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Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-05-13 21:52:00

Entry tags:

jack harkness, james howlett/logan, kitty pryde (aoa), pavel chekov (au), spike, ton phanan

Day 375 — Open Action/Private Video

[So much happened yesterday, but they were only dreams. Only dreams that she still remembers almost as vividly as memories even hours after waking up. Only dreams that everyone who shared them will also likely remember. Only dreams where she told at least three different men she loved them and none of them were Reid. Only dreams that are making her feel small and confused and violated today.

She doesn't blame anyone who made an appearance. She's trying not to blame herself, but that's easier said than done. No, this is on the warden's and the way they play with their minds and emotions. Which, that's all they are right now, isn't it? Their bodies are locked away in tanks and their minds are a playground for their robotic overlords. She's angry, but the anger isn't on the surface yet. There's too much guilt and worry and hurt...and longing on top of it.

Of course she dreamed about being with people. About openly saying she's in love. It's what she's been wanting to get back to with Reid. It's simple, right? Why doesn't it feel simple right now? Probably because she's locked herself up in her room with no one to talk to about any of this. She's either slept with all her friends or their significant others. And then there's Reid. She wants to see him. Wants him to hold her and tell her it's all okay, but she's afraid she'll hear, "I just can't do this." That doesn't leave a lot of people to lean on.

Not terribly long ago her reaction to this might have been doing something brash and impulsive. Maybe even reckless and self-destructive. She doesn't want that now. But she's not sure what she wants in place of it other than not feeling like this anymore.]

[Private | Logan]
You wanted to talk? I want to drink. Maybe we combine those.

[Action | Open]
[She finally makes her way out of the apartment, taking a long route to the Defense Force headquarters if only to avoid passing too closely to other apartments and popular sites. Who would be in the cemetery, right? When she gets to her office she gathers some things up to work on, not interested in staying long.]

(OOC: If your character would make a private call to her following the dreams please feel free to do that here too!)

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	wraith_7 2016-05-17 04:36 pm UTC (link)
	It can still be bad after all this time. [She knows he's an expert at hanging onto the bad things.] Was it better or worse having people see? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-17 05:39 pm UTC (link)
	Worse I guess? I mean, they were all young. [They were all older than her when it happened.] And the other Kitty saw. [This would be Kitty thinking of others before herself.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wraith_7 2016-05-17 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	Yikes. But she's a little different, isn't she? Will it happen to her? Or do her parents live? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-19 02:38 pm UTC (link)
	No, I don't think it was like her watching her future at all. But they still must look a lot like her parents. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wraith_7 2016-05-19 10:28 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, that doesn't sound fun. For either of you, obviously. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-27 01:35 am UTC (link)
	I'm...used to it. [It's not fun. It's just common.] I have a hard time sleeping alone. [Alone doesn't guarantee nightmares and with someone doesn't always prevent them, but it's more common.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

wraith_7
2016-05-27 11:58 am UTC (link)

At least you know being alone sucks. Do you have any idea how long it took me to figure that out? I'll give you a hint, it was basically when I met you and Chuck and everybody else here. [A smile. See? Even with the weird awkward sex thing he can still admit how important she is.] Sorry about the sleeping situation. The alone thing, not the sex thing. Not that I am offering to do that again. [Aw dang it he made it weird again it was almost a nice moment, too.]

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	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-27 12:52 pm UTC (link)
	Losing something or even just having something to lose makes it easier to see how important it is. [She smiles softly as he goes down the road of awkward statements.] Ton, it's okay. I want you to live happily-ever-after with Chuck. Really. I couldn't possibly handle having romantic feelings about anyone else in my life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wraith_7 2016-05-27 12:57 pm UTC (link)
	I think what you meant to say was, 'Oh, Ton, you're so handsome and irresistible being rejected by you is breaking my heart!' And then you should swoon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2016-05-27 01:00 pm UTC (link)
	It was all there between the lines. The swoon too. I'm sure you'll always ache for me and all that too. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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