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Tweak says, "Thanks for all the fish."

Spike (chipswiththat) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-08-16 16:11:00

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anya jenkins, brian moser, deanna troi, doctor facilier, euphemia li britannia, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), rebecca crane, spike, zatanna zatara

284 // voice
[ The feed starts long before anyone speaks, lingers in eerie silence broken by the clicks of a stubborn lighter, the dry crackle of tobacco being set alight, the hollow intake of smoke in dead lungs. The trembling exhale, functioning as an initial indicator to just how rough and ragged his voice is when he does speak. Strained, like he's been screaming himself raw or perhaps the measured and stilted words are a product of him trying to keep himself from doing just that. ]

Are you happy now? Is the world all bright, full of puppydogs and rainbows again? Messing with things you don't understand... makes you feel powerful, doesn't it? Like you're in control. Like you know something. Let me tell you a lit'le secret: you don't know shit. You've never been in control and you never will be. Always somethin' else, calling the shots... whether you realize it or not.

The real monsters aren't out there... but in here. [ Punctuated by the hollow knock of knuckles against breastbone and then he cuts the feed. ]

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	friendly_fire 2014-08-17 12:22 am UTC (link)
	Tyki told me you were tortured. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-18 09:00 am UTC (link)
	Not was, pet... am. They shoved my bloody soul right back into me... there's no reprieve in that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-08-19 03:05 am UTC (link)
	Your soul? [She's heard of a soul of course, but in a real and tangible context?] I'm sorry it's hard on you. I'm not sure what something like that is like. [Though she's willing to listen if he's willing to tell.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-19 11:32 am UTC (link)
	And I hope you never find out. [ Strained. He'd rather not try to describe it. Words fail. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-08-21 04:28 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. ...Do you think maybe it's something they could help you with at the hospital? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-21 08:28 pm UTC (link)
	[ The strain breaks in a bark of laughter — that's priceless. ] Unless they're willing to yank it out of me again, I don't bloody think so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-08-26 04:44 am UTC (link)
	Maybe they would. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-26 01:19 pm UTC (link)
	And then what? The Defense Force goes out and does it all over again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-08-30 05:03 am UTC (link)
	Maybe we could take up a petition against that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-30 01:25 pm UTC (link)
	A petition. [ He laughs, paper-thin. ] Let me know how that works out for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-01 03:56 pm UTC (link)
	It hasn't been tried before. It may be effective. I'm sure they want to be doing the best they can. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-01 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	Let me ask you something, Princess... have you heard of a single member of the Defense Force getting punished for this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-01 08:55 pm UTC (link)
	[She considers the announcements she's heard lately.] The leader was punished for assault and injury. Was it related? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-01 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	Doubtful. I hardly saw her face in there. Fairly certain that had nothing to do with me, personally. [ He was a bit out of it at the time, but he didn't miss Tyki talking about the incident. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-02 01:05 am UTC (link)
	I see. [Except she doesn't. Not entirely. She wants a better picture of what's been going on. Apparently something is very wrong here and that organization was important to Gino and Suzaku who were from her world!] Do you know why they did what they did? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-02 07:18 am UTC (link)
	...You really don't know anything, do you? You haven't heard? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-04 02:13 am UTC (link)
	Rose and Tyki spoke of something happening to you, but I don't know why it happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-04 09:06 am UTC (link)
	[ Well then. ] I attacked people. No one died. Far as I know, no one even got all that hurt. [ Key word being far as he knows. He didn't care enough at the time to check. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-05 02:51 am UTC (link)
	Oh... [Softly.] Why did you attack them? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-05 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	Because it's what I do. [ They've been over this before. ] I'm a vampire. It's in our nature. That I stayed quiet this long was a bloody miracle. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-08 12:13 am UTC (link)
	Do you still want to hurt people? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-08 04:00 pm UTC (link)
	[ Why are you asking such difficult questions. ] ...I do. It does. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-08 09:58 pm UTC (link)
	It? [Gently prodding.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-09 09:03 am UTC (link)
	The demon. [ Which is him, but also not. Identity crisis on top of it all, how great. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	friendly_fire 2014-09-09 06:11 pm UTC (link)
	[Why does this always feel so familiar? She thinks of Nathan for a moment.] So part of you doesn't want to? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)