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Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-03-18 23:13:00

Entry tags:

:mingle, aidan reilly, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), nico di angelo, pavel chekov (au), suzaku kururugi, ton phanan

[Day 419] [Mingle / Closed to Defense Force]
[Kitty waits until the team gathers into the Defense Force headquarters. Once upon a time this team was big enough that having a meeting inside would have been uncomfortable. That hasn't been true for awhile. She loudly taps a pen against a desk a few times to get everyone's attention before she starts.]

You were probably hoping I scheduled this surprise meeting so I could deliver a long speech at you, and your hopes are being fulfilled. [A pause as she once again considers not moving forward with this.] I have been thinking about the Defense Force and where it started and how it's changed and the direction it could or maybe even should move in for awhile now. We're a smaller team than we once were and I've been wanting to refocus our efforts more on the investigation side of things, but our numbers don't reflect that. I think a lot of us are here because we do something similar back home. We protect. We fight. We have a team to support us. We wanted that here too, but I'm not sure the needs of this prison support that now. I'm not sure they ever did. I'm not saying we haven't had successes. We have. I'm proud of what we built and what we've accomplished even if it's surprising how completely unpopular a team for saving lives and getting people home is. [She's taken the brunt of that message too. Complaints and criticisms from what they did to stop Spike from attacking people to just not getting everyone home within a few months time against impossible odds.]

I think it's time for a fresh take on this idea. And the thing is... It's not going to be with me. [Just looking out at everyone.] I don't think leading a team is what I should be doing right now. It's meant a lot to me. It's been the only thing that got me through some hard times. But it's not here for that.

I've talked to Jack and he's not going to be moving into the role either, so where this leaves us is kind of up to all of you. And before anyone volunteers I just want to say take some time to think about it. Think about whether you have a direction and a passion for it. Also, it won't be my call to make what happens next, so you'll just have to see if others will follow if you want to lead. Which means, for the moment, there is no Defense Force.

[And with that her speech is over. Time to see what comes next.]

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	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-27 01:00 am UTC (link)
	[She thinks that's the consequence of that execution even if she's wrong about his intentions. And she doesn't know what to do about Reid. Confront him? Let it go now that the force is disbanded anyway?] Maybe you're right. Maybe people just dismissed it. [She closes her eyes for a moment.] You have. [Love is pretty important.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

candothat
2017-03-30 11:13 pm UTC (link)

[Most people ignored Reid's message, Chekov has decided. That's why Kitty didn't already know. (Of course, that doesn't say anything good about how willing inmates are to get involved in things that affect them directly... but he doesn't want to think about it anymore.)]

Not well enough. [There are probably bigger words than love that he doesn't know.] I'm sorry about all of this.

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	kitty_has_claws 2017-03-30 11:25 pm UTC (link)
	I know. [She hugs him closer. She feels bad when he apologizes and she's not quite ready to forgive him not saying anything, but she's close.] Maybe we should stay in our own places tonight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

candothat
2017-03-30 11:51 pm UTC (link)

[He would take that apology back if he thought it was making her feel bad instead of reiterating how sincerely sorry he is!]

Okay. [That's fair. It's been a rough day for Kitty what with the disbanding of the Defense Force and finding out that Chekov has (and an unknown number of others have) been withholding information.] However many nights you like... although not too many, I hope. I would miss you.

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kitty_has_claws
2017-03-30 11:56 pm UTC (link)

[She doesn't want the messenger to get hurt the worst here, but he's also the one she feels most hurt not hearing it from sooner. Still, she does understand and she knows he'd never intentionally hurt her. She doesn't want to make him feel worse. She's just not ready to make him feel better either. Not to leave him hanging or make it worse, but because she still needs time to deal with it on her own. She doesn't want to say all is forgiven and then leak passive aggressiveness because she wasn't really ready.]

I don't think it'll be long. You can still come to the karaoke bar if you want. I need to talk to Ton about this too though so I'm pretty sure the mood will be awkward at best.

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	candothat 2017-04-01 05:35 pm UTC (link)
	[It's just a little time apart. Chekov is worried, of course, because he did misstep and ruin Kitty's day, but now there's nothing that she hasn't been told. Processing takes time, and sometimes so does forgiveness.] No thank you to awkwardness. I can be somewhere else tonight... maybe remind myself that you aren't the only thing that I like. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2017-04-01 06:11 pm UTC (link)
	I'll see you tomorrow, okay? [She gives his cheek a soft kiss. A little bit of reassurance. She doesn't want to lose him. She just isn't ready to sleep beside him tonight either.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2017-04-01 11:32 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. [He kisses her forehead in turn and truly does believe that it is.] Tomorrow. [And off he goes to somewhere that is not headquarters!] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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