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Sougo Okita » King of the Planet of Sadists (sadistfaction) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-12-26 22:35:00

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artemis crock, jack harkness, piper halliwell, sougo okita, ton phanan

DAY 303 ☠ VIDEO
[Oh what a weird day of curiosity and... maybe... talking about things? He has a hankering for it, anyway, oddly enough. And hey, why not? He could go to Deanna, especially since she has offered numerous times, but he felt the need to broadcast this.]

Is there anybody who is really good at life stuff? Maybe... I dunno. We don't got any grandmas or grandpas around, I don't think.

[Yes if there were any around he would assume they would know all sorts of life stuff.]

I know you don't wanna hear from an asshole like me, but hear me out. Somebody good at figuring out how to do life stuff, I got some questions.

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	trytobenormal 2014-12-29 06:57 pm UTC (link)
	Well, I'd say being stuck here is probably the exception to the rule. Then again, being stuck here doesn't require a person to be useful, either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2014-12-29 07:00 pm UTC (link)
	Being stuck here or not really don't matter much, to tell you the truth. It's all the same. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-12-29 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe. But that hasn't seemed to change your desire to be useful, has it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2014-12-29 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	[She definitely has a point.] Well... no. I guess it's a lot more complicated than just being useful. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-12-29 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. Well, I can't really offer more than I have without knowing more as to why it might be more complicated. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2014-12-29 10:57 pm UTC (link)
	[He crosses his arms.] I don't wanna bore you with a lame sob story. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-12-30 04:19 am UTC (link)
	Well, I can appreciate that. Why not give me the summarized version? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sadistfaction
2014-12-30 05:08 am UTC (link)

[Summarized version, he can do that, so he nods.]

Uselessness in a more serious, complicated matter such as when you give your older sister money for all of her medical expenses, but you still lose her because of your uselessness. Or when you finally make your first best friend and it's the greatest thing in the world, until someone better and cooler than you comes along and then you're only second best. Like that.

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trytobenormal
2014-12-30 08:06 pm UTC (link)

[That was definitely more complicated in some ways, yet less complicated in others.]

I see.

[She gave him a soft smile.]

Those are the kinds of things you can't really blame yourself for. It's not because you're useless. It was just that other forces at work at other plans.

I lost a sister, too. It's the hardest thing in the world to deal with. But we can't blame ourselves for it. Sometimes, we just have to accept that we're powerless to stop something from happening because that's life. It doesn't mean we're useless. It just means we're human.

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	sadistfaction 2014-12-30 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	I refuse to accept it. [He almost cuts her off, because he didn't like where she went with that.] Not when other people get to have everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-12-30 08:35 pm UTC (link)
	[She took a deep breath. She'd gone through that stage...] Trust me. I know how you feel. But that doesn't change anything. Refusing to accept it won't bring her back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2014-12-30 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	[He shrugs.] Accepting it's not gonna make anything better either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-12-30 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	It makes it easier to grieve. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2014-12-30 11:18 pm UTC (link)
	What's the point of that if I'm always gonna be losing people? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trytobenormal
2014-12-31 04:01 am UTC (link)

Because that's part of living. [She pressed her hands to her face on either side of her nose for a moment, steepling her fingers.] There's always loss. I have lost my mom, my grandmother who raised me, and one of my sisters. But dealing with that in a healthy manner is what gets me through. Denying the truth, no matter how much you want to, doesn't help you keep living.

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	sadistfaction 2014-12-31 04:21 am UTC (link)
	It's not fair. I don't have a lot of people. I need everyone I have. [He puts a hand on his forehead.] I know I'm a pain in the ass, but it's just not fair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-12-31 04:41 am UTC (link)
	No. It never feels fair. I never thought any of it was, either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sadistfaction 2014-12-31 05:04 am UTC (link)
	[A deep, long sigh.] Sorry to bother you with all this. We can go back to strictly Defense Force acquaintances now. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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