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Tweak says, "hahaha...i like it!"

Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-05-13 21:52:00

Entry tags:

jack harkness, james howlett/logan, kitty pryde (aoa), pavel chekov (au), spike, ton phanan

Day 375 — Open Action/Private Video

[So much happened yesterday, but they were only dreams. Only dreams that she still remembers almost as vividly as memories even hours after waking up. Only dreams that everyone who shared them will also likely remember. Only dreams where she told at least three different men she loved them and none of them were Reid. Only dreams that are making her feel small and confused and violated today.

She doesn't blame anyone who made an appearance. She's trying not to blame herself, but that's easier said than done. No, this is on the warden's and the way they play with their minds and emotions. Which, that's all they are right now, isn't it? Their bodies are locked away in tanks and their minds are a playground for their robotic overlords. She's angry, but the anger isn't on the surface yet. There's too much guilt and worry and hurt...and longing on top of it.

Of course she dreamed about being with people. About openly saying she's in love. It's what she's been wanting to get back to with Reid. It's simple, right? Why doesn't it feel simple right now? Probably because she's locked herself up in her room with no one to talk to about any of this. She's either slept with all her friends or their significant others. And then there's Reid. She wants to see him. Wants him to hold her and tell her it's all okay, but she's afraid she'll hear, "I just can't do this." That doesn't leave a lot of people to lean on.

Not terribly long ago her reaction to this might have been doing something brash and impulsive. Maybe even reckless and self-destructive. She doesn't want that now. But she's not sure what she wants in place of it other than not feeling like this anymore.]

[Private | Logan]
You wanted to talk? I want to drink. Maybe we combine those.

[Action | Open]
[She finally makes her way out of the apartment, taking a long route to the Defense Force headquarters if only to avoid passing too closely to other apartments and popular sites. Who would be in the cemetery, right? When she gets to her office she gathers some things up to work on, not interested in staying long.]

(OOC: If your character would make a private call to her following the dreams please feel free to do that here too!)

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	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 05:44 pm UTC (link)
	[She shrugs.] It might technically be now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 06:49 pm UTC (link)
	[ He straightens up at that. ] What did you do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	Dream sex with one of your boyfriends. [Oh, yes, she knows the arrangement.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 06:55 pm UTC (link)
	[ Of course she knows. ] If you mean Jack- [ He knows it's Jack. Ianto would've said something this morning. ] -then welcome to the club. Who hasn't shagged him by now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	I guess there's that. [Not that it appears to make her feel better in any way.] They probably got to choose whether they were going to or not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	[ He quirks a brow. ] Did you enjoy it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 07:59 pm UTC (link)
	What does that have to do with anything? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:01 pm UTC (link)
	You make it sound like he raped you. Say what you will about Captain Woodstock, but that doesn't sound like his style. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:03 pm UTC (link)
	No. No... [She sighs.] I didn't mean him. Of course not him. None of us did anything wrong yesterday. [Even if she still feels bad about a lot of it.] I meant the wardens. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:04 pm UTC (link)
	So you think that you're the only person in this entire dome that experienced something unusual yesterday? It was a dream, Kitty-cat. Not the end of the world. Believe me, I'd know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:07 pm UTC (link)
	No, I don't think I was the only one. I think it was probably closer to everyone. I didn't know that meant I had to feel awesome about it. Thank you for being the feelings coordinator for the graveyard, Spike. [Starting at little strained and ending at annoyed.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:08 pm UTC (link)
	Fine. [ He lifts his hands in resignation. ] If you want to wallow in self pity for getting to shag what is possibly the most universally attractive man in the known world without consequences, then by all means. Wallow away. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	It's not the... I was in love with him again! You remember, right? Waking up thinking you're with someone and then you're not. The feelings don't go away that easily. [Obviously. Since he and Ianto are together.] So yeah, maybe I want to wallow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	Like I said, none of my business. [ S h r u g s. ] Just sayin'... maybe you shouldn't blame the wardens entirely. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:16 pm UTC (link)
	Do you seriously think I'm someone who needs help blaming myself, Spike? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:17 pm UTC (link)
	Not exactly pinning you to the ground here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:18 pm UTC (link)
	You missed your chance. Everyone got to pin me yesterday. I guess you were tired of waiting in line. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	Or maybe I'm just not that into you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:22 pm UTC (link)
	Do you think I want you to be? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	Don't care what you think, Sheriff. You do whatever the hell you want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:27 pm UTC (link)
	Great. Super. Thanks for permission, Spike. What is your deal? [Sounding exasperated more than anything.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-17 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	I don't have a deal. What, you going to tell me I can't be out and about? Is that what we're doing now? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not the one telling you how to feel or what to do here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2016-05-20 01:32 pm UTC (link)
	[ He gives her A Look and not much else. Why does he still bother with this? Who knows. It's not even entertaining anymore. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-27 01:26 am UTC (link)
	[She knows the feeling. She's tired, worn down, upset and she can't really bring herself to care if she's being fair or friendly to Spike when she feels he rarely is with her anymore. Probably with good reason, and she knows it, but she doesn't have the energy for it today. She just keeps walking without another word.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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