn't get anywhere near to abandoning anything she has committed so much to unless she had a pretty bad jar to make her reconsider. ]

And 'selfish' is not what I have known you to be, let alone if things are going... as normally as this place allows.

[ A beat, and then, more gently, ] I can understand why the structure may seem... unnecessary, at this point. There hasn't been much that requires organized defense recently. But you said that you shouldn't be leading a team right now, and... I doubt you would have said it like that without cause to worry about you.

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kitty_has_claws
2017-03-20 10:49 pm UTC (link)

[Good point. Expert in the house.

She looks at him and gives a soft smile.]

You know, once upon time—a time you don't remember—when you were my boss, I came to you and told you I was in a relationship with someone on our watchlist. I wanted you to know so it was out in the open and you could send me packing if you wanted. And you didn't. You were understanding and thoughtful. Some things don't change I guess.

[But she hasn't answered the question and that wasn't her brilliant plan to distract him out of it. She just has to gather her thoughts.]

I'm dead back home. And it never mattered before. I mean, it mattered, but not to my dedication. I'm still not sure that it does. But the longer I'm here the less the mission is all important. The more I want to use some of the second chance for me. To see if I can fit some happiness in. I don't think the Force had to interfere with that, but maybe the mission of getting us home should fall to someone who...actually wants to go home.

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