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Tweak says, "You so love me."

MarinaNova NPCs (marinanova_npc) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2016-03-21 12:05:00

Entry tags:

:mingle, aidan reilly, aigis, charlotte charles, han solo, haruka tenoh, ianto jones, ichiru kiryuu, jack harkness, james howlett/logan, kanji tatsumi, kaya, kazuki makabe, kija, kitty pryde (aoa), leia organa, nico di angelo, sarah williams, shallan davar, spencer reid, spike, ton phanan, yuuki kuran, zeno

Day 368 - Hooked on a Feeling mingle

(OOC: EVENT INFO! )

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	orgia_mode 2016-03-28 06:53 pm UTC (link)
	[Oh yes tall human. She blinks up at him, now very visibly curious.] Do something? What sort of thing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-03-29 08:05 am UTC (link)
	I don't know. What do you feel like doing? Grab something to eat, see a movie? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-01 11:05 am UTC (link)
	A movie? [Her face lights up with the biggest smile you've ever seen.] Yes! I went to a movie with me very precious friend once. I would love to go again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-02 08:23 am UTC (link)
	Alright! Let's go see a movie, then. Anything in particular? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-02 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	I believe I would enjoy an action movie. But I have not seen may so I cannot be sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-03 06:48 am UTC (link)
	Then it's about time that you see some more! How does lots of explosions and incorrect use of handheld firearms sound to you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-03 03:42 pm UTC (link)
	[She bounces up and down on her deer feet, very nearly jumping for joy.] I would like that very much! Thank you, Spencer-san! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-03 06:14 pm UTC (link)
	Whoa, you're excited today! [ It's a good look on her. ] Take it easy, okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-04 04:21 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, I feel very excited. [At the moment. Subject to change.] Everything is very exciting right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-04 05:51 pm UTC (link)
	I guess a lot of things are still new to you, huh? Kissing and action movies and all that. It was new to me too before I came here. Well, kissing. Movies, not so much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-05 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. I have been active for less than a year. Before that I was damaged a decade ago and went into stasis mode. Until I awoke and met my friends my experiences were limited to Shadow combat. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-06 05:48 pm UTC (link)
	That doesn't sound very fulfilling. What's the best thing you've experienced so far? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

orgia_mode
2016-04-06 06:30 pm UTC (link)

[She's quiet for a long moment, and when she does speak her face is so peaceful but also so sad.] There was one moment. My friends and I fought an impossible force, something we were so sure we could not overcome but that we knew we had to try to beat. And my precious friend faced it on her own. She held it back, because she believed she could. It was sealed away, and the Dark Hour vanished. But when that was gone all of my friends' memories of what we had done vanished, too. Only I remembered. For months I was all alone, waiting. We had promised to meet on the roof of the school after graduation if we forgot. And maybe because we wanted it so badly they remembered.

My friend met me on the roof and we looked out at the city. It was such a beautiful spring day, I will never forget it. We sat with her head in my lap and I promised I would always protect her. [She looks so calm, like she can still feel the spring sun on her face.] And then my precious friend closed her eyes, and she never opened them again. But that moment, on the roof, that will always be the most wonderful thing I have ever experienced. I will treasure that memory for as long as I live.

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	thisiscalm 2016-04-07 06:00 am UTC (link)
	[ He expected something more mundane like ice cream or petting a kitten. Not this. It takes him off guard and that coupled with the general good feelings of the day makes him reach out for her robot hand. ] Aigis... [ What do you even say? I'm sorry? I'm sorry that's the best memory you have? No. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-10 02:42 pm UTC (link)
	[She smiles, giving his hand a gentle squeeze. If today is amplifying her emotions then it only increases her sense of being at peace with this. Her big blue eyes look clear and calm, no trace of any regret.] I could not understand it for awhile and it hurt, but now I do. I'm very glad to have that memory. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-11 08:15 am UTC (link)
	No, I uhm. I get it. I've had something similar happen to me. [ And for all his confidence, he falters. He'll always falter when it comes to her. ] We really have to treasure what little we can get, huh? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-11 12:38 pm UTC (link)
	[There's no need to falter with her. At the end of the day she's a very straightforward girl.] May I ask what happened? Would that be alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-11 07:44 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah... yeah, that's okay. [ It'd be nice to talk about Maeve with someone who doesn't know him quite so well. Besides, with the mood he's in today, what's the harm? ] I met a girl back home. Well, uhm... I didn't exactly meet her. We talked on the phone, every Sunday. She helped me with some health concerns I had. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-11 08:04 pm UTC (link)
	She sounds like a very good friend. I am not always very good at talking to people, but it is still a wonderful thing to have someone you can rely on to understand you when you do need to speak. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-12 08:55 am UTC (link)
	Yeah... exactly. And she got it, more than anyone else I've ever met. [ It's that, isn't it? Why he has a hard time to let go? She wasn't just a wonderful girl among others, she was one of the very few that seemed to understand him without him trying all that hard. ] She... she died. Not long ago. Killed by a stalker. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	orgia_mode 2016-04-12 12:28 pm UTC (link)
	I am very sorry. [With her simplified emotions today she does feel sorry, looking as sad as if she was just hearing about having lost a friend of her own.] After my friend died I tried to throw my emotions away. I thought that if things could hurt that much maybe it would be better to go back to how I was before, not being able to feel anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2016-04-13 04:41 pm UTC (link)
	It's alright. [ It's not alright. It's also not her fault. If anything it might be his for not being better at his job but down that road lies disaster. ] I've, uh. I've thought about that too, how nice it would be to not feel anything. I don't think that's the solution, though. It hurts because it matters. It needs to hurt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

orgia_mode
2016-04-13 05:50 pm UTC (link)

That is what I think, too. It hurts to lose someone we care about, but there are more memories than just painful ones. I have many good things I can think about that I experienced with my friend. And I can protect what she sacrificed herself to defend. It can hurt but hurting is human, and we cannot just have the good parts of that. Sometimes we need the difficult ones, too. And I am sometimes still very sad. Sometimes I cry thinking of it. But I can smile, too. I would rather have the pain if it means keeping the wonderful parts as well. [Which is easier than saying the emotions she threw away manifested themselves as a sister robot who showed her the importance of all that before vanishing.]

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thisiscalm
2016-04-14 10:47 am UTC (link)

Yeah.

[ What else can he say? Yes. Yeah. That's what it is. You take the good with the bad and that's not just Maeve, that's Emily and Elle and Gideon and his mom and dad too he guesses and all the people who he got to know here and then lost, whether forever or for a little while. He's 31 years old and he's still trying to figure this out but that's okay, he thinks. It's all okay. ]

Hey... if you ever want to talk about all this, I'd be happy to listen. It's- hard. Finding someone to talk to.

[ Someone who listens without feeling bad about it, without taking it on as their problem, without trying to fix the unfixable. ]

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orgia_mode
2016-04-14 01:53 pm UTC (link)

[She thinks of the old lady she met by Paulownia Mall, the one who lost her cat, the one that needed to go be alone to die. It hasn't made any sense to her at the time, how the old lady could accept it. She had cries about it, helplessly frustrated by something she could not understand. She still is it sure she does. Death hurts and it's lonely and sad and she is never going to be able to understand it fully. She can't give people answers, but talking about things sometimes helps make it seem like such a frightening mystery.]

Thank you. I would like that some time. And I would like to let you talk as well. If you want to, of course. I think sometimes it helps.

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