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Lieutenant Commander Data (thirdcriterion) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-11-18 12:04:00

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data, geordi la forge, helen magnus, jean-luc picard, kitty pryde (aoa), spencer reid

day 245 [ video | backdated | open ]
While many who knew her are already aware, it nonetheless seems prudent to inform the populace at large that Seven of Nine is no longer present in the facility. It is likely that she had a number of acquaintances, outside those with which I am familiar, for whom this information would be relevant.

[ And if you happen to be acquainted with Data as he is in the facility, you may notice something missing in his words. Those from the Enterprise crew could likely tell you exactly what it is, as his speech has reverted to the perfectly even, controlled tones they knew well for so many years. ]

I am sorry that I must bear this news. Her absence will be noted.

[ ooc: hey marinades, I'm on hiatus this month so forgive the lateness of this post and any slowtagging that may ensue ]

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thirdcriterion
2013-12-15 02:25 am UTC (link)

And for that I am most grateful.

[ Emotion or not, he does manage a small smile there. ]

I must admit that knowing the emotional state in which I will find myself does make it difficult to feel particularly motivated to reactive it. However, denying those negative emotional responses could undermine the significance of those positive ones which I experienced as a result of my relationship with Annika.

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visualizing
2013-12-16 08:43 pm UTC (link)

[Geordi nods along. He's not entirely surprised Data understands that, but he's oddly proud to hear it. Emotions weren't always the easiest thing for Data to compute, so to speak.] That's exactly right. I mean, it'll hurt, but that's because there are so many good things to miss.

We all know what it's like to lose someone, Data. It's part of the human experience you want. But if it helps... even though it's hard at first, as time passes you'll be able to remember the good things without it hurting so much. I promise. In order to get to that part, though, you have to go through the hard stuff. The longer you put it off, the longer it'll take to get through. [A lesson he learned with the loss of his mother. He couldn't deal with his feelings until he could accept she was really gone.]

[Gently, he pats his friend on the arm.] Why don't you turn it on? I'm not going anywhere.

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thirdcriterion
2013-12-17 03:28 am UTC (link)

[ For all of the input offered, he simply nods; he knows that Geordi is far more experienced with the emotional aspect of loss than he is. As many people as Data has lost - and there has been no shortage - his emotions were felt in retrospect. For all the perfect clarity of his memory, it's still not the same as this is, as experiencing the loss in the moment as it happens, reeling in the aftermath of it.

Having lost someone is not the same as losing someone. But how often, and how firmly, had he professed that he would accept sorrow as it would mean that he could feel joy? The human experience was made up of both, and that was what he wanted, what he had always strived for. And Geordi is here - that does mean a great deal. ]

I will try.

[ And he closes his eyes, and with a minor quirk of his head... it's back. All of it comes rushing back - involuntarily, memories are recalled to the forefront of his processes, and his neural pathways are flooded with the emotional rush, an oppressive overpowering of his functions that shoves other processes aside. His shoulders tense and then heave slightly as he opens his eyes again, now having gained a clouded depth. His face, moments ago as perfectly controlled as it had ever been, now wrought with the feeling that rushes over him. His mouth is a tense, closely drawn frown, his brows furrowed. Slowly, he parts his lips- there's a tremble to them - as he slowly draws in and out an unnecessary but nonetheless steadying breath before he tries to speak. Once again, clearly, he feels. ]

It is...

[ His voice is not as steady yet as he had hoped, and so he pauses as he shakes his head. ]

It is a most potent sensation.

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visualizing
2013-12-17 04:19 am UTC (link)

[The change is instant and, though expected, jarring to Geordi. Not because he's caught off-guard; seeing Data in pain simply affects him like a sudden, sharp cut. A clean one, even as its made he can tell it won't fester, but the sting is very real.]

[His coffee cup already down in anticipation, Geordi reaches up to grip Data's shoulder and hold it. Steady in the face of the proverbial vertigo he knows Data must have.] Yeah. [There's a lot in that one word. Sympathy, understanding, the implicit offer of anything and everything that Data might need now. Data would likely recognize the tone even without his emotion chip -- with it active, it should be unmistakeable.]

[And Geordi is, distantly, glad. Proud of his friend for loving someone this much, such a very human feeling that had been his fondest dream for so long. Data had never been lacking or incomplete, but nonetheless, now he is more.]

[Thanks Seven, he thinks, wherever you are, thanks. I hope you know what you've done for him, and I hope he did it for you too.]

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thirdcriterion
2013-12-19 04:24 am UTC (link)

[ The tone is immediately identified; it's interesting how the combination of that and the simple feeling of his friend's hand on his shoulder affects the onslaught of emotion. Through the incessant hyperactivity of his neural transmitters, the blur of information in his matrix, there is something to ground him. It's remarkable how effective it is, and for a moment Data wonders what that sort of comforting grasp would feel like if he were able to process tactile information as a human would. It's hard not to, after his experience with the Borg - something Geordi, of course, doesn't yet know about.

It is not surprising when he finds himself producing tears - not unlike a human crying, it does provide a release for emotion beyond a certain threshold. ]

I... miss her.

[ He shakes his head, a small motion, and pauses. ]

There are other individuals whose absence I feel, retrospectively, however... processing a loss in the immediate aftermath is a distinctly separate experience.

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