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Pavel Chekov (candothat) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-12-05 21:11:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, jack harkness, jim kirk, john constatine, kitty pryde (aoa), pavel chekov (au)

Day 405 [closed action | open action]
[action | closed to Kitty]

[As it happens, waking up three years older than you were when you went to sleep is mildly disorienting. Waking up in bed next to someone who wasn't present in any of those three years compounds the effect. Chekov--newly twenty-four and, as far as he can remember, fresh from yet another near-death experience--sits up with a start. This is definitely not his room at Yorktown Starbase. This is...

MarinaNova. He's in bed with Kitty. He has been here for one-hundred twelve days.

Chekov lowers his head to his hands and groans. There are two different yesterdays in his mind, both equally vivid and real, and it's way too early to deal with that.]

[action | open]

[Chekov, three years older than he was yesterday and considerably more dazed than usual, does a circuit of the dome. Everything has a not-quite-rightness to it that he can't put his finger on and he feels oddly out of place. He isn't, of course. He was here yesterday, and he remembers that yesterday like it was... yesterday, which it was. But he also remembers a yesterday where he was a universe away and waiting for the Enterprise to be rebuilt. In that universe, he was on year three of a five-year mission.

He's looking for Kirk, specifically. It would be easiest to call him up, but Chekov would much rather talk in person.]

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	candothat 2016-12-05 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	For leaving. For changing. [Not that he really left, but he did. He left and now he's not the same. Breaking up with Kitty is the last thing on his mind, he's afraid that she won't want to be with someone different. That fear is clear enough on his face; hiding it is currently beyond his capabilities.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-05 10:52 pm UTC (link)
	[She doesn't know what he's feeling or thinking, but she can see that he's scared. Maybe... Maybe she could try something really daring and not assume the worst. Not let her own fears overwhelm her. Be here for him. She shifts closer, putting her arms around him, hoping it's welcome as she hugs him.] You didn't leave. [She hopes.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-05 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	[That is extremely welcome. He hugs her close and buries his face in the crook of her neck. A lot happened (in one set of memories), but they're still in the same place. He hopes so, anyway.] I feel like I did in some ways. Not so much in other ways. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-05 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	Are you okay? I mean...I know you aren't okay but... What happened? What do you remember? [The hug goes a long way to soothing her. She's not letting go anytime soon. Maybe ever.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-05 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	No, yes, I am. [He will be. He's good at being fine, sometimes it just takes a little while.] I remember here and I remember there. The Enterprise was destroyed, but I'm fine, obviously. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-05 11:21 pm UTC (link)
	Your team? [She adjusts as she holds him tighter.] Your crew? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-05 11:27 pm UTC (link)
	Not all of them were fine. [He gets heavy against her. Although he never, ever talks about it, he has seen a lot of his peers and friends die in seven years and that never gets easier.] Most were evacuated, and then most of them survived Altamid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-05 11:39 pm UTC (link)
	Altamid? Is this okay? Can you talk about it or... Just tell me what you need. Whatever it is. [And she will do her best to handle it even if it's space away from her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-05 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	The planet that we crashed on. I can tell you about it later, and about the other things. I have better stories than that one. [Ones that involve less crashing and people trying to destroy the Federation.] Ah--but it's important to tell you now that I have no girlfriend at home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-05 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	[She squeezes her eyes closed because she can't possibly squeeze him any tighter.] Do you want one here? [She wants to put the words back the moment they're out.] No. Don't... I shouldn't have asked. It's too soon. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 12:10 am UTC (link)
	[He smiles even though she can't see it. Her timing is terrible and today is confusing and he has to be amused by it all because he doesn't want to explore the alternative.] I do, though. Unless you would like to take that offer back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 12:14 am UTC (link)
	[She shakes her head against him.] No take backs. [She sniffles. Also, did they just decide they were girlfriend and boyfriend in this moment or was that decided when she proposed blue bands or sharing a bed?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 12:18 am UTC (link)
	[Who knows. Maybe they were working their way up to labels.] Thank you. [Don't ask him what for because he means that in a very general sense.] Are you crying...? [Or is it a cold? Allergy season?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 12:22 am UTC (link)
	No, it's raining. [Inside. As it does. Localized to just her cheeks.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 12:26 am UTC (link)
	Ah, yes, of course. [He rubs circles on her back. This has to be a good kind of crying, right?] Why is it raining on your face? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 12:29 am UTC (link)
	Don't comfort me. That's my job. [She sniffles again.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 12:34 am UTC (link)
	I need to. You said that I could tell you what I need. [What he thinks he needs is to snuggle Kitty and be distracted from himself. This may not align with what he actually needs.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 12:39 am UTC (link)
	Got me there. [She draws a deep breath.] I was just scared. [They are tears of relief, letting some of the pressure out. She's still a little scared though.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 12:48 am UTC (link)
	So was I. [What can he say? Loving someone (and he's using that word internally now) is scary. Nothing is scarier than attachments because other people can leave or change or cause pain in any number of ways, intentional or not.] I still am, a little. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 12:51 am UTC (link)
	[He's not wrong. When he admits that she can admit this.] So am I. What are you scared of? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 12:58 am UTC (link)
	Leaving here, staying here... losing you. [Those are the three most immediately relevant fears, although he has realized in the last couple of years that he's afraid of far more things than he'd ever thought. He was less frightened when he was with Lucy. If fear is a side effect of getting older, then he would like to stop.] And you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 01:03 am UTC (link)
	[She remembers a time when it seemed like nothing scared her. She expected death for herself and those around her. She went into battle unflinching no matter the enemy. It feels like she has more to lose now and she doesn't want that ending. She wants a life, not a death.] Losing you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 10:33 pm UTC (link)
	[It takes him a moment to reply and, when he does, he's getting into crying territory, too. Her response isn't unexpected, but it still makes him feel things and there is a lot going on right now.] Fortunately, I'm a brilliant navigator and am never lost for long. [Sniffle.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-12-06 10:45 pm UTC (link)
	[She shifts to kiss him. It's not the sexiest sort of kiss with them both so emotional, but it's a kiss that needs to happen. One where she demonstrates her feelings because they are too hard to talk about.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	candothat 2016-12-06 10:54 pm UTC (link)
	[This is exactly the sort of kiss that a day like this needs. He's slightly awkward initially--it's been years since they did this even if it happened yesterday--but he's quick to remember and kiss her back softly. Even though it's gentle, there's nothing there that could be mistaken for reluctance or hesitance.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)