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Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-04-21 09:43:00

Entry tags:

charlotte charles, deanna troi, elena gilbert, helen magnus, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), nathan harris, spencer reid, terry mcginnis, ton phanan, tyki mikk

Day 268 [Open — voice & action] [Closed video & voice]
[It was the heaviness Kitty noticed first before her eyes were even open. At least waking up in Ton Phanan's body is a pretty good distraction against the pain she normally feels when she wakes up to find Reid went out to sleep on the couch again or even that thread of panic she tries to deny where she fears maybe he disappeared again instead. But this morning is all about figuring out what's going on and damage control. She starts by listening to the vague daypost.]

[Video | Private to Ton]
Stop touching my boobs. [The voice sounds and feels very wrong to her. She even clears her throat, but it doesn't change anything.]

[Voice | Private to Reid]
Hey. We have a situation. [She keeps her voice low since he's likely in the next room. She really wishes these things would text suddenly.]

[And a little later...]

[Voice | Open to everyone]
You've probably already noticed something strange going on. I want to get a head count here. Who is affected? Who isn't? Anyone in danger with this? Let me know and we can get the force working on it.

Oh, and this isn't Ton.

[Action | Open]
[It takes awhile before she's ready to test the new body out elsewhere but she isn't going to stay cooped up all day either. There's bound to be some chaos and she needs to do what she can...without her powers. And why are his wrists too large for her claws?]

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	thisiscalm 2014-04-24 11:28 pm UTC (link)
	...Yeah? What is it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-24 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	I'd say it's not force related but... It kind of is. Nathan grabbed someone. Did he tell you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-25 09:29 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah... he told me. [ This is a conversation they probably should've had already. ] I can't give up on him, but... I really don't know what I can do. [ And Gideon's words after the ambulance drove off is ringing pretty clearly right now. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-25 11:53 pm UTC (link)
	You can be there for him. [She wants to reach out and take his hand but the only sign of this is the way she lifts an artificial hand before dropping it back down to the knee.] I talked to Deanna about him and I talked to him about seeing her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-26 12:36 am UTC (link)
	[ This is weird. Weirder than usual and he finds himself with a great desire to have her back in her own body. ] You did? What did they say? [ Deanna. Such a good yet dangerous choice. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2014-04-26 12:42 am UTC (link)

[She wishes he was responding to her like normal. Or at least like recent-normal. It's still her inside, but she doesn't want to think about it too hard. She knows it's difficult.]

I think they're both willing. Deanna said she would let me know how the general progress was going, but not the details. [Not that Kitty was all that interested in all the details. At least not unless Nathan wanted to share them with her.] I don't think Nathan believes it will help, but I don't think he believes anything is going to help.

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	thisiscalm 2014-04-26 10:02 am UTC (link)
	No... I've gotten that impression too. [ Always had it. There's been a few glimmers of light, but there's always something messing it up. Suicide attempts. Him leaving. ] ...How was he while I was gone? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-26 04:16 pm UTC (link)
	.............He was... I wasn't around as much as I should have been, but when we talked he was, I don't know, good to me. [He was helping her more than she was helping him then.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-26 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	[ He nods, not entirely surprised that Kitty wasn't all that useful when it came to taking care of their fledgling serial killer. Not from what he's heard about how hard she took it. ] He's... a good kid, when it comes down to it. Troubled. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-26 09:16 pm UTC (link)
	I think so too. But... I think maybe we should add him to the watch list. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-26 09:47 pm UTC (link)
	I think you're right. [ Without hesitation. ] Before this I wasn't so sure it was a good idea, but we can't deny that he's an actual threat now. If nothing else, the teams should be aware of what kind of danger he poses to himself if not others. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-27 03:05 am UTC (link)
	Exactly. [Looking down at her new artificial hand, flexing the fingers.] He wanted me to promise if he did something I wouldn't blame myself. [She hasn't known him long, but she got attached pretty fast. What else is new?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-27 10:53 am UTC (link)
	[ You know what, as weird as this is he kind of needs to overlook the whole body thing and just... sit down next to her. Not much hugging or handholding yet but there is some closeness. ] You've gotten pretty close to each other, haven't you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-27 03:06 pm UTC (link)
	[She appreciates that at least.] Yeah. He's not really much like any of my students, but I guess he reminds me of them. [There's this thing called transference...] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-27 08:35 pm UTC (link)
	So you want to protect him. [ Because she couldn't protect her students. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-27 09:37 pm UTC (link)
	I want to protect everyone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-27 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	You can't protect everyone. [ Believe him, he tried. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-27 10:03 pm UTC (link)
	I still want to protect as many as I can. [He wasn't wrong about it being extra important with Nathan since she couldn't save her students.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-27 10:33 pm UTC (link)
	Just... [ He draws a breath. Starts over. ] Nathan is right. Don't blame yourself if you fail. [ Like he is now, because it's crippling and soulcrushing and knowing her, she's already done enough of it for a lifetime. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-27 10:42 pm UTC (link)
	I told him I'd do my best, but it's easier said than done, right? [Looking at you, Reid. She knows.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-27 11:03 pm UTC (link)
	[ Of course she knows. She knows a lot about him. Too much, at times. ] Yeah... it is. Which is why we don't need two people needlessly taking the blame. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-28 04:46 am UTC (link)
	You think you get to hog it all? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2014-04-28 09:30 am UTC (link)
	He's not your responsibility, Kitty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-04-29 12:08 am UTC (link)
	[Those Ton eyes are getting a little harder looking.] Don't do that. You don't get to decide who I care about. He's living in my home too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2014-04-29 10:14 am UTC (link)

I didn't say that. [ Stiffly. He could say something about what it's like to save a potential serial killer while knowing fully well that there's a good chance they'll meet again, only that time there'll be a lot more dead bodies because he didn't let that scrawny kid die the first time around. He doesn't. It's not an argument he has any chance of winning. ]

I know what he's capable of. I know the danger here. If he kills someone, how is that not my responsibility?